Ying's harbour

2009-07-24T17:55:00.003+08:00

blogger is finally back to normal,but i have decided to move my "house".

I'm changing to wordpress so as to maintain both public and private post,because sometimes,i want to rant unpleasant stuffs,but i guess it's too offensive to be so obvious,but i can't private my particular entry,so ya,i decided to move to wordpress because i can import all my previous entries in blogger to wordpress, A YEAH thing for me!cos i dun wanna leave behind my blogger blog,it's like leaving my old self behind.

Do update your link because i will private this blog in a few days' time:)

here is my blog url: http://caixinying.wordpress.com

macbook back!

2009-07-15T15:07:00.002+08:00

Oh yay!i finally got back my macbook ytd!Macbook,I love you!!dun failed me again,please?!?!hahas.Apple literally changed my whole display screen and my laptop seems new again.hahas.BUT,unfortunately,this means that my 20 bucks spent on the protective screen is wasted because putting it back means got bubbles and etc.=.=''

i updated some of my software ytd night and i didn't realized my safari has been updated to the latest version.no wonder it took so long to download the update ytd lah=.=''

Safari 4.0 is awesome!!seriously.i love it the core despite using it for only one morning.i dunno is it my internet connection is faster or what,but at least it connect things faster.a great improvement.and browsing is so much easier with the multi-shot view lah!super cool!!hahas.apple is creative,u know.but that doesn't means i'm not resistant towards apple product.i mean after my macbook incident,i have lost quite a lot of faith/confidence in apple products as it seems exceptionally fragile and not long-lasting.

Handphones.i WANT NEW HP!but there are no nice designs with my desired functions in it lah.I want touch-screen cum type handphone,with the wi-fi function,but it seems like either the price is expensive or the designs is not my cup of tea.gosh,i'm desperately seeking a new handphone but none caught my eyes?!?Come On,new designs flood in at a reasonable price!!

also,i'm pondering the question whether should i stick to Nokia.because it lacks the look for user contact if i switched off my hp.like i will have no idea who called me like that.it's a must function for me because i love to switch off my hp.hahas.iPhone is great,but like i said it earlier,i dun have that confidence back in me for Apple products currently.

alright,enough of my whining.today is quite a great day for me because NO SCHOOL!hahas.i need to stay at home for e-learning!!=)that's great because i still have 1 unfinished socpsy essay but i haven start yet because of the e-learning assignments.and i want to take a rest 1st before continuing writing in english.slack hur.

ytd presentation was a blast!i have so much fun in the presentation lah,laughing so much:Dhahas,everyone presentation is so unique and fun and i totally enjoyed it!it's a great thing since i also improved on my presentation skills.

alright,i'm going do my socpsy now.totally unfazed by it.hahas.

smilex always!:D

exhausted

2009-07-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

There's been a couple of event that happened lately but i seriously have no time to update my blog and share it up here.

First,i'm using a BORROWED macbook white as my macbook has some internal problem.so much for paying 2.6k and it gave me a headache in less than 4months' time.somemore,the plug for the macbook is also spoilt for no reason.i nearly got a big scare when i can't switch on my macbook on monday and i quickly went down to service centre.and they told me they would not be responsible for my data if i did not backup.if i can't my screen wouldn't appear,may i know how am i supposed to do backup?and how would i know my macbook will crash so easily if they would to rebutt me for not doing backup?but thankfully,my hard disk wasn't spoilt and i was able to do backup later that night.sometimes,i just hate the inflexible company policy(but i can completely understand their situation.)

Second,i'm feeling utterly demoralized when i see my efforts not being recognized by the teacher.It's like everyone of us put in so much effort for the work,but what we get back was negative comments.i know the common thing that ya,u put in effort doesn't mean it would pay off and negative comments make u improve,but seriously,i just think it's demoralizing. maybe,perhaps maybe,i'm just a sore loser deep in my heart.i just can't accept failure and negative comments.

Third,i'm totally freaked out by the amount of work that i need to finish by this semester.though it's a week by week basis of handing up assignment,but it's just SO MUCH.i really think that my heart is going to failed me anytime,like i'm really having a heart attack soon.i just think that maybe i really still need more time to adapt well in this unfamiliar environment.=(

Fourth,i'm pondering with the question again,have i chosen the correct course?i'm really super suspicious of my choice right now,when i'm not adapting well to the school environment and course.i just feel that my passion are draining off every now and then,and lessons feel like workshop instead of proper lesson.=(it's so not secondary school life.

FINE,STOP COMPLAINING AND WHINING,MISS CHOY.time to pick yourself up and move forward.there's nothing i can do except keep looking forward=(

2009-06-30T23:39:00.002+08:00

我不需要隐瞒，心里现在真的混乱。

我怀疑自己是否做对了选择，怎么中学一读完，世界怎么好像变了似的呢？

怎么读书让我觉得那么陌生？怎么以前读书的回忆看似那么遥远？

是我做错了选择吗？所以我现在才那么的痛苦？

我想这是我面对的障碍，我必需克服，但我真的觉得好抗拒哦。

我甚麽才艺都没有，可是一次又一次的我必需呈现我最拿手的那一面，

是哪一面啊？我的长项到底在哪里？我真的很迷惘。

我真的很想靠自己的努力去做好每一件功课，

但我真的怀疑自己的能力到底在哪里？为什么这么多我不在行的事情？

我只想发牢骚，我会坚强的，但我需要时间。

心，好像拖着一块沉重的石头，一直得不到解脱，一直找不到出口，一直在压抑着。

IT HURTS!

2009-06-28T00:02:00.003+08:00

IT HURTS.

Not my heart though,hahas:)

Yes,the braces in my teeth is hurting me a lot!especially i have just put on the lower teeth braces.I even have ulcers/red spots now due to the countless friction the braces and lips have been going through.I can't even bite normally,i can't even brush normally,i can't even talk properly!aarrgghh,i'm seriously feeling uncomfortable la!I'm still getting used to it.Yes,It must be!I really hope i can adapt soon if not i want to faint liao!!

alright,i finished ranting.cos i'm feeling grumpy towards the braces now.hahas.i have to even take painkillers before i eat any food,in case the teeth hurts like mad.hopefully,i will adapt to it soon:)

Work today was literally just fooling around,thanks to mel boredom.we just keep on taking each other temperature and towards the end,blood pressure,hahas.I low-blood pressure and e conclusion we get is the thing is just purely inaccurate.hahas.

and i beat my dad in wii bowling for 3 consecutive round!!yay!strike turkey for the last round in one game!was so happy la!maybe i should aim for strike in 4th consecutive row.hehes.wii is definitely fun to play.hahas.

I'm back to reading Twilight Saga and yea,i'm totally engrossed in it that i neglected my work.but thank goodness,i think i've finished all ray assignment,including cover page and citation,so ya,tmr is one work off my mind.I'm currently working on SOCPSY assignment and that's really killing me.i really dun feel like reading the textbook(why can't they make it as interesting as Twilight den i will be dying to read!) and that's why no inspirations for the assignment.=(

alright,i should perk myself up and start picking up the book to read.

Tmr is a busy day with making food and going out!hahas=)

smilex always!=)

对今天发生的事情所做的反思

2009-06-23T21:08:00.003+08:00

老师说对待人就应该真诚坦白，而我也尽量以这样的心态对待我的朋友，之前是，之后也是，可是，我不明白为什么我最近的真诚坦白换来的却是一则又一则的谎言。

我不认为今天的事情很好笑，也是可以这样开玩笑的，我其实很生气，毕竟，现在流感肆虐，我不希望大家都掉以轻心的对待这件事情。当然，你可以“不爽”，可以生气我去告状，可以大骂你喜欢的三字经，但这一次，我的确问心无愧的做对事情。倘若你说的发生了，而你也打算照你说的做，我觉得那是不负责任的做法，你没有想到你威胁了多少人的健康，没有想到多少人会因为你而受牵累，没有想到事情的严重性，因为你认为好玩/有趣/好笑，所以就在冲动下做了这样不成熟的行为。

我常常不认同你的想法/做法，而我也不知道我该佩服还是感叹你冲动的原力，但是我希望你真的能在你的行为中成熟一点，因为你从来不知道你的的不成熟带给多少人的困扰。

大家都不指出他人的缺点，因为怕伤了他人，而我们大家也都运用同样的原理，不指出并不代表你做对了，有时候，做一些反思会让你更看清楚自己，而不是一味的困在表面的框框里。

我知道，读完了之后，你会很“不爽”，一定会通过某种管道来发泄你的情绪，可是这一次，我真的希望你知道自己错在哪里。如果因为这样讨厌我，我觉得我也无济于事。

对，今天发生了不愉快的事情，而且我不希望常常以skeptical的态度面对朋友/人，因为最近常常在不同场合遇到对我撒谎的人。我害怕自己以后都回有了“狼来了”那种心态，因为受骗过，所以不信任。以上的言论，我不添加了很多的个人情绪，因为会显得很火爆（反应了我现在不满的情绪）。我也已经选用了最婉转的字眼。

因为是朋友，所以才信任。我不希望我对那些人的信任已经瓦解，虽然已经发生了这样的事情。

a slacky day!

2009-06-21T23:55:00.003+08:00

I'm in a pretty good mood today because i finally found the song i'm looking for!

wahaha,thanks to sherrill super pro friend!like i just tell him part of the lyrics(a bit inaccurate) and whether is it slow/fast song,and he found the song le!omg,so 神la!

hahas.

anyway,FYI,the song i'm finding is called "No boundaries",by Kris Allen.I listened to both Kris Allen version and Adam Lambert version,and i really think/prefer Kris Allen version.sorry,not pro in english songs but i think Kris sang this song much better than Adam Lambert.Yea,so now i'm really excited about the fact i found e song,wahaha.

slacky day today cos i din do much homework today,but at least i'm near to finish ray individual assignment.i seriously hope that all my assignments can be finished on time la.

haiya,who says poly life not stressed?

and i went out to plaza singapura to help chienyi with his fund raising project,but i guess i din contribute much,sorry,BFF.=(

alright,i shall sleep early today so that i can wake up early to do homework tmr.socpsy individual assignment,GOSH!kill me man!=(

P.S.my leg is so suan now la!discomfort!!=(

my life

2009-06-19T13:30:00.004+08:00

oops,didn't update my blog again.Life's hectic even though i'm holiday.There are tons of homework that can't seems to be finished.and it's all group assignment which means combined efforts,and it means meeting up etc,it's not a bad thing but i preferred individual assignment.hahas.cos i can take charged of my learning mahx=)

Anyway,i either keep going out or worked this holiday and i thought holiday are meant for me to take a short break,haiya.how contradicting.

Sunday:Went to eat Sakura with my family and i wasn't hungry tat day!so sad!but i still forced myself eat loads till i wanna puke,especially i saw the state of toilet there.=(anyway,saw shaqeella and one 4A schoolmate as they are working there=)

hahas,so surprising.

Monday: I went to eat Sakae with Mel,Win and Siang Len(Store in charge),again,i eat until i wanna puke le la.maybe i should eat red plate 1st next time,to prevent me from being too full den cannot eat le.and i really think most sakae outlet staffs are really unhelpful and have poor attitude la.i shalln't eat there next time le,should try other sushi buffet outlet=)

(p.s.except for that "shuai ge".hahas)

Tuesday: After working,i went to get my WII set officially.I went with my brother to meet mama at Orchard Central(she was having high tea with her secondary school friend),was intending to use her VISA,but the shop was newly opened,so no VISA machine,ended up using back my own NETS card.ya,i'm broke now.seriously broke.but WII is fun,definitely!=)

den bus down to Chinatown to eat the fluffy Chicken rice.hahas=)

Wednesday:Went to NLB to do some research with Sherrill.hahas.we went to the reference library and inside was so quiet la,i was like trying to stop making so much noise.hahas.den for the 1st time in my life,i use the microfilm thing,SO SCARY lorx.and we saw Tay Ping Hui at LVL 11 reference library.He was having a photo shoot at the singapore section.hahas.

Later,i didn't sleep the whole night cos my sister was going to Boston on an early morning flight.so we reached airport at 3am and by the time,she was inside the departure hall,it was 5plus am le.so ya,i was wide awake for the whole time and i went to sleep from 6.40am to 1 plus pm.i was seriously tired la.den afternoon,headed down to pluck my 2 tooth,and yes it's SUPER PAIN,can?not the plucking part,but the injecting part of anaesthesia.i was near to tears=(

another 2 teeth gone by next week.=(

alright,i updated my blog with a boring post.

will update again when i have time(i'm seriously depressed with the huge amount of unfinished homework la)

2009-06-15T21:59:00.002+08:00

Wah,I'M DYING OF SLEEPYNESS.

i'm feeling so exhuasted for no apparent reason,my eyes just feel sleepy.It must be due to the long-term usage of computer/laptop,so my brains immediately linked switching on laptop=doing homework.and now i 'm feeling so dizzy now.feel like having earthquake.i bet my eyes really got something wrong sia.hahas.

fine,i'm up here to rant only due to massive amount of homework that i have for the two weeks holiday.seriously,where is my holiday?!?!?grr.and all the homework seems rather tough to complete.GOSH.I have no choice but to try and finish it.=(

alright,i think i'm heading bed soon.HOPEFULLY.

2009-06-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

It's been some time since i have a decent post up here cos life is really hectic with meeting the deadline of a couple of assignments.Thankfully,i preserve on and ya,i did meet all the deadlines.YAYNESS!(Even though i didn't really score well for those assignments)

It's been really an emotional week due to certain reasons.Ya,first of all was the blow of someone.shalln't elaborate more on it cos for now,i decided to move on with my life even though i have no idea when that kind of feelings will be back again.i shall just let it down for the time being and if can,i really hope time will heal everything and anything=)

secondly, i wasn't doing exceptionally well academically in school.Yes,i feel pressurized because of someone and my not-so-good results.especially after the interview session,i seriously wonder what's wrong with me.i just need time to be back myself.and thankfully,i did walk out of my emotional side,and when Teacher Bob complimented me,i seriously feel thankfully even though i was feeling rather normal at that point of time.Though he's really picky about our photos,but what he said is like giving me a light source when i'm stucked in my dark world,ya so THANKS,TEACHER BOB!

Thirdly,it was meeting with the deadline for each and every assignment.It's really taxing and killing me when everything must be finished within this two weeks.It's like so not secondary school la.it really taught me the difference between poly life and secondary school life.

well,it's over now despite the heavy load of holiday assignments given by teacher.It's gonna be tough but no choice,i got to perserve on for it.seriously.perhaps i'm not talented in my course,so i shouldn't really expect too much out of it.and i should really try not to keep falling into people trap!seriously!and i really feel like changing my blog to livejournal because i can't private any entry in blogger.it's really irritating when i dun want someone to read my blog.

alright,i'm gonna replenish my sleep and get ready to get my wii set and hard disk tmr at the it fair!I can't wait for my Wii.hehes.

Smilex always!

2009-06-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

车子一直往单向道路行驶，

虽然不清楚前面的方向，却一意孤行的往前行驶。

结果，遇到了死角，没法回退，只得一头撞上去，

搞到自己一身伤。

拖着遍体鳞伤的自己，

车子还是回到了最初的原点。

似曾相识。

原来车子一直都在往单向道路行驶。

从前是，现在是，希望以后不是。

in school

2009-06-05T09:51:00.002+08:00

Had my Publication and design presentation just nw and i seriously is going to die of emo-ism la.(just let me rant la.my blog lehx.)

Haiya,it's like putting so much effort,spending so much time in doing my logos and business card but in the end,it's like nothing as compared to others.WORSE,STILL gotta suan by teacher:(

SO SAD.I'M REALLY DYING OF EMO-ISM.I WANNA GET OUT OF THE CLASSROOM NOW.LIKE SERIOUSLY.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I CAN'T GET THE EMO-ISM OUT OF MY HEART!

It was a flop

2009-05-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

The interview at MHA was indeed a flop.hahas.i was really crapping my way through even though i did my best to put on a calm composure facade.People went in for about 20mins but i think i only went for 10mins or less.I was really struggling with the conversation la because all those "big-head"(pls translate to chinese) ppl were really great listener.They wouldn't even prompt me qns when i have nth to say and they look at me intensely.REAL INTENSELY.i was suffocating in there man.for goodness sake,it's like a ratio of 1:10,how can i not be nervous and blabble nonsensical things?and they were picking on the fact that i didn't took any NAPFA,oh well,gotta admit that i didn't answer well too la.

Well,the only fact that i can console myself is that i did not speak like bullet train and talk really no-sense things.at least,i try to apply wad i learn in the interview itself.hahas.take it as a learning experience bahx.I'M REALLY PLEASED WITH THE FACT THAT I DID NOT TRY TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS INTERVIEW.AT LEAST I KNOW I TRIED.

well,after that went to Square2 to have a random walk around the shopping centre.it's not always that pleasant to go shopping alone.den went to meet my sister at Orchard for dinner and den headed for Monster vs Alien movie premiere.It's my 1st 3D movie and ya,at first i was fascinated with the 3D technology but the storyline wasn't that interesting.not extremely funny also lorx.but well,new experience,lesson learnt.=)

alright,i'm rather exhausted nw.sleeping soon.

smilex always!=)

P.S.I made friend with a Yr 2 senior from NP before the interview session=)

u know,与陌生人沟通的四大法则。哈哈。i apply them horx=)

A month.

2009-05-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

It's a month since i embarked on my poly school life.I think afterall,i have not made a wrong choice in coming this course though it's challenging,tiring and difficult at times but at least i enjoyed most of the lessons.It's so fun and interesting as all our homeworks and what we learned is very technical-based,not those textbooks stuffs,and it can really applied to my daily life!I'm so happy learning those techniques in communication,photgraphy,illustrator and etc=)

Though i'm happy,but all the work is really killing me lahx!!SO MANY WORK TO DO!!hopefully,all my stuffs can be done smoothly and all are done by the scheduled date.

BUT THE BAD THING IS THAT,once my chinese writing became homework,it's like a restriction and burden to me,because i hope to be recognised and this is really giving me loads of stress.i need to really stop being so childish and realistic.JUST DO UR BEST,XINYING!=)

I have sort of passed the Home Awards Psychometric test,surprisingly.and i'm gonna to an interview session.Though in the end,i will still not take up the scholarship,i guess i still wanna have a taste of the interview.I'm afraid yet i still wanna go.I guess something is wrong with my brains.

今天回家的路途上，窗外的风景跟以往一样，

依旧是经过那一整排的私人住宅、经过那火车轨道、经过那些购物中心，

只是由于时间上的不同，

今天遇到了很多的中学生，

而坐在车上，我望着那些穿着校服成群结队的中学生，

我想起去年的我，穿着校服的我。

我怀念起穿校服的日子。

虽然校服不怎么美丽，虽然校服不怎么吸引人，

但看着那些学生，我似乎重燃了对校服的思念，

原来校服已经在不知不觉中占据了我人生中的一个位置。

校服，勾起了我在中学生涯中快乐美好的回忆，

虽然中学生活中也充满了很多的苦与累，

但不知怎么的，现在想起的尽是开心的回忆，似乎从前的生活中都没有“苦”这个字眼。

我怀念的。

STRESS!

2009-05-17T17:37:00.002+08:00

I need some 色彩 to brighten up my day,seriously!

Photography assignment is so tough that i dun even have any inspirations for the photograph and i seriously think that the photographs that i took are seriously not up to the standard.I'M SO TROUBLED!

I feel so depressed now la.i think i'm going crazy soon.

update a proper post next time=)

NO SCHOOL TMR!

2009-05-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

YAY!THERE IS NO SCHOOL FOR ME TMR!A MAKE-UP HOLIDAY SESSION FOR E VESAK DAY=)

I CAN REALLY GET SOME GOODY SLEEP LE!WOOHOOS!=)

No school because lectures were pushed to other day due to Graduation Ceremony.so Happy Graduation for those HMS Students=)

BUT,seriously speaking.i wasn't really in a high mode today,and in fact a bit emo-ish.i just couldn't help it but feel emo-ish and i've such an urge to cry now.i guess there's always someday where i just need to feel low.

This week VISCOM task is extremely difficult and i definitely need to crack my brains hard to capture those dream shots.and SPEPRE lessons was extremely interesting(excluding e game part which i catch no clues).i certainly going to apply those skills in my daily life=)

Oh ya,did i mention i was shortlisted for Home Team Affairs Award?and i got to go down to Police Cantonment Complex for a test!Police Cantonment Complex lehx,a place which i really wanna go since young not as a criminal but a staff.even if i did get the award,having been step inside is an honour=)hahas.ok,i'm nuts.

I was rather disappointed that i wasn't called for an interview for both NP and SPH scholarship intially,really.i even questioned myself was it because i was too lousy.but as wad mum says,it doesn't matter whether u get or not.IT'S OK=)

我知道有些东西不能用钱来衡量，

但我不想我的兴趣因为很多理由变成一种束缚。

我喜欢打保龄球，但种种的因素都这个cca很不利，

钱、交通、时间、朋友等等因素。

或许就因为如此，我才那么的难受。

心里的难过找不到宣泄的出口。

Reading & Reading & Reading

2009-05-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

School life is indeed hectic and i believe i will whack ppl if they say poly life is all about slacking.It's just so tiring everyday,especially my lesson dun end early at all,except for friday BUT i got to wake up at 8am for lesson before getting release at 1pm.

Life is busy with school and work and READING.i've been reading printed notes since just now and i dunno how much info has gone into my brain.guess i will need to revise those notes again.and i haven read finish yet.GOSH.

Not only that,there's a test on tuesday and it's based on current affairs.this means i need to read my newspaper and know about what's happening around the world.hopefully,i wouldn't fare my paper that badly.I know it's the first test but i seriously hope that i would at least get a pass for that paper.=)

There's also quite a number of projects coming up,seems like almost each module have a project to complete and the most wonderful part is that they are all DUE ON WK 8.GREAT.Next week is week 4 and this means that we only have less than a month to complete a handful of projects.COOL.

Hopefully,i would be able to finish most of my homework this week cos i really dun like to see it piling it up.but reading,i guess i have to take a break from it.

enough of my ranting.though there's been a lot of things going on,but at least,i'm kind of enjoying my poly life=)It's fun and entertaining though it's tiring to move from 1 classroom to the other.Most of the lessons are interesting too,hahas.=)and almost all of lecturers are very gentle.seriously gentle,regardless of their voice or actions.hahas.

Weird things happened too,like my verbal communication in chinese is getting more and more lousy with all kinds of singlish saying.hahas,i must really tried to get rid of those singlish saying.SPEAK GOOD CHINESE!hahas.

alright,i'm rather tired after doing homework.shall blog the other time.

smilex always!=)

JIAYOU,XINYING!=)

2009-05-03T22:57:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,MUMMY!=)

Today is my dear mummy birthday but we didn't went out to celebrate lavishly cos of some reasons but nvm,my dad and i treat my mum eat chilli crab and i did have a great time eating them!
Eating Chilli Crab=my happy days!
hahas.i'm nuts,i know.

YAY.i'm also super elated that i've finished almost all of my homework.the social psychology textbook is killing me with all the reading.Though it's much better than the alien language physics textbook,but it's still driving me nuts with WORDS,WORDS AND MORE WORDS.not a single page with pictures.JUST PURELY WORDS.wah.IT'S A CRAZY WORLD.and a NOT-SO-GOOD TEXTBK.

anyway,i'm also elated because i managed to capture some nice picture for my weekly assignment,thanks to my dad.hahas.he give me some ideas and indeed,the pictures turn out to be quite nice.Not disclosing it here 1st cos i'm worried that some people might grab my pictures and claim that they took it themselves,so i'm showing u guys after this week,ok?=)Do anticipate=)

IN ANY CASE,i'm so tired.seriously dead beat.and i'm really having loads of doubt for tmr bowling trial session.I know nobody there and i'm sure i'm turning into a pocupine again.seriously.I want JINYAN & LIJING TO BE WITH ME!=(
If not for my strong and stubborn personality,i would really give it a miss.but i dun want regrets.That's what stopping me from skipping this trial session.Hopefully,things will turn out well.and i will not LAO KUI there.AARRGGHH!DILEMMA.

well,i'm going to catch some sleep now.
smilex always!=)

TIRESOME WEEK

2009-05-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

IT'S AN EXTREMELY TIRESOME WEEK,regardless work or school.

Been racking my brains for all sort of things,especially homework,which some of my homework is like so abstract.

As my course got one module called visual communication(we are having photography lesson now),we learned things like aperture and shutter speed and i got to hand in 2 photos of slow and fast shutter speed respectively.AND I'VE NO SINGLE IDEA HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CAPTURE THOSE ARTISTIC SHOT.haiya,it's a frustrating week.

Worse,the Publication & Design module is killing me too,hopefully i will overcome my retardness about the software soon=)

There's a lot of homeworks to do and a lot of projects are due on 8th week!it's like i really need to manage my time well..

Work is somewhat overloading too,especially with the H1N1 virus.thursday and friday was horrifying due to the crowd.fortunately,i'm able to rest tomorrow or else i will die of exhaustion.I'm seriously going to get all my homework done.NO MORE PROCASTINATION OR I WILL REALLY BE DEAD.

anyway,showing you guys one of my homework which i took an hour plus to write.OMG.

hopefully as time goes by,i can write faster=)afterall,it's been long since i write a proper chinese essay.hahas.

"众所周知，现在墨西哥流感肆虐，人人都为自己与家人的健康而深感担忧，大家便一窝蜂的跑去药房抢着购买口罩，温度计，洗手液，手套等等卫生用品，使得药房现在出现了“人山人海”的难得景色，一点经济大萧条的影子也没有。

以上是我这两天工作以来所观察到的情景，店里涌现的人潮是我工作以来看过最多的一次，这也让我忙得晕头转向，每天讲得话也就是“口罩没有货了”，“温度计卖完了”，“我们也不清楚几时会有货”等等的话语。而我今天很不幸地被几位阿嫂给讲了一顿，说什么为什么我们不存多一些货，为什么我们不多来一些货，怎么没有候补货等等的责备字眼。听到这些话，我也只能说声抱歉与解释货实在供不应求。老实说，说抱歉只是出于我对客人的尊重，而不是因为我真的觉得抱歉，毕竟，这是自己的疏忽，怎能怪罪于我们这些销售员呢？

怎么会是自己的疏忽呢？原因很简单，因为说到底，都是自己的掉以轻心惹的祸。如果我们吸取了沙斯疫情的教训，现在应该都在注意着自己的卫生，都始终有着为雨愁缪的心态，何必到现在才因为又有新一波的流感而开始抢购着口罩等卫生用品呢？

我们新加坡人就是这样，没有未雨绸缪的好习惯。自从沙斯受到控制以后，大家都渐渐的把良好卫生习惯等基本事情忘得一干二净，直到一有新的传染性病毒出现，才开始又注意起卫生习惯。当然，我没有怪罪于谁，只是觉得我们很肤浅，不管卫生部如何强调要一直有着强烈的卫生意识，但总没有多少人能牢牢的记住这些劝导。其实说穿了，我们常常抱着“有危机才注意卫生，没危机关它的”的不良心态，所以我们才因为一有新的病毒而感到那么惶恐。

不管怎样，我希望这是最后一次了吧，希望这次流感受到控制以后，我们新加坡人能更注意自己的卫生习惯，不需要再多一次的疫情来敲醒我们的警钟，更不要把自己的掉以轻心怪罪于他人。"

oh ya,i write my 1st lovey-dovey short essay in my entire 16plus years.and i think i've a big room for improvement.

as for my CCA,i decided to go for bowling despite having know no one.i sincerely hope that i will make friend asap.and hopefully,i wouldn't make a fool out of myself.I REALLY SINCERELY WISH.

我想回到过去

2009-04-27T21:15:00.002+08:00

我知道，过了人生的某些阶段，就不能回到过去，
我知道，我不能一直回头望着过去，
我知道，人与人之间是不能做比较，
我知道，我应该试着适应新生活，
我知道的很多，但我不想往前走。

我知道这只是心里一时的难过与彷徨，
但我觉得很累，是那种毫无理由的累。
现在又流泪的冲动，因为我很怀念大家在我身旁的时候。
我知道，这只是过渡时期，我也希望这样的日子能快点过去，
因为很累，很无助。

我知道我会遇到形形色色的人，
但我没那个耐心去忍受每个人的缺点，
我知道我很自私，但我的心会不自觉地抗拒。

我是刺猬，很想逃避一切的懦弱刺猬。

我很累，不知道是心灵上的累，还是身体上的疲累？
我只知道，我也很烦。

A week of poly life

2009-04-25T22:16:00.003+08:00

A week of poly life has passed.A tiresome and eventful week.

Well,Poly life is alright,it's just that i still have not adapt and attuned to the large amount of freedom the school gave us,like for e.g.long breaks between lessons,no more 'spoon-feeding' us, a lot of self-motivational work and getting out of school for just lunch.hahas.well,it's new and fresh to me.in any case,IT JUST FEELS LIKE I'M HAVING SOME WORKSHOP OR ENRICHMENT PROGRAMME RATHER THAN LESSONS.hahas.i've got to absorb the knowledge that the teachers teach,seriously.(because normally i wouldn't absorb anything during workshop lesson)hahas.

Well,in any case,what i need is still TIME to adapt to everything that is happening in my poly life=)

CCAs.I've no idea whether should i joined Bowling,which i got to pay 16bucks for every training session or LEO Club which is an event-based CCA.haiya,i really have no idea what to choose.maybe,i will go for the bowling trial 1st before i decide on anything=)

Thoughts.I just thought that even though we are studying in poly,that doesn't automatically set us into competitive mode and always compete with one another endlessly and openly.i know i have an overpowering urge of winning everything,it's me since young,but i do know something can't be forced.i will definitely try to convert my winning urge to learn humbly from everyone else.in any case,my course is filled with ppl who are good in chinese,so naturally,i will learn from them.IT'S A BRAND NEW START.

hopefully,my mind and soul wouldn't be filled all those negative thoughts.POSITIVE AURA,I NEED YOU.=)

I have this feeling,in my course,we are not competing equally due to our different background.

Well,LET'S WORK HARD!=)

Xinying fighting!

1st day of school!

2009-04-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

1st day of school!AFTER 6 LONG MONTHS BREAK.

hahas.everybody was just unfamiliar with one another so lessons was filled with silence and awkward pauses and etc.just the same old things that u always encountered during the 1st day of lesson.

anyway,my class is has some super AMK who speaks english until like so slang,which i envy a lot.but unfortunately,i've no idea but why,i've got a feeling that they are quite 碧球.and there are some foreign friends who are extremely loud in their attire.hahas.perhaps it's due to the vague understanding i've of them.hopefully i will get to mixed around more and more=)

Lessons was also long and lecturers were friendly.Our part time lecturer for publication and design,Norman,is an extremely random guy.but he really indeed helps to lighten the atmosphere.He talk halfway and he asks us where is the water cooler because he feels rather thirsty.hahas.so funny.

in any case,hopefully the rest of my school days will get better and better=)

i've also got homework or u can say some sort of reflection to do today.i've did my best because he just give a vague description of wad he wants.so ya...

going to sleep now cos school starts @9am tmr and ends at 6pm tmr!!3hrs break in between though and we decided to visit the CCA fiesta and go out for lunch.(we are just too free!hahas)

I MISSED KRANJI and my 10 YEARS OF REGULAR SCHOOLING STYLE DEARLY.

but i will grow up and adapt to it=)

我不知道自己做的选择对不对，

或许这是一个过渡期，所以我才会这样忐忑不安与犹豫。

BACK TO SCHOOL.

2009-04-19T21:57:00.003+08:00

Back to school tomorrow and it's a brand new beginning again!
I've got to start everything again and i wonder how my life will progress.In any case,i shall really work hard and try my best in everything i do!=)
and of course,i will try as much as possible not to do things against my will and wishes.
Lesson starts at 11am,so i guess i have to wake up at around 9am,that isn't too bad as compared to secondary school life where i got to wake up at 6am.but my lessons drag till 6pm in the evening.That's definitely a test of my patience and my attention.hahas.

Well,i end lesson at 6pm on monday and tuesday,4pm on wednesday and friday and 1pm on friday!There's no school-less day for me but i guess i won't have to envy too.also,i haven activate my NEW student pass yet.guess i will spend finish the dollar plus in my secondary school ez-link card first.hahas.

In any case,i anticipate and dread school tomorrow.I guess i've to undergo some setback again while making friends due to my extraordinary personality.hmphs.but i guess showing true self is better than wearing a mask when making friends.oh crap,i actually dunno wad to blog.i'm actually here to commemorate my last day of holidays.hahas.

oh ya,i guess i will lose sleep again.not because i'm excited but my mind and body just won't drift to sleep.hahas.so kiddish of me.=)

Well well,i charged finish my macbook and i think it's really a chore charging macbook because it takes forever.hahas.one con about macbook.
in any case,i REALLY dunno wad to blog.

Good luck to every poly freshmen!=)

P.S.hopefully i won't be pestered by over friendly seniors to show me where my classroom is.I really dread this.hahas.
P.P.S.My hairstyle look atrociously out of place now.i'm going to lie that i was born with this kind of hairstyle.
P.P.P.S.I want LIJING AND JINYAN to go to school with me tmr!hahas.I'm afraid of strangers.

Bad Day

2009-04-18T22:07:00.003+08:00

Today is an emo cum make-mistakes Day.i guess it's e punishment for me for not lending Mr Wee a helping hand.

Today was another sweltering hot day and when i worked at store,i made a lot of mistakes which is like so stupid of me.I'M SO DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF WHEN I KEEP MAKING MISTAKES.AARGH.

haiya,but 经一事，长一智 mahx,so i shall treat every mistakes as a learning opportunity=)

(i mean this is the only way to comfort myself a little bit.)

and OMG.school is starting the day after tomorrow.It's like i wondered am i prepared mentally and physically for school?hahas,even if not,i still have to go to school mahx.hahas.

我讨厌自己随风的态度，

有时後别人的印象会变成我的印象，

有时後我在想自己的坚持在哪里？

灰飞烟灭了吗？

嗨哟，厌恶这样的自己。

如果决定放弃了，就不要后悔自己的决定。

Ajisen

2009-04-17T20:57:00.002+08:00

Yay!Went to eat Ajisen yesterday with Melissa,Win and Siang Len.It was my first trip there and if not Siang Len,i guess i would nv have spent so much on a meal.hahas.The ramen was indeed nice but i guess the soup base was as salty as ever even though it was nice.hahas.I ordered the seafood ramen and i really did not regret it.the sotong paled in contrast with the scallops and the crab.hahas.anyway,i enjoyed my dinner=)

Today met with LiJing n Jinyan for lunch and movie(The Sniper),though it's only me and jinyan who eat and watch.hahas.It's been long since i watched an hour plus movie and it was really short,feel a little bit not worth it.but before that,we went to KFC and have our lunch.I supposed we talk quite loudly but i couldn't care less la.it really feels good to have a nice chat with them.hahas.=)

The Sniper movie was quite nice.i would give it a 3.5 for the movie but i think it was too fast-paced for a movie.hahas.

haiya,i now watching tv.super distracted.shall update again..=)

P.S.

Chien Yi,

I'm really sorry that i couldn't lend u a helping hand for tmr stuffs.REALLY SORRY!

NP Induction

2009-04-15T21:22:00.002+08:00

Been to Ngee Ann Poly these 2 days and ytd was to attend macbook training and today was for the induction programme.

Macbook training was kind of random and useless to me because firstly,i wasn't paying much attention as i was busy talking to junquan and peiyen.

secondly,it's not like we dunno how to explore this laptop.he really taught us those extreme basic stuffs.though i'm still not that familiar to mac,but wad he taught i do know most of them.hahas,flattering myself.*grins*

initially,the induction programme makes me feel rather lonely because i wasn't sitting with my friends and in such a big environment,i feel some sort of uneasiness.at that point of time,i really missed KSS=( but after that,it was alright.

anyway,i got to meet some of my course mates and meet some of them,but unfortunately, for now,most of all i know is guys(cos the row i sit in is with quite a number of guys).hahas.hopefully,i will get to know more of them during the coming monday=)

gtg.smilex always!=)

memories of my lower secondary sch life

2009-04-11T22:47:00.008+08:00

I was clearing one of mybookshelves today and i find back some unique memories of my lower secondary school life.hahas.It was rather hilarious to see some of my "masterpiece".

Here it is:

Secondary 1 life

My artwork for EOY examination.It was definitely a torture for me,much worse than physics.imagine needing to draw and paint on the spot an art idiot like me!thank goodness,my sister have a trial run with me on how to draw and paint so as to prevent me from making a mess during examination and at loss of what of to do.hahas.intelligent huh,my family?also,we choose the most easiest thing to draw so that i would not struggle too much during examination.hahas,thank goodness,Sec 3 n 4 had no art classes.HENG arh.

Hahas,does any people from my class still rmb this?It's one of the assignments that we are supposed to do so as to secure our PPR marks.anyway,the school just keep threatening us with the "Promotion exercise" which i personally think is a bit of crap la.hahas,to think i actually took it quite seriously.but anyway,it's part of the journey.if not for that,we will just think that we can just slack for our secondary school life=)

Woohoos,i am actually quite erm embarrassed to show this self-composed poem.It's actually one of the assignment for literature(inside the file shown above) and i dun understand why mr Goh actually admired this piece of crap poem.(he give me 23/30 for this assignment,i guess it must be my effort,hahas.)

THIS POEM IS LITERALLY SO SILLY.hahas.i couldn't stop smiling when i saw this poem.

My first newspaper report!It's a random piece,anyway.hahas.i thought this was rather well written.at least in my opinion la.hahas.afterall,my english standard remains as lousy as ever.can't be blame.I was not borned to be an AMK.=)

Secondary 2 life

can u believe i actually got such good grades for my physics paper when i was in sec 2?i wonder where did my talent for physics have gone to.perhaps mr ong soon kiat did teach well,but nevertheless,i nearly fall asleep in some of his lesson because it was so BORING.hahas.BUT,i still rmb the PAPA battery,MAMA battery and BABY battery,not forgetting his lame jokes=)

Look at this!hahas.I'm so honoured to be named as the exemplary student=)

actually,i did nothing much to get this certificate,i'm also puzzled by how i got this certificate.nevertheless,i'm extremely overjoyed for my achievements in secondary 2 life,that was my best year and i would always rmb that year=)

This pile of exercises were done by me during the end of 2006 so as to get myself prepared for my Sec 3 express life.i did most of the chapter exercises in the Sec 2 express textbook(i intend to do finish all the exercises in the textbook,but i got too bored and sianz about it).I rmb doing one exercise everyday.Looking back,i think my perseverance did pay off=)

anyway,the "Pre Sec3 remedial"conducted by Mr Kat was definitely useful.see,such a dedicating teacher.He's a rare teacher,u know.how i wished he would teach me forever.hahas.=)

Our 2G'06 flyer for service learning!hahas,it contains so much memories to me!but i can only remember vaguely.I remember how dedicated LIJING were to this project and we really did put in loads of effort for this!anyway,heartfelt thanks to those who patron us that day!it makes our day so much easier=)

D&T drawing proudly done by....

my father!!!!WAHAHA.i really have no talent in drawing lahx,so no choice,have to seek help from my father.and he drew well,right?it's really almost identical to the product that i've made.i wonder where did all his art genes in my body gone to?probably turns into something else bahx.hahas.=)

That's all!It really brought back a lot of memories from all those photos that i shown u=)and it definitely shows how life was when i was in lower secondary.Struggling with the art,battling with the physics was definitely the two most torturous events that happened in my lower sec life.I will definitely run away if u want me to draw again.hahas.=)

smilex always,people!=)

P.S.though i'm extremely poor,i wanna catch The Snipper!I wanna watch movie!=)hahas.

Work!

2009-04-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

First of all,I promise Mr Gabriel Soo Jian Zhong and Mr Wee Chien Yi that i will bold and write something in bright red.and here it is!

GABRIEL SOO JIAN ZHONG IS SLEEPING OVER AT WEE CHIEN YI HOUSE TONIGHT.AND I BET THEY ARE DOING SOMETHING UNSPEAKABLE=) [in case u dunno,they got some 匪夷所思的关系=）]

hahas.and before i end my post,i will definitely contribute one photo of them so as to present my sincere wishes to them of having a great night!=)

well,i work morning shift today and i'm feeling extremely tired right now.but in order to earn more money,i guess it's worth it.I'm not short of cash but i guess it always feel good to spend ur time wisely.hahas.
Again,met some weirdos today but i guess it's just part and parcel of my whole working experience and it definitely broaden my horizon.

Later,went to meet up with ChienYi,Dylan,Gabriel and Siew Lee and we headed for lunch at LJS.it's been a long time since i ate LJS.the ultimate seafood combo is definitely filling and delicious.at least i thought it's nice!!=)but can they stop giving us the small plate(box?)?it make it so difficult for me to eat lorx,especially the cutting space is like so small.We then went to Suntec and window shop around.Dylan just can't keep his rotten mouth closed.Keep shooting @ me,but well,i can't be bothered with him.Just hope that he wouldn't keep on talking trash.
Gabriel and Chien Yi are definitely the DJs of CRAP FM.they just keep crapping and crapping.@_@

有些事情，不是说想要就有。

Here's the photo that i promised u guys earlier:
No offence,though=)

Camp

2009-04-09T11:58:00.003+08:00

Been blog hopping around just now and i saw many people joining orientation camp organised by their school.
I've not joined any and if u asked me whether i made the right choice,seriously speaking,i'm really hesitant towards my decision.hahas.
Since i choose not to join,i guess so be it.hahas.reasons for not joining overnight camp is because:
1.I have a phobia towards camp.not a really serious phobia lahx,just that i really dread camp.especially the preparation work(bringing this and that) and the after camp effect(u gotta unpack the bag and u feel extremely drained off).

2.I dun really enjoy myself during the camp.my attitude and my temper will become very intolerant during the camps and i tend to drift off.hahas.I'm not a person that is able to hide all my unhappiness well.I guess i leaked out 80% of my true emotions all the time.When i'm tired,i show weariness in my face though i tried not to show 100%,but i think people will sense it.since i tends to drift away.

Ya,that's the two most important factor that deterred me from joining overnight camp.I know I'm extremely 难搞（hard to please)but that's part of my personality.I guess i have too much memory of unpleasant camp trip.hahas.

I'm feeling extremely sleepy now for no good reason since i woke up at 10.15 this morning,but i guess it might be due to the lack of quality sleep i have.I've got plenty of quantity sleep but no quality sleep.hahas.

Saw Ruiyang on the bus yesterday and we chatted a bit about his school life.It's good to see ur secondary school classmates.hahas.

anyway,in response to Elaine Ang accusation that i did not blog anything about her and also plus showing my sincere apology to her(i didn't go to add maths tutoring),i decided to blog about her=)

Elaine Ang:
Ehh, a fun and lovable person whom i know through the Secondary 3 camp.She is extremely crazy all the times,doing all sort of things that totally make me dun wanna recognised her as one of my friends.She loves to jump around the whole school and she will sometimes,out of nowhere,ask u a random question which makes me STUNNED.hahas.
She was the girl who sat besides me almost throughout my secondary 3 life and she was the one who introduced me to this drama called "Supernatural",and she will tell me every details of the story.She is definitely a good story-teller.hahas.

She's a good teacher too,u know,teaching me patiently physics,the subject which i totally have no talent in.hahas.anyway,if u wanna find a good seating partner,i would definitely recommend her.=)

She also surprised me by saying that I've got an independent woman image(Which i know ppl like JY,LJ and my family member will puke like crazy.but too bad,i accepted this compliment.)

I will always have an image of her sobbing while carrying a large roll of toilet paper(that time when she got panicky about her O level chinese).i'm sorry,can't erase that image.hahas.

Just wanna tell u,Miss 翁玮琳:
有些事情,真的不需要想太多的,有时候,太过于分析他人的举动和想法,
会让你很累的.
有时候,真的做回你自己就够了.
还有,泪腺发达的你,不要再轻易掉眼泪了,
因为我不会在你身边,陪你上厕所,然后在里面大哭一场.
是时候,展现你既坚强又富有魅力的一面了,
让伤透你心的男人知道放弃你是他错误中最大的错误,失策中最失败的失策=)
加油!

2009-04-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,NOONA!!=)
1 year older le,and u are 22!!hahas.

well,it's my sister birthday today and it was also a busy day for me.
Went to hospital to get my medical report and thank goodness,the report was good,so check-up in another 6 months' time again!=)
and went home to celebrate birthday with sister as i gotta work later.

ahh..i dunno wad to blog about.suppose i keep it short and swift.=)

P.S.this post is actually posted on 4/9/09.hahas.

2009-04-06T23:07:00.002+08:00

WAHAHA.

I feel so cheery today because i cut my hair today=)
and i suddenly feel like i can float to the air cos i cut short it.
Gotta say goodbye to all my rubber band temporary,it's time to let my hair to take a breath from all those tying and bundling up=)

My mum says it's ugly,my dad say it's nice,my sister says it's ok,my brother says nothing.
so which one do you think it is?=)

Whatever it is,I'm HAPPY=)

Graduation

2009-04-05T22:01:00.004+08:00

Being 17 of my age,i've receive 2 fundamental certificate of my life,PSLE and O level.nevertheless,before certificate,it's graduation.(oh,wad lousy eng)

hahas.

I've confessed to some of my closest friend that i did not have a great year when i was Primary 6,partly because i was suffering from my lousy grade(in case u didn't know,i was the second last in class and i was the last in class for my PSLE score) and of course,my failed friendship with my friends.i never deny the fact that i was a lousiest friend they ever met,i speak ill behind of their back(tell me who doesn't) to some of my friends from e clique and i guess that was my biggest fault.They gang up and backstabbed me,leaving me out of their clique and that was my worst day in school.

i gotta thanked some of them for pulling me through those blackest day like Eric,___yang(i can't rmb his name),Vito,Shafiqa and Mr Chua because they didn't know wad happened.even if they do,i wouldn't know either.hahas.

Frankly speaking,deep in my heart,i would nv attempt to forgive those friends that hurt me.I'm sorry i can't.i'm not that benevolent.and neither can i be so forgetful.

I thanked my brains for pulling me through too.cos i was always comforting myself with the same old words:我需要重新开始，需要新的环境，这样就没问题啦.

At first,in Kranji,i did not have a good start because of someone.but this someone eventually became my friend and i'm really glad how things turned out=)

Thanks PT for giving me a chance to let me become her friend.though our personalities are world apart,but i would always regard her as one of my friend.no matter how she turns out to be=)

but after this incident,my life in Kranji turns out to be wonderful.hahas,i get to know a great good bunch of friends.I really love and cherished them a lot=)

Well,no matter how troublesome KSS is for all the rules and whatever lame stuffs,i really love KSS.hahas.=)

Thank you,people!

This includes:JINYAN,LIJING,CHIENYI,MELISSA,GABRIEL SOO,LIYING,CHINSENG,ELAINE,SIEW LEE,MR KAT,MS NAT,MISS LEE and much more!!I will add on to the list as i can't rmb all now.my memory is detoriating because of the holidays.hahas.

Saw one of primary school friend ytd and he's a special one to me so that really triggered all my memories back.I looked back and i realised that i grow so much through this yr.It's amazing and shocking.

有时後，人生的一堂课，可以带给我很大的冲击。

抱歉，这辈子，我将无法释怀小六所发生的一切，

它带给我的启发与痛太多了。

它不是一个三言两语就能副平的伤口。

18 more days.

2009-04-02T11:07:00.006+08:00

WOW.in 18 more days,i'm going back to campus life!hahas,i wonder is this something that is worth rejoicing for?
well,on the brighter side,i guess i will be spending my time more wisely rather than slacking at home and doing nothing EXCEPT housework.hahas.

31 march went out with GuoHao,JunQuan and MeiChen to get a laptop sleeve and casing.initially,i think it was only my idea to get a laptop casing,but in the end,GH and JQ also got one.they both bought a red leather casing,while i get a black one.I was rather insistent on getting a black one initially,but i start to waver after seeing the red laptop casing for awhile.but in the end,i did not get e red one as there is only one piece left after the two guys grab theirs.and it was nt in a very good condition.oh well,nvm la.hahas,and i joked to GH that i will dump his Apple because he got e red laptop casing.hahas.but i'm really kidding la.in any case,the color choice is very limited.if there's blue colour,i will definitely grab it lorx.Hopefully,i will get my ideal laptop sleeve soon=)

WHATEVER,i'm rather pleased with my black laptop casing and i feel safer bringing my Apple out now.at least,it's less vulnerable and prone to scratches now=)

going back to school later for add maths peer tutoring.i guess this will be my last 2 lessons since unfortunately there's lot of things that fall on wednesday and thursday in April.school also starting soon=)

btw,i've been feeling sleepy despite getting 8-10hours sleep.i guess i'm gonna be a pig soon.hahas.a sleep-deprived pig.how am i going to survive when school reopens?hahas.

A GREAT THANKS TO MR GABRIEL SOO for acknowledging my intelligence=)
Here's the evidence:

well,uploading some JJ concert picture cos not all photos are taken very clearly.

That's how close we are to the stage.hahas.

JJ and BY2.i thought BY2 clothes seems very ge-tai.

i've forgotten wad song he sang.

JJ and Fan Wei Qi singing some songs which i've forgotten too.hahas.i think is Hei Bai Pei.

JJ and Xu Huan Liang.

JJ hottest outfit of the day.

singing some songs.think is towards the end le.

1000 dollar note

2009-03-30T22:54:00.002+08:00

Just came back from work just now and i've caught a rare sight of an item today.hahas.

Things were like this:

I was at the cashier and suddenly got 1 foreign country man come forward to ask me the price of a shampoo,and i checked for him and told him e price.i think he was kind of out to distract me as the price tag was damn huge.It has an individual row of its own,with a big price tag indicating $7.20.

He commented it was too expensive(like what?!?) and in the end he bought a toothpaste.

THAT'S THE EXCITING PART.

He gave me a 1000 dollar note(i was like OMG.hahas) and i was hesitant to receive it.so i go and consult the other staff and she says dun accept it.and i really didn't receive it and he did not buy the toothpaste.FYI,that toothpaste only costs $3.15 and he gave me a $1000 note?!!?!

At first,i wasn't really questioning the reliability of that 1000 dollar note,however,after i rejected him and asking him whether he got any cards for e payment,he gave me an uneasy look and left sheepishly.

That in the end,left me to doubt the origin of the note,whether it's real or counterfeit.and seriously speaking,that note doesn't seems to look fake nor does it feels fake,but that guy expression is really very suspicious.

ya,so i caught sight of e rare $1000 dollar note,but it's still a question mark whether it's real or not.hahas.=)

updating my post about JJ concert next time.JJ concert was a blast and i enjoyed the whole show very much!fantastic singer and performer and dancer!=)

HEARTACHE!

2009-03-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

HEARTACHE!!!!!

I won the premiere ticket for Shinjuku Incident movie at xin.sg,but sadly,i can't go there to watch my once favorite idol,Daniel Wu!!!

He is such a hunk!

Got to work on that day and i dun wanna create much trouble for SIC le,so i guess i will give it a miss for this movie.I will definitely be able to catch a glimpse of Daniel Wu someday,hopefully!!!

hahas,haiya,suan le.

afterall,i'm going for JJ concert tomorrow.i didn't buy the ticket,got through some means.JY and LJ should know wad i mean here.

woohoos,totally anticipating the concert!i bet it will be much more high than Yoga concert!

gotta go and heal my heart now,hahas.see ya!=)

reflection

2009-03-26T11:38:00.003+08:00

做自己难，
做别人能接受的自己更难，
这是我最近对自己的reflection.

不是搞忧郁，
心情比起前几天已经好很多了，
只能说，有些人就是很好，
希望我以后也能做个这么通情达理的人。
希望咯。哈哈。

我身旁的人常常会说出一些慧言慧语，
而我也常常从中得到一些启发和多少的安慰，
这都让我增长了一些做人的智慧。
书，也是一个让人得到心灵上的慰籍的避难所。
但那纯属于好书。哈哈。

Anyway,Thanks Hunky Boy for all ur words!
I really 庆幸 that i've got such a Bestest Friend like you=)
P.S.I'm still anticipating your blog post with that Gabriel Soo.hahas.

GUILT

2009-03-24T22:20:00.003+08:00

I feel so guilty for the abrupt notice.
It's like i'm such a burden to them.Not doing the correct thing,giving them so many troubles etc.
Suddenly,i feel like i really hasn't put in much effort into it as I was given this opportunity by luck and chance.
I took things for granted.
It shouldn't be this case.

Well,i guess,since i'm a newbie,I shall really put in my 1000% efforts in my work from now onwards.
STOP ALL MY NONSENSICAL STUFFS FROM HAPPENING AGAIN.
HALT,and wake up from ur snobbish behaviour!
i will start to become a more professional staff from this moment=)
JIAYOU,XINYING=)

人，活在这世界上已经很累了，
没有必要委屈自己迎合别人。
人都像拼图，
形状各异＝生活背景不同，
有些人就是无法跟某些人在一起。

发生了冲突，
我其实很不好受，
心里很烦，但却又不知如何解决。
矛盾中。＝（

School starting soon!

2009-03-23T12:39:00.002+08:00

woohs~
Time really flies fast!In another month's of time,school is really restarting soon!(though i know it's not as soon as those JC students!hahas)
Suddenly,i just wanna more holidays and hope it never end!not that i'm so engrossed in my work that i dun wanna to study anymore,but suddenly,everything seems to happen so fast.i just can't believe i got to have my brains working hard again.gotta admit it've gotten a bit rusty,perhaps much more rusty.hahas.

Just finished reading Breaking Dawn and it's a nice book.too bad it comes to an end for my Edward-Bella world.I will re-read it someday bahx,since there's some part i dun really catch it due to my poor knowledge of english.hahas.too profound for me to understand.

was a bit emo-ish yesterday because of work stuffs.=(
i really got a lot to learn from all my sunbae...
but never mind,i will really work hard for it!It's not me if i gave up so early.=)suddenly,i want to study again.hahas.What an irony!

Changed my blogskin due to some encoding problems.The image of my previous blogskin was removed and it was kinda troublesome to re-upload all the pictures again.might as well change the whole skin and i find this great piece of art work!simplicity!=)hahas.i thought i rather like this blogskin=)

Hope i would be able to find my ideal laptop bag soon!and get my casing for macbook soon!i can't bear to let it get dirty,hahas.

ARGH!I'M CRAZY OVER CHINESE AGAIN=)

完美，是用距离所衬托出来的。
缺点，是用距离所放大出来的。

2009-03-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

我不绝望，但我没有一丝残留的希望，

找不到从前的期望，眼前布满了仅是失望。

我正在做垂死的挣扎，好不愿意，好不舍得，好不想放弃，好不想，

却因为过多的失望与难受，我只好慢慢的放开。

有时後，适当的放开或许是对自己的一种解脱＝）

19032009

2009-03-19T20:56:00.002+08:00

Back to update my blog,been really taking a decent rest lately despite gotta work n all sorts of stuffs going on..

well,i'm just going on what happened on tuesday since i really enjoyed that day,hahas.

Went to Northpoint on tuesday with LiJing and Jinyan so as to post-celebrate their birthday=)

initially,we went the wrong way and we can't find Ishi Mura,so we just go to Popular there and hang around,LiJing was super awed by the Popular,cos not only it's new,but also very different from e other popular outlet.

Later,took us quite awhile to find Ishi Mura,cos it was located at the new building.The food there was delicious(at least i enjoyed myself there and the food portions they gave was quite generous.),and later,we ordered a Tako Okonomiyaki to share.DELICIOUS!=)hahas.i guessed i will visit there someday again.hahas.=)

After eating,we went to have a bit of walk at the shopping mall,nothing much actually.and we eat fry ice cream.we spent quite some time tasting different flavors.FINALLY,we decide on strawberry and cheese & oreo.and the toppings caused us to have some discussions again.finally,decided on the mint choco and marshmallows.after finishing our ice-cream,we went to window shopping.but in the end,me and jinyan bought clothes,just one piece,before heading home.i was a nuisance la,cos it was my 1st time buying clothes with my friend.super suaku.i always need my image consultant,sis and mum with me,before buying any clothes,hahas.

i love e clothes=)

uploading photos other time=)

smilex always!!=)

Tired...

2009-03-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

I'm tired.tired to the fact that i felt my life had drained off totally.

I seriously dread this few days,where i need to go somewhere,unwillingly.

I have no idea when that part turned unwilling to me,but i guess it's because of time.

I'm also tired to the fact that i can't even my private moments of my life privately. I'm tired.I wished to rest.I wished people,things and etc would stop bugging.I hate people that tries to intrude my privacy,the limited time i have to rest.WHY?Why do i have to get disturbed now and then?wasn't this supposed to be my life?I'm so tired.It was my mistake as it started to be.

I just realized people tends to control people in their own ways.but in actual fact,no one will subdue to it.

LEAVE ME ALONE.I WANT MY MOMENTS.

It's yet again my personality to left it unspoken.I'm just not that cruel to say that right in your face,but i suffered.What kind of irony is this?

MACBOOK!

2009-03-14T23:28:00.002+08:00

WOOHOOS!
AFTER WAITING FOR MONTHS AND DAYS,
HOURS AND SECONDS,
I'VE FINALLY GOTTEN MY MACBOOK!
though it still isn't extremely user-friendly for me,but i guess i will sooner or later get used to it.
taking extra care of it now since it costs me a bomb.yes,it's a ME.
hahas.well,havin my own laptop is definitely a dream to me,like there is no need for me to wait to use the internet,i can put whatever wallpaper i want and etc!
IT'S totally what i WANT!
but heavy responsibilities too,unfortunately.hahas.

well,short update,sleeping now,gotta work early tmr!
smilex always!=)

BACK!

2009-03-13T23:14:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YEO LI JING!!

HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD AND TOUGHEN YOURSELF UP FOR THE CHALLENGES AHEAD!
I'M SURE U CAN DO IT COS YOU ARE YEO LI JING!=)

Woohoos,i'm back to revive my dead blog.
Been too busy and too lazy to update my blog,hahas.
Went to IT show today and it was so crowding over there despite it was a Friday afternoon.Just went sightseeing over there and get more info about Apple laptop,and after much struggle and research,i thought i shall just settle on MacBook since there wasn't much difference between Macbook and Macbook Pro.=)
Save money on something else,a WII,perhaps=)

Anyway,just came back from work and it was an interesting day at work!I got to know my SIC better and find something shocking coincidence.hahas.and perhaps today it was a Friday,many people are buying c_____.hahas.perhaps it's new to me,i find it so hilarious and entertaining.hahas.

gtg.i'm gonna read my Eclipse soon.been totally immersed in the Edward-Bella world.=)
I can't wait to get my MACBOOK soon!

2009-03-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,MISS LEE JIN YAN!
HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD AND WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCKS FOR ALL THE COMING EXAMS!=)

You are officially 17.=)

I'm sorry that i'm unable to celebrate your birthday with you.but i hope we will meet up real soon for a nice lunch/dinner with LiJing,ok?=)Helps to boost Singapore economy too=)
I shalln't say much here.my 肺腑之言 is all in the card i'm giving you pretty soon!=D

e乐大赏

2009-03-08T12:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to e乐大赏 for voluntary usher work and it was extremely tiring.Went home with all kinds of muscle ache and i couldn't sleep well last night.However,it was a pretty fun experience for me as I have never been a usher for a concert before,so i guess i have pretty much fun there,especially how those security guards are 双面人.
As JinYan knows,i was super pissed off with a couple of my friends there due to several reasons.I seriously think that they should just jolly well do their part well and STOP POKING THEIR NOSE INTO OTHER AFFAIRS.It simply annoyed me.
I can see that you are no better than us.Worse,i think you guys simply are not up to the job.
Lazy to elaborate more on the event.
过度的成实与坦白，有时并不是一件好事。

有时，我会觉得很烦。
人，有时过于沉溺于自己的世界，会忽略别人的反应。
停止，是我心头永远对你的答案。
Some people just failed to notice your response towards certain affairs.I'm annoyed at myself.

maybe this is an indication that i got to live with regrets forever.
有些事情，是必须带着愧疚过一生的。

Back from KuChing!

2009-03-04T13:30:00.002+08:00

Oh well,I'm back from KUCHING and i TOTALLY LOVE SINGAPORE LOADS!
hahas.though the trip to Kuching was alright,but i still missed Singapore like insane!

I missed the familiarity.

anyway,it wouldn't be a long post.will post about my detailed trip later on and certain pictures.
I love extremely unphotogenic in almost every pictures i have taken there.haix.It demoralize my self-esteem.=(
Pictures will be selected carefully.hahas.

anyway,I suppose i have gotten a job at guardian(the teck whye branch),thanks to melissa!=)
well,it's quite sudden and rather surprising for me.but it's better than nothing.Thanks MEL!

Anyway,saw the NP LAPTOP package le.I'm most probably settled on having a 15 inch MacBook Pro.IT'S EXTREMELY EXPENSIVE,i dun deny it,but the urge of me having one MacBook Pro just can't be quench.or rather the 15 inch laptop really do APPEAL to me.I gotta come to a conclusion soon and i really do hope I have my Apple Laptop soon!Can't wait to have one!=)

UPDATING LATER.i'm feeling sleepy.=)

Off to Malaysia in a few hours's time!

2009-02-27T12:55:00.002+08:00

Not feeling well.

I fell sick the very next day after having my braces on.I hate the feeling of falling ill.
weak,vulnerable,restless and all those negative thoughts are just flooding my brains.though i was feeling much better yesterday,but my body just dun function well.Have diarrhea too and i guess it's because of the indigestion of foods.can't really bite well so extra chores for my stomach to grind it.hahas.
I can't really eat now,but i can still manage to chew some of the foods but it's extremely painful.I got to bear with it!JIAYOU!

ARGH,my stomach is feeling queasy again.

Taking a plane to Kuching in a few hours' time to attend a wedding dinner over the weekend.I don't feel the excitement due to my poor health.instead,i feel drowsy now.perhaps it's due to the panadol effects.Won't be updating my blog for a couple of days,won't be bringing my handphone to there since it's rather redundant.hahas.

CYA ppl soon!=)Take care too!=)

P.S.Ms Nat smsed the other day about the "homeworks" she assigned me to do and we chatted a bit.She said she missed us a lot and this really triggered the memory of mine.I can still vividly remember the times everyone of our class mugged hard of History and how hilarious our class could be.Not only that,our class keep teasing her about her pregnancy and blah blah blah.I would never be able to forget those times we have outside the staff room with ms nat during the night study period=)Oh ya,her stomach was extremely huge that time and her back keep aching.some teachers even accused us of torturing her.but seriously,without her,i guess our class would never do that well for 'O's.(though we missed the target by inches)

I hope that toddler are not avoiding us.It's sad how things turned out.

Today is the...

2009-02-24T18:06:00.003+08:00

1st,G0-back-to-Kranji Sec-Day for JC students.hahas.Saw a lot of JC students going back to Kranji,like Eric,Chrismin,YangQi,Cindy,Clive,Issac and some of those whom i rarely or never talk before.I bumped there all on the bus 985 after my dental appointment and at that point of time,i'm rather busy with those things on my handphone which is handphone and wallet.well,it's quite great to see all them,especially in their JC uniform=)hahas.

2nd,PUT-THE-BRACES-ON-DAY exclusively for me!ya,i bade goodbye temporarily to those braces-free day and now with those metallic things in my mouth,i feel rather uncomfortable.here come my "cruise mouth"(insider joke with my sis) and i won't upload a picture of me with braces.It's like so random.hahas.anyway,it's starting to hurt now.

alright,shall update again!=)

P.S.Changed my blog song into something lively.I thought it's a rather nice song=)

Yoga Lin Concert!=)

2009-02-22T21:52:00.005+08:00

Went to Yoga Lin Concert on friday=)
Before that,i have fun with LiJing and JinYan.We went to CSC to play bowling,but it was a complete rush as we are supposed to finish 2 games by 2.30pm and we reached there at 2pm.It was my fault to ask for play 2 games,and we end up having no fun at all,though i got strike on my 2nd attempt.2 lanes and the using of the facilities was confusing,and so we end up very confusing.

after LiJing have her lunch,we went to sing K.Well,though the room not as big as K-box,but it was sufficient for us and the song list there does not lose to k-box.but because i'm rushing to meet my brother for concert,i did not sing quite a lot of songs but we were very high there!hahas.pictures at lijing camera.We shall go there sometime again!=)

den i went to Yoga Lin concert with my brother,with not a single cent paid.woohoos.my sister won it through PASSION and she dun want to go.i have been whining about the concert so obviously i go la.hahas.and THE CONCERT WAS A BLAST.hahas,my first concert of my life and it was quite entertaining.but Yoga sing those non-pop songs,so the 共鸣度for me isn't that great.

I love the part where S.H.E. appeared=)The atmosphere was extremely high!=)hahas.and they sang Superstar with Yoga,and everybody was very high!!did i mention Yoga act cute in some parts of the concert?and everybody was laughing real hard.The concert end at 11.45pm,where the encore part lasts for 45mins.=.=''he didn't sing 伯乐,and it was quite a disappointment for me. Overall,I have a great time at Yoga concert!=)
As for today,i went to Malaysia.an extremely tiring trip.
gtg.smilex always!

Pictures taken at Yoga Concert:

Concert starting soon.I think my seating rocks!hahas.

The videos which they played before Yoga appeared.
He was talking about some random stuffs.about love,if i did not rmb wrongly.

His first outfit.

Singing Aaron Kwok 对你爱不完。

Olivia and Yoga.

S.H.E. singing their new album song.

Yoga giving them roses.

Yoga and Hebe hugging as Yoga choose Hebe as the one he would most likely to love at first sight.
Reason?He never hugged her before.hahas.Pretty lame,i gotta admit.

Singing SUPERSTAR.

Singing oldies song "Char Siew Pau."

Videos would not be uploaded here.=)

2009-02-19T21:24:00.004+08:00

Having separators in ur teeth means:

Your teeth will be aching and uncomfortable all day long.IT HURTS!
You can't brush ur teeth properly as ur teeth hurts.It's just like you are having a tooth decay or what.
YOU CAN'T EAT AT ALL.seriously.say goodbye to all the food!

I really can't eat anything.anything that requires biting.and all day long,i'm craving for food that i can't eat.Eating breakfast,lunch and dinner became a terrible task of my life.I think i'm not going to survive through the initial process where i'm having braces.but no choice,i got to brace myself to face the challenges in front of me!Be strong,XinYing!!You can pull through it!

Let me take this opportunity to lose some weight.YAY!hope this will cheer me up somehow!hahas.

Braces on next tuesday and i'm leaving Singapore on Friday for a wedding dinner in Malaysia.i can just stoned and not eat there.well,no choice.hopefully,the shopping part can make up the eating part!I can't wait to go shopping!hahas.

I received my NP enrolment package yesterday.It's extremely confusing and i need a lot of my help from my brother and sister for the form.Hopefully,i will be alright with the form.hahas.and i'm really anticipating the day i'm going to own my personal Apple.well,i'm thinking of getting a Macbook Pro and i think i'm rather determined to get one.but i will still look up some info 1st before spending the money=)It's expensive but i shall hypnosis myself that it's a long time investment!!

Ok,i can't wait for the bowling cum sing K session with JinYan and LiJing!=)

I went to look up some blog so as to find out who's my classmates.and seriously,I'm rather skeptical about my new course classmates.except GuoHao,obviously.hopefully,my instinction is wrong.

Dental trip

2009-02-17T21:15:00.002+08:00

2nd post of the day.i just want to rant how uncomfortable i feel!
Went to the Dental Clinic in the afternoon so as to take X-rays and mould the shape of my teeth.
It was a very amusing trip lah,partly i was amused by the X-ray machine.hahas.it's like ET revolution.and later,i really laughed out loud.couldn't contain my laughter anymore.hahas.

the doctor mould my teeth and i thought my teeth is gonna fall off.
later he put some rubbers called separator between my teeths and it's super uncomfortable lorx.

i'm now feeling super uncomfortable with the separators as my teeth is extremely itchy now.just like how baby is growing new teeth.but for my future,i will perserve on!
Torture coming soon.

Campus Superstar live recording

2009-02-17T11:13:00.003+08:00

Went to Campus Superstar live recording yesterday and credits goes to GH again!!hahas.he informed me only a couple of hours before the recording so it was a bit rush for me as i still got add maths peer tutoring in school.so i was rushing like mad to meet him at bukit panjang plaza.hahas. and so we go buy Yoga album before embarking on our journey to mediacorp studios.
GH talked a lot of the things and i was really interested on the things he told me.hahas.
We reached there at abt 7pm and we headed straight to get the ticket from GH friend.They were extremely nice and friendly!=)

As we were waiting for someone,meet 2 of the last batch campus superstar.Pardon me for using this extremely harshly word,but i think they were really “碧球”（meaning bimbo),maybe that's my prejudice against them,but their actions and conduct really disgusts me.

while waiting for the recording,we just stoned there and do nothing.actually,the whole show is pretty boring to me.if not for Yoga,i think i would not stepped into the live recording of CSS.it's just way too not my cup of tea.and the place was 泛滥 of "Bs&Ls".
anyway,thanks to GH i got my autograph of Yoga!at first,he was rather skeptical about the autograph,but i think it has been verified le lahx.=)
some pictures were taken.not of extreme good quality but i tried my best le horx.we are not supposed to take any pic at there.

The small stage which appear big on tv.
k
during the recording.

Yoga singing at the result recording.

the big screen with his face!=)
(Though he is rather attitude and seemingly unfriendly,but i still like his singing.haiya,who asks his voice to be so nice and attractive?)
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我拼了命似的否决我对你的感觉,
但其实那是我很喜欢你的最佳证据.
(突如其来的灵感。哈哈。）
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说真的，昨天回到家，收到了一则很震惊的消息，
说真的，我真的很难过，因为死亡又离我这么近。
除了震惊，没有字眼可以形容我当时的心情。
人生很短暂，生命有其脆弱。
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I'm reading Twilight now(i know i'm super late) and it's UBER nice!hahas.
going for X-rays on teeth later.=)

2009-02-15T21:49:00.002+08:00

Firstly,

THANK YOU,GUO HAO!!!

谢谢你，国豪！！
完成了我这个小歌迷的心愿！！=）
真的是感激不尽啊~
将来的日子里，如果你需要我的帮忙时，我一定会拔刀相助，尽我全力帮你的！！
真的谢谢你！！
PS.很羡慕你哦，可以跟我的偶像有近距离的接触！羡慕-ing...

Secondly,
Sorry for neglecting my blog but i haven got the time and heart to blog as my life now is extremely plain.hahas.and I'm now obsessed with the korean version of Hana Yori Dango,so i'm devoting quite some time in watching the show!!hahas.and it's extremely nice(though i roughly know e storyline.hahas.)
and you know,the korean version Domyouji looks extremely identical to Jerry Yan.OMG,they look totally like twins!!hahas.and korean version Ximen is totally hot!!hahas,though he looks very 小弟弟,but he is UBER handsome.gosh,i'm发花痴-ing..hahas.i'm so into the drama!!=)

thirdly,
i went to celebrate Valentine Day with a bunch of people and we go sing K.it's so exp!!but i totally enjoy my time there.though my singing is very bad,but at least i enjoy it!that's what more important!=)

will update my blog soon.now i'm off to watch incredible tales!=)

GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO ARE TAKING COMMON TEST TMR!JIAYOU!=)

Add Maths Tutorial Session

2009-02-13T11:07:00.003+08:00

Add Maths Peer Tutoring turns out alright.the first session was quite relaxed as i met a bunch of people which i know them quite well.hahas,so it turned out to be quite a breeze as there wasn't much for me to be done.but i still need some time to find the "feel" of doing add maths again,especially add maths tends to be more tedious and brain-draining.
the second session nearly cost my death.they are not very bad at add maths,but the fact that i've got to teach them a brand new chapter nearly costs my death,but thankfully(and hopefully),they managed to get a slight grip of the topic.hopefully,they will do more practices so as to familarize themselves with those kind of qn.i will nv forget Chapter 13.
Mr Kat called me a traitor ytd when he walked past me and my tutor group and i was like "what?" and den give him a diaoz face.hahas.

watched k-20 premiere on tuesday@ marina squre and it was quite an interesting show.not totally enticing,but at least it was entertaining,but if u want me to spend money on this movie,i would think twice about it.hahas.got a huge poster too.hahas.

hmms,and my parents are going on cruise later on.good for them for a great valentine's day,but well,i'm also celebrating V day too with a whole load of ppl.but i guess it will costs me a bomb.hahas.

gtg.smilex always!=)

I WANT TO GO TO YOGA LIN CONCERT.but boos~~,no money.hahas.

2009-02-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

WAHAHA.I THINK I'M GOING TO BANG THE WALL TMR.
WHY?
i'm going back to school for peer tutoring on Additional Maths.
and SADLY,

I DON'T RMB A SINGLE THING ABOUT ADD MATHS.
I have returnedall my knowledge back to the teacher!!!
guess i will sit down opposite my tutee and keep on gulping down my saliva and say"HEHE,i dunno how to do lehx,dun even know when to start."

I'm starting to regret the decision of going into this programme.well,not exactly.but i hope it would not be too disastrous.
HAHA,i guess that will be difficult.

Back to KSS.

2009-02-09T18:26:00.002+08:00

Went back to school this morning and i stayed there till late afternoon.I was there actually to help mr lim to mark his stuffs,but apparently,there's not much to do and me and elaine went there to slack instead.hahas.we have our lunch there and later mr kat joined us outside the staff room.he was supposingly giving me something to do,but he done it all by himself.WHILE DEBATING WITH MISS LEONG.hahas.they were arguing about whether 4E should focused more on maths or on chemistry and miss leong keep insisting that there is little hope of scoring A1 for chemistry.then later,the conversation backfired to me and miss leong keep saying that for me getting an A2 for E-Maths,It's a fail.

but who cares?at least i don't think i failed my E-maths.i mean i can say that i already predicted an A2 for E-Maths as i know i will never be able to overcome the barrier of getting an A1.i was careless at times in my work and i know i'm not that smart to solve all the qns in e E-Maths paper.but haiya,it's over so i guess it's rather pointless chiding me for getting me an A2.

den later,I wait for LiJing and Jinyan for their lesson to end so that we can head home together.it's like so long since the 3 of us walked home together=)there was yunying also but she left earlier while we head for some desserts downstair.Near to reaching LOT 1,saw CHIN SENG in his CJC shirt and we were both very surprised.hahas.it's good that he doesn't seems to *ahem* me.hahas.chatted for awhile and i head to LOT 1.

well,reached home at around 5.30pm and raine says she saw me at the bus stop,oh,my blind eyes again.

Random thought:
I wonder how's my life would be if i choose to go JC instead of Poly.would i be able to do well or would i be miserable there?There's so much "if" in everybody life and we would never know the answer.oh well,for now,i think i make the right choice of going into Poly,hopefully.

P.S.Surprisingly,Miss Lee supports my decision of going to CMC.and speaking of that,I've been repeating A LOT OF TIMES in school wad school i entered and wad course i'm entering.hahas.maybe i should wear a tag saying "i'm going:NP,Chinese Mass Com."LOL.
P.S.S.I'm still surprised at some facts.seriously.it happened all too fast.
人生，充满了太多没有答案的如果。

2009-02-08T15:26:00.002+08:00

云毫无止境的飘着，
是自己的主动还是风的被动？

眼睛不停的眨着，
是对眼前事物的暂时休息还是逃避？

轮胎在路上磨损着，
是对自己的解脱还是放纵？

幸福的有效期不应该是一只蜡烛的寿命。

狂蓝中。

Sakae

2009-02-06T20:07:00.005+08:00

I wake up super early today like 7 plus in the morning so as to accompany my mum to go Outram Park and i took a long time to get out of my bed as i was struggling whether to go or not to go.but in the end,i went.

Well,went to register for the cruise trip and lucky brother help them won a room with balcony!!gosh.and i can't go.=.=''
anyway,stayed there for quite some time and head to IMM while my mum went for work.Went to ESPIRIT 1st as i'm looking a vest.i saw one and i'm considering whether to buy since it ain't too thick nor too heavy,but still,i need opinion.i still dun have the courage to buy a clothes myself.i need comments.and when i was just about to leave,i saw Shao Han from 4A.He was stoning some distance behind me and he looks quite different.say hellos to him and he abit can't recognised me.hahas.well,i was scared half to death when i saw him since he wasn't moving and look like a statue.hahas.oh crap.

den later,went to Daiso and Guardian to ask whether they are still employing temporary staffs and they said nope.a bit disappointed but can't be blamed.times are difficult.now,i shall just let nature takes it course.=)shall tell u the reason below.(i dun have e courage to approach the popular staff.)

I went back home 1st to take a nap and head to lot1 for sakae treat by mr benny at around 4.walked there to save my transport fees and everybody was late.esmond keep blaming me for not notifying him,but hey,mr lim say during CNY le horx,still need my reminder mehx?so me and mr lim went to eat 1st,and siew lee and esmond joining us later.i ate quite a lot but they didn't.especially esmond,so not like him.

so the entire time we were eating and talking and crapping.talked about our classmates like how they think that *** is not going to do well in JC and blahx blahx.no comments available from me since i also dunno.hahas.den mr benny suggested i go back to school and helped the teachers to mark their assignment.after having some thoughts,I'M REALLY GOING BACK TO SCHOOL AND HELP THE TEACHERS.no pay but at least i've something to do.and lunch provided.hahas.u may think i'm crazy but it's better than staying at home and faced the computer all the times.will do finished my household chores before heading to school.YAY,CAN SEE LIJING AND JINYAN=)

THANKS MR BENNY LIM FOR HIS SAKAE TREAT.

i'm really extremely full and i doubt i will eat sakae anymore.there's too little variety le.=(
gtg.smilez always!=)

P.S.I'm feeling feverish but i'm not having fever.feel so super uncomfortable.
P.S.S.everybody are welcome to accompany me at school or go to do voluntary work.hahas.
P.S.S.S.Suddenly i found MSN a great way to keep in touch with one another,especially when everybody dun have the time and chance to see each other frequently.
P.S.S.S.S.S.I saw 李腾today at Chinatown today.he was just in front of me and wearing a moustache.i guess he's out to film something bahx.hahas.=)

2009-02-05T21:45:00.002+08:00

oh well,Job interview failed totally.

I went to applied for the Robinsons temp sales associates and the queue was as long as queueing for Hello Kitty plushie toys.so i didn't queue for the job and went window shopping instead.but i guess those branded stores really didn't suit me so I FEEL SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE in all those shops.hahas.

went back to lot 1 and my mrt fares is killing me off.
hahas,den i went to Home-Fix and try my luck.hopefully I will stand a chance to get the job.probably tmr going down to ShengSiong and try my luck.afterall,no harm.though i'm not extremely desperate for job,but it's better to have one since i'm eyeing for a MacBook Pro and that costs like 3k plus?!?!hahas.well,let nature take its course bahx.=)

anyway,u know my brother extremely lucky?he won a pair of star cruise ticket for my dad and mum.and my parents are going onto cruise to celebrate Valentine's Day.The package is like extremely good and while they eat 大餐，i think me,my sis and bro is going to eat 快餐。
sadded.well,hope they enjoy e trip!=)

gtg.watching tv soon.=)

UPDATe!

2009-02-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

Oh well,i really have nothing to update because i'm literally doing nothing at home except for sleeping,surfing net,do household chores,eat and stare blankly.

anyway,just for ur info(and to my dismay),I CAN'T BUY A TABLET PC.
SADDED.
I'm being forced to use MacBook due to my course,CMC.It's compulsory for me to buy a MacBook.oh well,i wasn't really pretty upset about it.since i got to exchange "A TABLET FOR AN APPLE".hahas.
but i have never used a Macbook before,unless u count those times where i was at their retail stores playing with e PC,and i looked so.....
hahas.anyway,i hope that with my intelligence level,i will adapt well and quickly to MacBook.if not,i will go mad.hahas.

I can't wait to get my laptop!=)

P.S.hopefully my job interview tomorrow will goes well!=)

Gathering.

2009-01-31T10:58:00.003+08:00

Like what my previous short and sweet post has said,I got into my first choice,Chinese Media and Communication=)It's a relief for me so that i won't have to go through the ordeal of appealing to the course i like.hahas.i'm afraid my heart can't take those anxiety attacks.I received the MOE sms at around 6.19am according to my message details but i only saw the msg at 7.18am,nearly an hour later.and i saw it by chance cos i was checking the time.=)

and for the past 10yrs,i've been following my sister path,going to whatever school she is going.For this time,THERE'S NO SURPRISES AT ALL.I'm going to NP and she's studying Early Childhood Education Degree at NP too.so it means that WE ARE FINALLY GOING TO MEET EACH OTHER IN SCHOOL after 10yrs.I sound stupid but it's quite fun.hahas.I rmb when i was in primary 1 and she was in primary 6,i got to look for her during her lesson time,i always stoned outside her classroom,hopefully thinking that she will see me so that i won't have a need to barge into her classroom and called her out.hahas.=)

and YAY-NESS,Guo Hao,We're going to be classmates and i won't be lonely in the new course.Heard from Siew Lee that her colleague is going to the new course too!=)

For those who never get into their course/school,there's still chances for you to appeal into your desired school so i guess there's no need to kick up a big fuss or even say discriminative thing about the JAE system or MOE.maybe i'm not in your shoes,but i guess there's not a single need to speak ill of it.

Anyway,GOOD LUCK IN YOUR APPEAL!=)

Went to Chien Yi house for house visiting yesterday and it was FUN.hahas.Well,I reached there @ around 5pm and i chatted with LiYing for awhile before we played Scrabble.and we managed to use finished all the letters through a bit of cheating.Kudos to me,LiYing,Dylan and Vernon!The previous group WASN'T THAT FANTASTIC AT ALL.hahas.We ate dinner later and the guys started playing FIFA.and the girls went stoning in process.

They changed the game to DOA later so as to let the girls played.The game was ultra violent and i have no idea how to play but i still win some matches lahx and they just keep saying i'm violent.but the most interesting part was that Gabriel keep asking us to choose a character,Tina to team up with another macho guy.and he even request us to change the costume to one that wears bikinis or whatever it's called.Gabriel and CY was so excited throughout the game lorx.and when that group wins,Gabriel went frenzy about it.Why?the macho guy carried Tina and throw her up into the air.
MORALE OF STORY:
WE SAW GABRIEL TRUE COLORS.LUCKILY,HE PROVED US ONE THING WRONG:HE IS DEFINITELY NOT A GAY.

Mr kat came while we were playing DOA and he has a mini Meet-the-Parent session with CY mum.later me,siew lee and mr kat played the board game he brought.think is called Cranium.and it's SO FUN.but i guess my intelligence level is not that high.hahas.and i lost all my image.was shouting and laughing out so loud during the game.hahas.Chien Yi,Gab and Dylan joined in later and they won.hahas.
Went home around 11pm.and reached home 20mins later.
For more descriptions or pictures,do visit CY blog and Gab blog.hahas.i'm lazy to go into great details like them.

P.S.i'm sorry i sounded aggressive yesterday.It should not be the case but i let it happened once again.Darn me.

JAE Result

2009-01-30T23:55:00.002+08:00

OH,I GOT INTO MY DREAM COURSE:

CHINESE MEDIA AND COMMUNICATION!!!!!!=)

and updating tmr!!=)

Hopefully i can get my own personal LAPTOP/TABLET PC soon!!=)

Dental Trip

2009-01-29T21:13:00.004+08:00

I'm holidaying at home everyday and i pretty really wanna get my WII fast so that i can slim down by playing those Wii games.hahas.fat hopes.the earliest time i can get my Wii is probably during June.WHY?cos that's the time where IT/PC fair would be held.oh well,hopefully,it's earlier so i can get hold of a set of Wii faster=)

Well,I went to Dental Clinic in the afternoon at Beauty World Centre.It's a clinic where my mum's colleague introduced to her.anyway,it's a lao3 zi4 hao4.before that,i went to meet up with mum at her workplace at Bukit Batok=)Reached there and i went to the wrong clinic initially as there are 2 dental clinics with identical name.I tried to open the door despite the displaced sign was "Closed".and then,it dawned upon me that there's two identical clinic.so embarrassing.oh well,the doctor just did a detailed yet swift interpretation of my teeth and the conclusion is that i got to put on braces for the upper part of my teeth for the moment and later the lower part.and after that,i went to eat fried kway teow.

WHY?because i wasn't feeling full after i ate my lunch.I bought my lunch at a noodle stall below my block and THEY CHEAT MY FEELING CUM STOMACH CUM MONEY.I ordered Fishball minced meat noodle and they really give me that.The noodle merely covered 1/3 of the container they gave me,with just some minced meat and pork meat and pork liver and 2 fishballs.It costs me $3.I could fairly well get a decent bowl of amount of noodle with quite some minced meat,2 fishballs,1 porkball,a few slices of fish cakes and pork meat,some pork liver and mushrooms,1 or 2 pieces of lettuce and perhaps in some cases,bean sprout and pork oil.oh gosh,I would never patron this stall again.GRR.

oh,i sounded a bit mad but actually,i was just feeling unjustified.
oh well,house visiting tmr again=)
gtg.smilex always!=)

P.S.Probably i would be getting myself a Fujitsu Tablet=)

NEW YEAR!!

2009-01-27T21:31:00.005+08:00

(Took this during Chien Yi celebration outing!Credits to Mr Goh Chin Seng for taking this pic of me!
P.S.I posed this for quite some time before e pic is taken.my CG was shaken greatly.)
HAPPY NIU YEAR!!

Didn't have a chance to blog yesterday as i was pretty busy glueing myself to the television and entertaining my relatives.oh well,we just entertained each other by watching movies,chatting and eating.hahas.I didn't went house-hopping like some of you did,cos my house is the "camp site".hahas.

Watched Thai horror movie,Shutter.and i was kind of screaming and whining during some of the scenes.u know,I NEVER watched horror movie.so it took me some courage to watch the movie,very exaggerating horx?hahas.Shutter was alright,the shock and the scary-ness was so-so,not very impactful too.at least it's better than The Maid.I watched during New Year too a few yrs back,and it scared me to....

well,New Year routine never changed.i mingled with those i feel comfortable with and just say "HNY" to those that i'm not really close too and then we stoned separate ways.Well,we separate into two groups,the Cheena-kia and the Ang Moh-Kia.hahas.I rarely interact with the AMK cos no topics to talk too and ya,we are just kind of way too different.On top of that,i can't break into the kids group anymore!!They will just feel shy and keep away from us.and i also have no idea how to break that barrier.hahas.

today went to grandma house and i wear boots that i brought from China.hahas.i just feel sooo happy wearing boots cos there is something special about this boots=)
My Biao2 Jiu4 is still as dashing as before.wahaha.he's same age as me and 23 days older than me,but he just looks simply AWESOME.hahas.too bad i didn't talk to him today cos he's not only a quiet guy normally,he just shut himself in his world today.can't break that barrier.=(

ok,i feeling high now!hahas.just feel happy.(maybe because of the hongbao effect?hahas.)

gtg.smilex always!=)

Picture of the day!My cousin,me and my sis!=)

我会装阿Q,直到你说什么为止。

Changed to new blog url!

2009-01-25T12:33:00.005+08:00

Oh well,decided to change my blog url officially today since tomorrow is a brand new year ahead.

PLS DO RELINK and SORRY for the trouble of relink-ing!=)

ok.blogger seems to be acting weird.perhaps today is their OFF day too.=)
I shall update later.

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I'M FULL TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!!!
EXTREMELY FULL!!!

hahas.finished my reunion dinner 2 hours ago but i'm still feeling the FULL-NESS.guess i ate too much.can't blame me.reunion dinner always make me 停不了口。hahas.

going to be the year of ox soon!!Oh well,i dunno wad to blog about.

Wishing everybody a Happy 牛 YEAR!
祝大家心想事成，牛年行大运！！=）

New Year coming soon!!

2009-01-24T22:48:00.005+08:00

I can't wait for New Year to come!!!hahas,my beloved reunion dinner,I wanted to have you badly!!!(ehh,sounds wrong horx..hahas.)

I can't help to think whether i did a right thing yesterday of not going to her last gathering.It makes my brain turn and turn and turn and still,i did not reach a conclusion.I know i'm a self-centred girl but i just do not feel like going to her house despite knowing that this would be the last time i'm meeting her.but I seriously feel dead tired yesterday,there wasn't any mood for me to go anywhere so in the end,i choose to go home.Perhaps,deep inside my heart,i just knew that WE WOULD MEET AGAIN.no matter when,where,we would just meet again.

ok.STOP EMO-ING,XINYING.

oh ya,i went to school yesterday to celebrate CNY.performance was as usual.no new elements and blahx blahx.talked to a few teachers like Miss Lim,Miss Lee,Miss Kho,Mr Benny andMr Kat.
Miss Lee is still her old self,keep on suan-ing me.she says that she thought i would look more refreshed after 'O's but i still looked that tired and weary.and i was like "got meh?"perhaps it's because due to my lack of sleep,use computer till late night.hahas.Benny treating us eat Sakae too,can't wait!!=)

pictures still not uploaded cos i'm lazy.hahas.feeling sleepy again.RANDOMNESS.
and i guess i will update tmr bahx.=)
smilex always!=)

P.S.I finally know the name of this song!!i totally love this song and i finally know e song name through 933 ytd.WAHAHAs.

Yuan Lai Ni Jiu Zai Wo Shen Bian 原来你就在我身边 (FULL CD Version) - Xiao Hong Ren
btw this song <王寶釧苦守寒窯十八年> of his is nice too!!

王寶釧苦守寒窯十八年 - 蕭閎仁

Birthday Celebration

2009-01-22T11:14:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,PROFESSOR WEE!=)
(i know i blogged this a day later but i was super tired ytd,ok?especially I need to endure Gabriel constant nagging.^^)

I went to school first before meeting the gang for the birthday celebration.was quite nervous at first because it feels rather awkward to go back to school alone.dunno whether it's pure luck or wad,every time i go back to school,there's no security guard at the security post,so there's not a single need to exchange for visitor pass.headed straight to General Office cos i need the principal signature and school's stamp for my bursary application form.Chatted with Mdm Yong,Mr Loh Keoh and VP,Mr Yeo for awhile while Mr Yeo is processing my bursary application form.
THANKS,MR YEO!

den headed straight to MRT.nobody there as usual.msg Chin Seng to see who's joining us and ask Chien Yi whether he arrived.and i headed to the platform to meet CY and Mr Yuan Yong Long.Vernon came and later Gabriel and LATER siew lee.SORRY,siew lee,miscommunication.
and finally,kenneth.and when we reached JE,our dear Goh Chin Seng has not arrived yet.he's still stucked at his house bus stop because the bus uncle refused to open the bus door for him,causing him to miss his bus.
MORALE OF STORY:everyone is late.so if u wanna meet them at a specific time,do notify them at least 30mins earlier.=)

well,reached the Seoul Garden at Marina Square and we started eating.That was when a little nightmare starts to begin.I was apparently horrified by MR YYL.he look as if he has never eaten steamboat before.He nearly dumped the whole egg inside the small container(the one that boils all food)!!!and worse,the container or whatever it is called was filled foods that me,SL and CY has dumped.oh ya,Mr YYL hotdog too.if i'm very missy,he is very mister.he keep claiming the brocolis and cauliflower that he dumped was not cook even though he boiled for like 5-10mins,making the small container to overload with food.grrr.he went off after that,joining us back later.

Want to know who is the successor of Mr Kobayashi?He is none other than Mr Gabriel Soo.He eats continuosly for 3hr plus plus.those food that we can't finished,he simply stuff it into his mouth.so next time,if u want to treat him to breakfast,lunch,high tea,dinner or even supper,please bring him to those buffet restaurant.only resort to this mean,den you will not be broke.hahas.

(I'm going to skip the part that u guys specially make the Milo Gozilla.ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE:GROSS.)

and we went bowling after walking for awhile.Superbowl @ Marina Square isn't really a great place to bowl,with their alley quite short and "skinny".I got strike 1st(thank you thank you!!) and that starts the nagging of Mr Gab.well,first round score was 79 and the second round score was 71.mr gab score was 81 during the second round and he goes on smirking and flaunting.=.=''
i shut him up by asking what's his O level score.hahas.but it was meant to be a joke.hahas.no offence.

den headed to gloria coffee to buy chien yi a small cupcake.sing birthday song.and we headed home.

uploading pictures later because my sister is hogging onto the computer that has the nokia software.=)
but for more pictures,pls go to SL,CY,Gab and perhaps vernon blog.

我觉得，当你接受他人为你要好的朋友时，那是需要很多勇气的，因为必须接受他人的优缺点和你的差异.所以，那些接受我当你要好的朋友的人，你们很伟大哦！！谢谢！

P.S.Vernon says "我快要崩溃了” when we went window shopping after coming out of Seoul Garden.this reminds me of the Sakae Buffet I've eaten with LiJing and Jinyan 3 years ago.hahas.

JPSAE.

2009-01-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

JPSAE result released and....

they say "Congratulations! You have been exempted from the interview assessment for your choice of courses at Ngee Ann Poly."

COOL!!Hahas.been worried for the interview session since I have submitted the JPSAE application form.so now,I guess i have to wait till JAE released.hopefully i get into CMC!!=)

I'M WAITING FOR 11PM TO ARRIVE.TO SEE OBAMA INAUGURAL CEREMONY.=)

Ytd went to JP to watch Red Cliff 2 with my mum and it's FOC.hahas.why?cos my brother used my name to participate in the U-weekly Red cliff 2 contest.and luckily,I won!not only it comes with a pair of tickets,it also contains Hongbao packet(with no money) and the ez-link card sticker.Tony Leung and Jin Cheng Wu!!=)

well,i watched at 3.40pm so the cinema was filled with random people.like the person sitting besides me was an old uncle and there's 2 uncle sitting behind me.and they were a bit distracting initially.blabbering about work,i suppose.and the first thought that came into my mind was that "have they forgotten the cinema etiquettes?bet that they have not been step into cinema for long.."so i tilted my head to signal that i was a bit annoyed at them.
blahx blahx and they keep commenting about Lin Zhi Ling and i was like =.=''
anyway towards the end of the movie,Zhou Yu says something like "我们都输了。"
translation:There's no victor here.
and i really like this sentence loads!cos it's a war scene and in a war,i think nobody has any victory because each party suffered heavy loss.It totally make sense,isn't it?

well,movie over and i went to shop with mum.initally,i wanted to buy the jumper i saw when i went window shopping with JY,but mum says the design was not that fab so i didn't buy.go window shopping with mum after dinner and we bought almost nothing.went home=)

i have been stoning in front of computer to watch a korean drama called "Beethoven Virus" and it's nice!!!=)though it was a bit draggy( i mean korean drama are a bit draggy as compared to Japanese drama) but it's nice!hahas.worth watching worx!=) especially love the young Kang Gun Woo=) totally a hunk!BUT,i think he look nicer without a pair of skinny jeans.hahas.only Oguri Shun looks AWESOME with skinny jeans.hahas.

lastly,i wanna tell everyone that I MISS SCHOOL.I really miss the times i'm having lessons with everyone.excess freedom can turn into boredom.hahas.can't wait for school to start though i know i will regret saying this later when school starts.

P.S.I'm having dental appointment on 29th Jan for braces.i guess from that day onwards,i will be ranting and grumbling how painful it is le bahx.hahas.=)

gtg.11pm is coming soon!!=)smilex always!=)

CHANGE.

2009-01-17T23:14:00.004+08:00

Oh,feel like changing my blogskin since ages ago.though i got plenty of time to make a skin,but i lack of the software,PHOTOSHOP CS3.I'm waiting for my sister to borrow it from her friend and so i got to wait till i have gotten my hand on it.

OH CRAP.I'm feeling super low for no apparent reason.JUST EMO-ING.

went to collect bursary award today and it's a much better experience compared to the others time as i met Wanxin and JinYan.same row but different seats.SO NEAR YET SO FAR.so i stoned there literally for 40mins.well,i wasn't actually.sms-ing Jinyan to kill my boredom.become “一枝梅”，not this "梅"but this "霉".发霉。

盘旋在我脑海里的你，
我好想把你从我记忆中擦掉。
讨厌你的出现，因为你让我无时无刻想起你，
讨厌你的存在，因为会让我想亲近你，
讨厌你的一切，因为让我在不知不觉中喜欢你。
要忘记一个人，是何等容易有何等难？

submitted my choices=)

2009-01-14T20:53:00.006+08:00

I have submitted my JAE application form during evening time.hopefully i will get into my 1st choice,which is Chinese Media and Communication.=)
Now i am considering whether to join JPSAE.
anyway,here's my choices:

Hahas,from the 9th choice onward,I randomly put any course,especially those whom i previously thought I couldn't get in.Obviously you know,English Mass Communication,i put in for fun de.hahas.so is NYJC,just let me have a feel to choose an elective programme la.didn't do well for PSLE so i wasn't eligible for any elective programme at that moment.hahas.i guess it really entertain me when i can choose elective programme.=)

今天心情有一点低落，
或许是因为大姨妈来的关系吧，
有或许是因为看了报纸，别人拿了10个A1s,
自己拿了2个A1s就高兴得不得了，
觉得有点落寞吧。
哈哈，又在不知不觉中以别人的标准看自己了，
真讨厌。
放心哦，我老妈子说了一些话，让我好受些了。哈哈。
本来有长篇大论要写，但没心情了。
该天写啦=）

P.S.I'm changing my blog url soon=)

HAPPY HAPPY!

2009-01-13T12:23:00.004+08:00

My happiness still haven washed off yet.HAHAS.
I still haven recovered from the shock that i have really indeed gotten a raw score of 12 for my O level.wahaha.
For those who are upset over your 'O's results,why not look at another perspective?Maybe u were meant not to go to that school/course and succeed somewhere else=)This may be some cliche comforting words but i really think of highly of the meaning behind it.
Yesterday post was really over the universe cos I really did not expect myself to get 12 marks.actually,frankly speaking,if i have gotten r5=15,i would just be happy as well.why?That's because i never really placed high hopes for getting good results.especially when i really flunk and screw up my English paper.Did you know that i was really panicking during English P1 and all my mind was filled with "How?""What to do?",all this kind of random thoughts and when i heard that ppl wrote about East Coast Park for the ideal place,my heart totally sank into wide vast sea.hahas.

Whatever it is,It's really Over!No point keep drowning in ur sorrow because everything is fixed.I can't change so does you.Cheer Up,people!!=)

Ok.enough of my 长篇大论。Actually,i'm also in a dilemma last night too.Suddenly,i really dunno whether should i study Hotel Management in NP or CMC?I guess the recent trip to China make me feel like not going to China again.hahas.I dunno.because i'm now spoilt with choices.I guess just as what YangQi says,everything came too sudden and i barely have time to react.but i guess i will make my choice and decision rather soon.I will just think thoroughly what i want=)

有时，我拿完成绩，
脑子就会像我桌子一样混乱，
不知道该怎么反应。
因为选择太多，所以我开始犹豫起来，
不知道是不是该选择这课程来读。
人生像站在十字路口，不知是否前进或后退，又或者是向左还是向右。
要跟着自己的心走吧，这或许是真挚的答案。

P.S.I WANT MY NOTEBOOK SOON!!
P.P.S.A GREAT HUGE THANKS TO KSS FOR PROVIDING ME SUCH AN AWESOME ENVIRONMENT TO STUDY,PLAY AND MAKE FRIENDS WITH!=)

OVER THE UNIVERSE..

2009-01-12T21:22:00.005+08:00

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This picture definitely say out how i feel right now!!(though i know my pose is extremely ugly!!hahas.)

Well,my anxiety is finally over le.spell with me: O-V-E-R,OVER!
hahas,woohs.though I know my grades aren't very extraordinary as compared to others,but i really really appreciate my grades and i see no reason why i can't celebrate!!It's way beyond my expectations,ok?though i got dream before of getting this grade,but i never really think it will come true!!=)

English was definitely a great surprise for me!!hahas.and i'm really glad that i didn't disappoint miss audrey lee and did well beyond my expectations!

或许我要求低,所以我开心.

A BIG GREAT HUGE THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO HAVE HELPED ME THROUGHOUT MY JOURNEY!!=)
UR ENCOURAGEMENTS WILL ALWAYS BE ON MY MIND!
谢谢!=)
I LIKE ENGLISH.but I LOVE CHINESE WAY TOO MORE!!=)
满满的爱要溢出来了啦!!

L1R5=12
=)
朋友们:

一时的失败,并不代表永远的失败.
因为当上天为你关上一扇窗,自然而然的会有另外一扇门为你打开.=)

怕

2009-01-11T22:27:00.003+08:00

嘀嗒嘀嗒，你的心情是不是跟墙上的时钟一样那么七上八下，那样忐忑不安呢?
我是。
我真的是。

我怕，虽然知道成绩册已静静的等待着我开信的那一刻，
虽然知道一切的一切已于事无补了，
但心中的担心、恐惧，不安却没有一丝的减轻。

笑容一分一秒的在消失，
好辛苦。

心脏已快进入休克的状态了。

A fun day~~

2009-01-08T21:06:00.011+08:00

WOAHS.I'm updating my blog with Class Chalet on Mon and my trip to NP today.

Firstly,Class Chalet.I went for the 1st day only and it was quite fun to me la.hahas.i'm very easily contented,especially when bowling and Twilight BRIGHTENED up my day.hahas.though it was called "class chalet",but in fact,most of the time,we done activities in specific group.well,once we reached Coasta Sands Resort,me,liying and siew lee head straight towards E!Hub to fill our empty and growling stomach.We decided on a restaurant named Buddy Hoagie and it was definitely a VALUED meal.WHY?though their student meal are limited,but it was valued for money.considering the fact that their food are quite nice and free Ice Lemon Tea.I'm going to try their fish and chips next time.wahahas.I'm really an easily contented girl.later,we went bowling and watched movie.YAY!!I GOT STRIKE TWICE!!AND QUITE A COUPLE OF TIMES OF SPARE.Super happy!!!Jumping for Joy!!and thanks liying for accompanying us to watch Twilight again=)
Later,at night BBQ.Mr KAT came and guess what?he even bought like 30 sticks of OLD CHANG KEE.GOSH.He's very generous!!!and considering the fact that every stick costs around $1.50,i guess he's quite broke.and ya,after watching the NONYA show,a whole bunch of us went bowling again.ChienYi topped the 1st round,while me and siew lee come in 2nd with a score of 97.(P.S.I shared game with SL.i too broke le.hahas.)as for 2nd round,i came in 3rd with a score of 77,i think.well,did not break my record earlier,highest score:105.after having a strike at the last round in the afternoon game.
Cabbed home with mr kat and JIAYING.
Mr kat is really a superb teacher.send us back right to our house.burned another hole in his pocket.reached home at 12plus,broke my record and that night,i start losing my voice.
and the next day,I REALLY LOST MY VOICE.my voice turned EXTREMELY SEXY and my mum asked me not to talk.can't stand it.WAHAHA.

My Lunch.the one on the right is Siew Lee one.one is fish and the other is ham.
This is what i called baked rice with the cheese extremely cheesy which can pull till ur pants dropped.

Narcissistic photo at the restaurant.

my game earlier in the noon.the photos with my highest score disappeared once i took a shot of it.

K=KAt.his score in the second round.GRR.

Camwhoring in the toilet.

Today went NP open house and it was super duper fun.especially at the CCA Fiesta booth.ESPECIALLY the bowling part.
I totally love BOWLING.hahas.
Why?Since there was a stamp required for the NP card,i wanna play the Wii at the bowling booth and so we stoned there a bit before playing Wii bowling.melissa played 1st and she ended quite soon.den i played.i was quite retard initially as this was my 1st time playing Wii,so did a lot of stupid things like cannot roll the ball etc.den after dunno how many stage,我越play越爽，and den I reached stage 10,later proceed onto stage 15.ok,i decided to stop at stage 15 cos JINYAN threatened to walk off le.but it was a miracle,ok?and the person who teach me how to use the Wii console was amazed that i reached stage 10 and later stage 15.he even asked me whether i've trained at home or not.and i was like obviously not.hahas.so this bowling incident makes me HIGH for the rest of the journey.took the school bus back with 5Appl.hahas.and it was quite funny la.hahas.

MY COLOURFUL HAND.

Zilian-ing in the school bus.
CONCLUSION:I FEEL HAPPY TODAY.=)

HOWEVER,I'm still worried for my 'O's Results.

漫长的等待是痛苦的，
收到的那一刻，是撕心裂肺的。

China Trip(Part 2)

2009-01-06T15:32:00.009+08:00

This post is just picture plus caption for the China Trip!=)

Photos for Wanxin to grab!
P.S.She is freezing in this picture as the wind is blowing EXTREMELY strongly!!

The welcome message at the Confucius Institute.
P.S.I bet we destroyed quite a number of plants there.
Why?The lounge is not small but it is simply not that BIG to accomodate a thousand plus of people and unfortunately,SINGAPORE GROUP were being squeezed to the side and this resulted us stepping on to the plants there.well,i didn't but i wasn't any better.I was SUFFOCATING there due to the limited space plus the thick clothings i'm wearing.

Double-sided 刺绣。
P.S.WOW.

Isn't this familar for those in MDM YONG chinese lesson?=)

The Singapore flag that we spotted at the Confucius Institute!A sense of home!=)
P.S.I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!

A photo at the Confucius Institute Library.

Fu Wa BUT this is not the reason i post this pic.
With a special plus XXXXXL Pen,once u touch this board with the pen,they will read out the words for u,be it english or chinese,super cool,right?What an innovative way to learn languages!=)

The Confucius Institute building.I took this from the library.but seriously speaking,it look more like a BUNGALOW to me.hahas.

论语in 甲骨文。

Adeline and Me.I look way ugly in this picture.

The Duckling at Quan Ju De.KAWAII!=)

Welcoming Banner at Quan Ju De.hahas.

Ok.I took this picture secretly lahx.hahas. He is a roommate of one our group mate,if i'm not wrong.A russian too and don't u think he look great?hahas. P.S.That SPRITE very THIN-TEH lehx. P.P.S.Me,wanxin,Kwai Ga and Alice were sharing a table with the Russians.That explains why I was able to take this picture.hahas. P.P.P.S.A funny incident happened was that this guy in the pic was sitting at Kwai Ga's seat and i was trying to ask whether he want to sit there or not,but unfortunately,he misunderstood my intention and he went on a bit rattling about where he come from blah blah.and forced with no choice,i repeated my qn again and again till....

The Menu!!Food is absolutely nice but at the same time,rather oily. P.S.The Russians literally stuffed everything that was served to us into their mouth.They were absolutely adventurous as they have little ideas what the food were made of or come from which part of the animal body.They just eat first and later asked "What is this dish made of?"

My pose is almost identical!!=) P.S.The one i took with green specs is 2008 shot while the other one is 2007 shot.

The guy beside Alice is a TI-KO.hahas. He asked her for her room number.

He is a SUPER NICE GUY!!!He teach kwaiga and me some simple Russia words and he can speak english very well!The most surprising fact is that he is ONLY 16!!same age as us but looked more mature and TALL!!Oh ya,He is also a basketballer too.hahas.1.87m if i'm not wrong.
BUT he's KwaiGa de,hahas.KwaiGa literally drool over him=)

Me at Tian An Men Square!=)

The fountain outside the Forbidden City.I guess this is the only way to prevent water from becoming ice.

The water has somewhat become Ice le.seriously.so the temperature must be...
and u can guess how UBER cold we are.

KSS Gang inside Forbidden City.

Ok.i'm tired uploading the photos le.wait for more China pictures to pop out bahx!=)

China Trip(Part 1)

2009-01-03T11:49:00.010+08:00

Here i come to blog a bit of my China trip! Well,it was quite fun,meeting ppl from different schools and different parts of the world and through this trip,i have the realization that indeed,HOME IS THE BEST!!=)
I have no idea why i missed home so badly this time round,perhaps because partly of the extremely cold weather(but no snow) and also partly because i really can't fixed inside the big jigsaw puzzle.whatever it is,i did enjoy my trip somehow throughout the 12 days and i will definitely anticipate another trip outside of singapore.HOWEVER,not that soon.

ok,a picture speaks more than a thousand words.I shall just let the picture do the talking.hahas.

My luggage before going to China!=)
P.S.I took this picture not for fun but to remember the arrangement of my stuffs.
WHY?for the obvious reason that i dun really know how to pack my luggage la.hahas.

The boarding area where u go and sit in the plane and wait for it to take off.
P.S.Obviously,i took this on the plane=)

When the plane just took off!!This is Singapore,around Changi Airport Terminal 3=)

I suppose this is Jurong Island or Tuas there bahx,seeing so many factories and little housing.

On the plane taking a picture of the clouds!I'm above the clouds!Btw,don't they look like there are countless of candy floss?=)

When nightfall comes..

The Ice-cream that SIA served.simply delicious!=)
P.S.I forgot to take a picture of the dinner.hahas.sorry.
P.P.S.I'm really regretful to say that i always dun like the meal that SIA serves as it always contains food that I dun like to eat or the food always taste rather weird to me.

Me zilian-ing in the plane.Mind you,I have the window seat!=)
P.S.I think u can see bahx.hahas.

Taking a photo with meixuan on the plane.countless of failed shots as the plane keep encountering with turbulence[气流],so my hand just keep shaking non-stop.

My 1st breakfast in XiYuan Hotel.almost all meat,sorry.but there's little vegetable available,anyway.hahas.or should i say i'm rather picky with the vegetables.
P.S.all the food are quite salty except for my beloved scrambled egg with ham and mushroom.
OISHI!=)
P.P.S.I'm drooling again.

Scenery from my room in the hotel at BeiJing.lousy scenery as compared to others but still,i loved my room a lot cos it's damn spacious and well-equipped=)

Photos with some of my trip mates at the hotel lobby.we are all dressed up like dumplings.

Me and Wanxin with the cute but EMO bear.
P.S.HSK carry one back to Singapore.I bet it's at the Crestar centre now=)
P.P.S.The bear is 160cm tall=.='''
P.P.P.S.It's even taller than me!!*sob sob*

Me and wanxin zilian-ing at a restaurant,waiting for our lunch.
P.S.We just ate our breakfast less than 2hour ago.
What is my breakfast?Take a look at the scrambled egg photos and u will know how heavy my breakfast is.

Inside the GIGANTIC OLYMPICS STADIUM.I'm sorry the picture is dark,but it's UBER COLD there,so i didn't want to repeat taking the same photos.
P.S.My face is starting to go numb.

My eyes is closed.SADDENED.
P.S.IT'S ULTRA COLD!My face is going NUMB-er.

The FU WAWA and the FU NIU.
I know it's a lousy picture but that's the best i can take le.

Look at the screen.I guess that's why I posed like this for this picture.

The extremely HUGE and tall Christmas Tree at the Olympics Stadium.

Narcissistic photos with wanxin.btw,my face has officially gone numb.cracking any moment.

WOAHS,here is a close-up of me=)
I think this picture is well-taken.hahas.My zilian skills have level up le=)

Shadow of me and Janice.

Now you know how strong the wind is.but it's a nice shot,anyway.hahas.
P.S.I'm having a bad hair day.hahas.

Well,I shall end my post here and have my lunch.Perhaps i will update my blog later or tmr=)
Anyway,friends,thanks for being my side all this while!=)
I really really love you guys loads!=)
P.S.Click the photos if u want to see the picture clearer.=)

阔。

2009-01-02T21:30:00.005+08:00

我现在处于迷惑中，
我现在处于迷惘中。

我希望在新的一年，
我会成为一个更好的人。

我希望我会把一些事情当作没看到，
好让我心情好一些，
我希望我会把一些事情当作没听到，
好让我脑轻松一些，
我希望我会把一些事情处理得更好些，
好让我少烦恼一些。

我好想狠狠大哭一场，
我好想我的自卑感能少一些些，
我好想我能少想一些些，
我好想能少累一些些。

世界的宽阔，
天空的辽阔，
我的心不阔。

P.S.It certainly do feel weird not reporting to school on the 1st day of school reopening.but who cares?i'm having skin allergy on my palm due to wearing the gloves in winter times=.=""

P.P.S.Do pardon me for emoing on the second day of the brand new year,but it certainly do not feel good when u realized u are so UNTALENTED as compared to others and u are not well-liked by others.gosh,what's happening to my world?

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!!!

I'm sorry that i failed to reply those new year greetings sms as I fell sick immediately once I reached Singapore yesterday.my stomach feel extremely queasy yesterday and I slept soon after I reached home.

I will update my blog with a decent post soon.In the mean time,do take care of your health,people!=)

Anyway people,Have a great year ahead and may all your wishes come true!=)

Now in Nanjing!

2008-12-27T11:59:00.002+08:00

Yo!!!
I'm now blogging at a School in Nanjing and it's UBER COLD HERE!
seriously,i'm now dressed like a dumpling here and i my movement is super restricted due to the thick clothing.

I REALLY TRULY MISS MY HOME AND SINGAPORE A LOT!!!!
I have no idea is it the cold weather that make me miss home so much or etc,but i really have the impulse to go back home.I'm not exactly enjoying my life here,seriously.
haiya,by typing this post,i really feel that my english has really detoriated.
DO SAVE ME FROM MY DISASTROUS ENGLISH WHEN I GO BACK HOME!hahas.

Jinyan and LiJing,ur present really give me a real headache!but hopefully u guys will like the present i bought for you!=)

P.S.I still got an exam to take here!GRRR.i thought my life would be easier after 'O's,but somehow,it proves me wrong.

P.P.S.Though this post is filled with broken english and no sense english,but I put in a lot of effort to type this post as the spacebar seems to be spoil,AT LEAST,i'm not making as much noise as GOH WAN XIN.hahas.

P.P.P.S.I have Chemistry lesson just now and i nearly fell asleep as all the names are in Chinese and all i do is stare blankly at the teacher.

P.P.P.P.S.THE food here is super oily and salty.I thought i will slim down when i'm here but it seems like i'm wrong again.

思念家的心情一直在我脑海里徘徊着,
对于现在,我真的好累,好想回到属于我自己的世界,
我想我是孤僻的,
我想或许群体生活真的有那么一点不适合我.

我的思念是无边无际的.

飞呀！

2008-12-19T22:49:00.006+08:00

HOHO,I'm flying to China tmr le.guess i would not have the luxury to post during tmr morning cos i will be busy with all my last minute check.
Though it's not the first time i'm going to BeiJing,but the anticipation is no lesser=)
DO TAKE CARE EVERYONE AND I WILL DEFINITELY MISS EVERYONE!!=)

MERRY CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE!=)

DO MISS ME TOO(P.S.I'M SURE U GUYS WILL MISS ME DE!!)!!

P.P.S.I love my blog song!have a hard time finding the suitable one!=)

提前在这里祝大家圣诞节快乐！=）

P.P.P.S.I got bring my hp to China,so if u dun want ur bill to EXPLODE,dun sms/call me cos it will cost much much more!=)

FLYING!

2008-12-18T11:48:00.003+08:00

FLYING IN 2 DAYS' TIME.I CAN'T WAIT TO!=)

Finally,i'm going to China after anticipating it for weeks and days!=)
Though this is not the 1st time i'm going,but i still feel rather excited as i'm going with a bunch of EXTREMELY INSANE PEOPLE.(Hey,we got to admit that the 10 of us is crazy ppl,just take e meeting on sat for instance.hahas.)
But it's kinda wasted that we are only in BeiJing for 3 days and we got to head off to NanJing.can't even meet up with my buddy,SADDED.but one great thing about this trip is that we got to take China Airlines to go to NanJing.wahaha.so good=)

Well,earlier this week,i received a letter from MOE congratulating me for receiving EAGLES AWARD and i was UTTERLY SHOCKED TO THE SKY.hahas.hey,i've been envy with people getting EAGLES Award for the past 3 years and i can't believe i gotten 1 too,based on my lousy CCA attendance.that must be miracle,isn't it?hahas.collecting it on Jan,perhaps maybe with O level result release date.

OMG.the mention of O LEVEL Result already made my stomach like a clenched fist,my heart thumping extra harder.I shall NOT think about it now.but nothing could actually made me calmed down from the anxiety of knowing my result.I'M ESPECIALLY WORRIED FOR MY ENG.

On top of e EAGLES AWARD,I won a Christmas LogCake from Goodwood Park Hotel when i participate in a contest organised by XIN.sg.there was a quiz and u must state the reason why i want to win that logcake and i wrote something like this: 由于今年无法跟家人一起度过圣诞节，便想借此机会表达我对家人的感激，因为要不是他们的鼓励与支持，我也不会勇敢的面对困难。 hehes.and i won the logcake!=)what's more,a D24 Durian LOGCAKE.wahaha. there's a hidden meaning behind this msg and i'm sure all the secs 4 that has taken e major exams understand wad kind of difficulties we faced this year.=) collecting the cake later on as the latest collection date is 23rd of dec,which unfortunately,i'm not in Singapore.

Here is my name!=)
GTG.smilex always!=)

New Heart

2008-12-12T21:14:00.004+08:00

WAHAHA.I have been slacking like nuts and i totally ENJOYED IT!
I have been busy watching videos ever since i have stopped working at DAISO and it's totally an GRADE A* thing to do.hahas.
I've just finished watching New Heart,a korean drama that is screened every weekend on Channel U @ 7.30pm this afternoon and it was an AWESOME drama!!=)
I have been busy catching it this few days on mysoju and though the drama wasn't very addictive,but u just can't stop watching it.though the drama is very greyish and very politics and EXTREMELY DISGUSTING due to the surgery scenes,it's still a FAB drama.
oh ya,u can still learned some medical terms for heart diseases or some HAPPENING thing like Cardiac Arrest,which i think this might led to sudden death due to irregular heart beating,MR ,V Tac. etc.
well,isn't this an educational show?hahas.but 1stly,u got to be able to take on disgusting scenes and extremely bloody scenes to watch this show as i remember there is one scene where e blood was spitting like fountain.hahas.
Enough of promoting the drama,do catch it on Channel U!hahas.

Oh ya,dad and mum are finally back from Kuching on Wednesday and it was definitely great to see them again.finally,no more eating on hotdogs,sardines and luncheon meat almost everyday.
hahas.

Having the hsk meeting tmr and i wonder how's the meeting is like.and i guess i would start preparing the stuffs needed for the trip from tomorrow onwards.GREATLY ANTICIPATING THE TRIP!=)

P.S.THANKS TO THOSE WHO TAGGED AND ENCOURAGED ME!I WILL DEFINITELY LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES AND BECOME A BETTER PERSON!ALIKATOH!=)

海角7号

2008-12-10T12:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to watch Cape No.7 with JinYan and i felt that it was a splendid movie with some flaws in it,BUT it didn't really affect how i feel about the movie.
Well,the movie was super hilarious even though it was in dialect.but i think if it's not for e use of dialect,the movie wouldn't be that captivating.and in one part,i couldn't stop laughing even though Jinyan claimed that the following part wasn't funny.but seriously,i think it was super hilarious lorx.there's a flow in it.hahas.anyway,it really helps to lighten the unhappiness in my heart.hahas.

海角7号不愧是一部好电影，
拍摄得很细腻，
但美中不足的是有一些细节没有交代的很清楚，
搞得我有一点儿摸不清状况。
在他们举行演唱会会的那一段，
看着范逸臣在飙歌时，
心里有种莫名其妙的感动，
那股强烈的感动在他唱｛国境之南}时更强烈。
或许就是因为有共鸣，所以大家才会喜欢这部电影。
当然，我也不例外=）

so if u got time,do watch this movie!It's really worth supporting!=)

难过

2008-12-07T21:40:00.005+08:00

看了一些照片，
才发现自己的存在常常被忽略与漠视。
但这能怪谁呢？
说真的，我很难过，我很想躲在一角狠狠地大哭一场，
因为自己的选择与决定造成了今日的尴尬局面。
我的选择错了吗？
难道把学业放在第一位置有错吗？
自从一些学长走之后，
天变了。
整个天好像都变了似的，没有她似乎不行。
我的存在更因为有了她而变得更不值与忽略，
就因为我们不亲近，所以我就好像永远的B咖似的，
我该做的都没法做，
但这我也不怪谁，毕竟，自己就好像是一个空壳子，什么也没有。

是我的错。
我以为随便进一个社团就行了，
但原来没兴趣就等于日后的没动力。
对于不受肯定，就当作是一个教诲吧！
看清了一切，就不会再犯下同一个错误。

我不圆滑的处事方式搞僵我与很多人的关系，
我一定会把它当成磨练，从中吸取教训了。

人生的每一大挫折与漠视，都将会雕塑我成为更好的人。

我会证明给你看。

PLANE

2008-12-06T23:28:00.002+08:00

PLANE.
OVERSEAS.
ABROAD.

A lot of people around are going abroad or HAVE GONE OVERSEAS and that does not exclude my parent.
WAH~~~
Ya,my parent went to Kuching today which is a part of malaysia,near Sarawak,i think.(dun bash me for wrong info,cos i nv went there before)
and i'm being left in Singapore to guard home.hahas.oh ya,forget to mention,"abused" by my brother and sister.
these two evil people never fails to tease me or make my life hard when 爹爹 and 娘 is not around.
so in the noon,we went to the budget terminal to send them off for their 探亲之旅,and the food at budget terminal is NOT AT LEAST BUDGET at all.
A plate of hor fun with fish,prawn and chicken costs $7.50,which i can simply buy two plates of NOT TO MISS hor fun with ingredients such as pork,prawns,sotong and vegetables from the stall near my house!really got a shock of my life when i see the price,and of course,i didn't settle my lunch there.buy a chicken pie there and to fill my stomach temporary.but the chicken pie was so "tall" that i simply eat until very ugly and 没形象though i know 我没形象可言。
And so we went to IKEA TAMPINESS and settle my lunch there.woahs,IKEA FOOD is nice.it's my 1st time eating at IKEA and i find it rather cool or should i say totally cool?so fun pushing the trolley round and round.hahas.i sound kiddish but u can't blame me.I ordered the Christmas Hot Plate and it was SO-SO due to the garlic that has been mashed up and it was kind of all over the turkey meat.so it was rather a down side for me.=(
NO PICS as i'm still not brave enough to be taking pics all the times.I'M SHY,OK?hahas.

P.S.MY grandma plus cousin also went overseas today too.
I'm left in Singapore to stone.
though boring,but at least i feel safe and cosy.

I hate to admit but MY ENGLISH IS REALLY 每况愈下。
每个人喜欢用回自己熟悉的东西和语言，
我也不例外。
但我害怕，如果我慢慢与英文脱节，
我的英文真的会惨不忍睹，
虽然说现在已经让人不敢恭维了。

TO: JINYAN AND LIJING

2008-12-02T12:11:00.003+08:00

Wah lala~~
I totally enjoy my 宅女 style of life.hahas.
been spending my day slacking and slacking.this kind of life is what i anticipated throughout the year,no guilt,no burden.all u have in your brain is nothing.no fretting of ‘O level is coming'.hahas.
since i'm free till like siao,i guess i can make use of this opportunity to thank all my friends.but firstly,my priority are given to JINYAN AND LIJING.*applause*

Well,let's start with JinYan first.(no offence to LiJing,ok?u are equally important to me!!=))
TO ME,JINYAN is definitely a very important friend and definitely one of the BESTEST OF THE BEST friend to me!We didn't hit off immediately when we first met cos i was being labelled as the nerd in the class.hey,but u couldn't blame me as i was immersed in my own world.hahas.but after Poh Ting gradually accepted me,everyone else began to see the GREAT side of me,and i began to be close with JINYAN.and our relationship maintain till now.hahas.well JINYAN,i really got to thank you for being by my side all the while,encouraging me when i'm feeling very low,upset and demoralised,accompanying me to hospital to take blood test and waste ur transport fees.On top of that,she got to endure my easily agitated personality and i tend to rant on her.SORRY and I REALLY THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR EVERYTHING U HAVE DONE FOR ME.REALLY.
She's quite pitiful for having me as her friend cos i drag her to Daiso to work,and in the end,i left her there to work till end of december.SORRY.I will compensate u by buying u a great gift from China=)
Lastly,LEE-LEE SAN,u got to be more decisive and 坚定 in your decision at times,ok?dun let other people decision swayed u so easily.YOU ARE YOURSELF,so u make the decision yourself and not being passive about it.
要坚持你自己的想法与看法,
不要因为人家怂恿你,所以你就要顺从,
有些时候,决定取决于你自己,知道吗?=)

TO ME,LIJING is a surprise.well,if friends remember,LIJING is an extremist person at times.if she like that person,she would really LIKE that person to the max.BUT,if she hate that person,she would HATE that person to the max.so when i was in Secondary 1,unfortunately,i belong to the later group.I have forgotten when she accepted me as a friend,but I feel really blessed to have her as my best friend and the other BESTEST OF THE BEST friend to me!Well, dun misunderstood her just because she rarely wore a smile on her face,but she is really a warm person if u get to know her well,so IT'S A LOSS if u DO NOT KNOW HER.hahas.well,LIJING,thanks for being my friend for the past 4 years.it's really a fortunate things to know you.I know Jinyan and me have angered you and upset a lot of times,but i hope u understand that none of the incident was what we meant.we really appreciate you as our closest friend.Thanks for telling me that u regard me as ur BESTEST friend after that night study.it really touched me=)
I REALLY THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR BEING MY FRIEND,REALLY.WITHOUT U,I THINK MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE WOULD BE AS DULL AS MY PRIMARY SCHOOL LIFE.Thanks a lot!=)
LASTLY,YEO-YEO SAN,be more accepting to others,ok?sometimes,people may be a biased source towards certain people.but we got to be objective,ok?oh ya,do wear more smile on your face!=)

well,i gotta admit that english is really not a language i can express myself well.so my language sound weird or funny,sorry.but i really tried my best le.

两位知心好友,
谢谢你们这四年来对我的关心与照顾,
我真的很感激也很庆幸遇见了你们,
往后的日子里,
我们可能无法经常碰面,
我们可能无法常常聊天,
但相信我,我真的很珍惜你们.
你们一定要加油哦!
下来的一年可能很累,很辛苦,
但我对你们有绝对信心,相信你们会应付的比我好.
就如你们今年给我的关怀一样,
明年和往后的日子,你们都会有我的支持与鼓励.
希望未来我们的关系更坚固,
不会因为一些鸡毛蒜皮的小事而破坏了我们之间的友谊.

gtg.dun worry.i'm not heartless.will blog on other people tomorrow=)

我终于可以放慢脚步了。

2008-12-01T16:12:00.004+08:00

我终于可以放慢脚步了。
我终于可以好好休息了。
我已经好累了。

从考完试开始，我没有一天是一整天待在家里过。
我每天都出门，做工，向好好休息的机会也没有，
搞得我伤风感冒，身心疲惫。
终于，从今天开始到19号，我可以好好的休息了。
我终于可以当我的宅女了！！

i will update again.but i'm seriously tired.

I think I might confess.but should I or should I not?

2008-11-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

GOSH.

I'm seriously dead beat after 5 days of working at Daiso.
my body is now aching from top to heel,i'm suffering a heavy flu and my knees going to have 2 patches of BIG blue black.
but that's work,isn't it?=)
though it's tiring and kind of tedious,but i seriously enjoy working there.
maybe i'm still not sick of that job yet.hahas.but i'm leaving Daiso soon,next friday.
it's a long story but it's DEFINITELY not because of my lousy performance,hey,i extremely hardworking one horx.hahas.
so if u wanna visit me at work,see me slog like siao,u can tease me till friday.den NO MORE.
all u can see is LJY.wahaha.
anyway,sorry JINYAN,ask u to work with me,but in the end,i left u alone there.
SORRY.

gtg.i'm sleeping.tmr attending nat open house=)

Prom Photos

2008-11-21T22:48:00.003+08:00

I know it's super late but my prom photos has almost finished uploaded.
all photos will be uploaded by saturday.
but photos that i taken individually with YOU are all uploaded.so do grab them urself!=)
here is the link:
http://s16.photobucket.com/albums/b9/mashimaro2408/Prom%20Nite%2008/

Sorry for the late photos!

UPDATE:
Password is: thankstoxinying

2008-11-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

My photo is gonna be ready by tmr!so please await for the nice nice photos.
wahaha.i will only upload post + pictures on Sunday.sorry about it.=)
BUT it's great that u can grab the pictures 1st.wahaha.=)

2008-11-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry,people.all grad pics would be uploaded by tmr,hopefully.
i'm simply just too tired after work=(

YAYNESS!=)

2008-11-14T20:43:00.003+08:00

Firstly,

CONGRATULATIONS TO MS NAT FOR GIVING BIRTH TO A PRETTY BABY DAUGHTER!=)

though i didn't visit her with melissa they all,but i bet her baby must real cute and pretty!!
like mother,like daughter.=)
(P.S.is that how is it suppose to use?)

Secondly,

XinYing has officially found a job!!=)
woahs!i didn't really expect my interview was that smooth-sailing.
FYI,i'm going to work at Daiso in Plaza Singapura with JinYan.(Triple YaYness,cos JY with me!:])
starting work next tuesday,right after my prom night.though it's tiring,but for e sake of my passion and eagerness,i guess i got to start early.not forgetting to earn my money.
but too bad,i won't hold the job for long because i'm leaving china in end december.perhaps i will reapply again in Jan=)

i'm feeling super tired now.genki is dying off.cos i spent my whole morning meddling with my hair and the conclusion and i came out is:I CAN'T HANDLE MY HAIR.
it's seriously thick and bushy.maybe i should go cut a bob hairstyle.hahas.=)
well, let's see 1st then.

Lastly,

SORRY,mr kat.I can't help u out for chemistry in OPEN House.but my chem spirit will be with u.=)
HAHAS.

smilex always!=)
P.S.Prom Makeup is such a hassle.
P.P.S.today Urban is super useful!=)

O-V-E-R!

2008-11-13T11:00:00.003+08:00

O-V-E-R!!
O LEVEL IS OFFICIALLY OVER LE!!!

hahas,it's been long since i blog a decent post:)
i know my 'O's end yesterday,but i was out the whole day,so there's no chance for me to blog.
It's finally over,i feel no sense of excitement,the rush for me to do this and that was gone too.all i feel was,i guess,a sense of relief.dun question me about how i think about the paper,blah blah,it's OVER,so dun bring it up in front of me.i'm trying my best not to think of my result,and be stress-free for this TRUE AND REAL HOLIDAY.

NO HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENT.
NO GOING BACK TO SCHOOL.
NO COMMITMENT IN SCHOOL.

all i do everyday now is to S-L-A-C-K.
but i'm not slacking through this holiday la,tmr going out to find a job to sustain me for this one month break before embarking my yet another trip to China.

YUP.I'M GOING TO CHINA AGAIN.
i'm sorry i didn't go into details with LiJing and JinYan because it was quite sudden.
i'm going China with a group of selected people like Kwai "Ka",wanxin and more.[sorry,i can't rmb all of e names].

and i SO ANTICIPATE TAKING THE PLANE.
yes,i mean PLANE.

WHY?because SIA is releasing the Hana Yori Dango Final Movie NEXT MONTH.which means i can watch it on plane!!!with subtitle!as for now,there is e movie,but no subtitle.so how am i suppose to understand wad they are talking about?!?!(i'm exaggerating,cos i already know wad happen throughout the movie.someone write a review of the whole movie,wahaha.)

oh ya,sidetrack liao.ya,i'm going from 20December to 31December.
so i guess i might have a WHITE CHRISTMAS over at China.
i'm going to BeiJing den to NanJing later on during e 10 day trip:)

i guess i'm changing blogskin too.still deciding to make my own or get e code from blogskin.guess my blog will be down for one day if i'm changing it.

seriously dunno wad to blog now.
smilex always!=)

WORD OF YESTERDAY: SHALLOW.

P.S.OH MY GOD!I CAN WATCH HANA YORI DANGO FINAL ON MYSOJU LE.WITH SUBS! YAY!!DUN NEED TO WAIT TILL DECEMBER!:)
P.S.S.but i guessed i will rewatch it on e plane!=)

081108

2008-11-08T12:46:00.002+08:00

Wahahahas.i haven been studying for these past few days.
well,i meant i did MCQs,but right after i have finished my SS Paper,i plunged right into a show called "Hana Yori Dango".
and i'm super upset about myself why i never go and watch the movie during september.
and now i have to wait till dunno when to watch e movie with sub.
well,for now.i'm going to study.

WEDNESDAY IS COMING SOON:)
AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR 9AM TO COME:)

OFF MUGGING.I'M SERIOUSLY GOING DO MY BEST FOR MCQs.

2008-11-03T21:01:00.003+08:00

我要活在我的世界，
看不到，看不到，
听不到，听不到，
对这一切，我好没有勇气去面对。

这世界的纷扰，
我要远离。
这结果，
我不想面对。

2008-10-25T18:15:00.002+08:00

清醒吧，他或许真的不属于你。

零交流，零沟通，感情不是用这种方法来升华的。

但心里，总还有那一丝丝的期望，

或许，奇迹真的会出现，

但那时千万分的机会。

OFF TO 'O'S!=)

2008-10-10T23:27:00.003+08:00

HANDPHONE IN MEETING MODE.

BLOG DEAD.

I'M OFF TO MY "HONEYMOON PERIOD" WITH 'O'S!=)

WISH ME THE BEST OF LUCK AND I WILL DEFINITELY TRY MY BEST TO DO WELL!

JIAYOU,XINYING!=)

自信而不自满。

P.S.SOME PHOTOS WILL BE UPLOADED TMR.
ALL PHOTOS AFTER 'O's.KINdLY ANTICIPATE!=)

annoyed

2008-09-30T16:31:00.004+08:00

今天，拖着疲惫的心情回家，
本来一切都还好，直到他冒出了那句话。
不止一次，他说了让我很气愤的话，
我便自己先走回家了，
因为我不想当着那么多的男生面前失态，
在他们面前大发雷霆。

我真得很受伤，你所说的东西是我要的吗？
你一而再，再而三的说出那些敏感的评语，
你认为我还会笑脸嘻嘻得跟你们走回家吗？

我说，够了。
你应该已经学会了，
有些话不应该当着当事人面前说，
尤其是女生。

虽然现在气消了一大半，
但我希望往后你不会在脱口说出让我生气的话，
毕竟，你是我的朋友。

Sorry guys,i didn't meant to walk off like that,
but i was feeling quite upset that time so i thought i should let myself cool down.

AND YOU!
WATCH WHAT YOU SAY.

sleeping.I'm tired.keep smiling!=)
P.S. F1 racing is simply so exciting!=)

Resting in Process.

2008-09-14T17:40:00.004+08:00

WOahs,i'm seriously resting[slacking] hard.
i have only done Chemistry TYS 2000 for this weekend and i promised myself to embark on the last paper of e physics prelim booklet,but hehes,haven started yet.probably later bah.
composition,ehh,maybe after i get back my paper and see where i can improve on it.perhaps re-write e exam essay again.
Probably tmr get back some exam script,i'm feeling quite worried right now.especially english.aarrgghh,well,let me forget these stuffs 1st before tmr arrived.=)

Yesterday went out since afternoon.dad was actually getting a hp but eventually,we didn't get one. all e model he want was OOS.hahas.we went to west mall at 1st den later end up at Jurong Point.
and ya,like finally,I BOUGHT MY PROM NIGHT DRESS.
spotted that dress like half a year ago?
and i'm very very pleased with that dress.

go to go back to mugging mode(though i'm watching Herbie: Fully loaded later.)
keep smiling!=)

休息是为了走更长远的路。

No Disappointment!=)

2008-09-12T13:30:00.002+08:00

got back my chemistry prelims result.
seriously,I'M NOT FEELING DISAPPOINTED.
NOT A BIT.
NOT A TINGE.
NOTHING.

so dun worry about giving me false hope because i did not buy his story from the start.i wish it was true,but i know it can't be me.u do the paper,u will definitely know wad kind of range of ur score u will get.like wad i told mel previously,我是被骗大的。
he smsed me on wednesday night that i got 70/80 for chem paper 2,and when i 1st read the msg,i was just giving a mere smile.more like a mockery,i think.i know i can't believe his words,because i fell into traps for dozen of time.so wasn't at all convinced.and indeed,when i get back my paper today and it was **/80,i wasn't feeling disappointed nor shock that i didn't get 70/80.
it's all expected:]
hahas,wadever it is,i'm working hard for my Prelims 2 and 'O's.i know perfectly i didn't put in my best effort for this prelims.everything was in such a rush during e 1st week for prelims.
wasn't prepared at all.was really hugging buddha's leg lorx.=)

anyway,i'm quite elated that i get A2 for my overall chemistry marks.though not an A1,at least i should be contented,right?afterall, the paper is simply meant to...
heeding Mr Kat advice,he said the difficult part is to maintain and improve after prelims.and ya,i do agree too=) so let's just work hard and do better for 'O's.or at least maintain.=)

Keep smiling.i'm going to sleep.hehes.

P.S.Morale of story: stop scamming ppl with uncertified stuffs.