My Shadows.

//Tuesday, May 26, 2009 11:12 PM

It was a flop

The interview at MHA was indeed a flop.hahas.i was really crapping my way through even though i did my best to put on a calm composure facade.People went in for about 20mins but i think i only went for 10mins or less.I was really struggling with the conversation la because all those "big-head"(pls translate to chinese) ppl were really great listener.They wouldn't even prompt me qns when i have nth to say and they look at me intensely.REAL INTENSELY.i was suffocating in there man.for goodness sake,it's like a ratio of 1:10,how can i not be nervous and blabble nonsensical things?and they were picking on the fact that i didn't took any NAPFA,oh well,gotta admit that i didn't answer well too la.

Well,the only fact that i can console myself is that i did not speak like bullet train and talk really no-sense things.at least,i try to apply wad i learn in the interview itself.hahas.take it as a learning experience bahx.I'M REALLY PLEASED WITH THE FACT THAT I DID NOT TRY TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS INTERVIEW.AT LEAST I KNOW I TRIED.

well,after that went to Square2 to have a random walk around the shopping centre.it's not always that pleasant to go shopping alone.den went to meet my sister at Orchard for dinner and den headed for Monster vs Alien movie premiere.It's my 1st 3D movie and ya,at first i was fascinated with the 3D technology but the storyline wasn't that interesting.not extremely funny also lorx.but well,new experience,lesson learnt.=)

alright,i'm rather exhausted nw.sleeping soon.

smilex always!=)

P.S.I made friend with a Yr 2 senior from NP before the interview session=)

u know,与陌生人沟通的四大法则。哈哈。i apply them horx=)

//Friday, May 22, 2009 11:08 PM

A month.

It's a month since i embarked on my poly school life.I think afterall,i have not made a wrong choice in coming this course though it's challenging,tiring and difficult at times but at least i enjoyed most of the lessons.It's so fun and interesting as all our homeworks and what we learned is very technical-based,not those textbooks stuffs,and it can really applied to my daily life!I'm so happy learning those techniques in communication,photgraphy,illustrator and etc=)

Though i'm happy,but all the work is really killing me lahx!!SO MANY WORK TO DO!!hopefully,all my stuffs can be done smoothly and all are done by the scheduled date.

BUT THE BAD THING IS THAT,once my chinese writing became homework,it's like a restriction and burden to me,because i hope to be recognised and this is really giving me loads of stress.i need to really stop being so childish and realistic.JUST DO UR BEST,XINYING!=)

I have sort of passed the Home Awards Psychometric test,surprisingly.and i'm gonna to an interview session.Though in the end,i will still not take up the scholarship,i guess i still wanna have a taste of the interview.I'm afraid yet i still wanna go.I guess something is wrong with my brains.

今天回家的路途上，窗外的风景跟以往一样，

依旧是经过那一整排的私人住宅、经过那火车轨道、经过那些购物中心，

只是由于时间上的不同，

今天遇到了很多的中学生，

而坐在车上，我望着那些穿着校服成群结队的中学生，

我想起去年的我，穿着校服的我。

我怀念起穿校服的日子。

虽然校服不怎么美丽，虽然校服不怎么吸引人，

但看着那些学生，我似乎重燃了对校服的思念，

原来校服已经在不知不觉中占据了我人生中的一个位置。

校服，勾起了我在中学生涯中快乐美好的回忆，

虽然中学生活中也充满了很多的苦与累，

但不知怎么的，现在想起的尽是开心的回忆，似乎从前的生活中都没有“苦”这个字眼。

我怀念的。

//Sunday, May 17, 2009 5:37 PM

STRESS!

I need some 色彩 to brighten up my day,seriously!

Photography assignment is so tough that i dun even have any inspirations for the photograph and i seriously think that the photographs that i took are seriously not up to the standard.I'M SO TROUBLED!

I feel so depressed now la.i think i'm going crazy soon.

update a proper post next time=)

//Tuesday, May 12, 2009 9:07 PM

NO SCHOOL TMR!

YAY!THERE IS NO SCHOOL FOR ME TMR!A MAKE-UP HOLIDAY SESSION FOR E VESAK DAY=)

I CAN REALLY GET SOME GOODY SLEEP LE!WOOHOOS!=)

No school because lectures were pushed to other day due to Graduation Ceremony.so Happy Graduation for those HMS Students=)

BUT,seriously speaking.i wasn't really in a high mode today,and in fact a bit emo-ish.i just couldn't help it but feel emo-ish and i've such an urge to cry now.i guess there's always someday where i just need to feel low.

This week VISCOM task is extremely difficult and i definitely need to crack my brains hard to capture those dream shots.and SPEPRE lessons was extremely interesting(excluding e game part which i catch no clues).i certainly going to apply those skills in my daily life=)

Oh ya,did i mention i was shortlisted for Home Team Affairs Award?and i got to go down to Police Cantonment Complex for a test!Police Cantonment Complex lehx,a place which i really wanna go since young not as a criminal but a staff.even if i did get the award,having been step inside is an honour=)hahas.ok,i'm nuts.

I was rather disappointed that i wasn't called for an interview for both NP and SPH scholarship intially,really.i even questioned myself was it because i was too lousy.but as wad mum says,it doesn't matter whether u get or not.IT'S OK=)

我知道有些东西不能用钱来衡量，

但我不想我的兴趣因为很多理由变成一种束缚。

我喜欢打保龄球，但种种的因素都这个cca很不利，

钱、交通、时间、朋友等等因素。

或许就因为如此，我才那么的难受。

心里的难过找不到宣泄的出口。

//Saturday, May 09, 2009 11:10 PM

Reading & Reading & Reading

School life is indeed hectic and i believe i will whack ppl if they say poly life is all about slacking.It's just so tiring everyday,especially my lesson dun end early at all,except for friday BUT i got to wake up at 8am for lesson before getting release at 1pm.

Life is busy with school and work and READING.i've been reading printed notes since just now and i dunno how much info has gone into my brain.guess i will need to revise those notes again.and i haven read finish yet.GOSH.

Not only that,there's a test on tuesday and it's based on current affairs.this means i need to read my newspaper and know about what's happening around the world.hopefully,i wouldn't fare my paper that badly.I know it's the first test but i seriously hope that i would at least get a pass for that paper.=)

There's also quite a number of projects coming up,seems like almost each module have a project to complete and the most wonderful part is that they are all DUE ON WK 8.GREAT.Next week is week 4 and this means that we only have less than a month to complete a handful of projects.COOL.

Hopefully,i would be able to finish most of my homework this week cos i really dun like to see it piling it up.but reading,i guess i have to take a break from it.

enough of my ranting.though there's been a lot of things going on,but at least,i'm kind of enjoying my poly life=)It's fun and entertaining though it's tiring to move from 1 classroom to the other.Most of the lessons are interesting too,hahas.=)and almost all of lecturers are very gentle.seriously gentle,regardless of their voice or actions.hahas.

Weird things happened too,like my verbal communication in chinese is getting more and more lousy with all kinds of singlish saying.hahas,i must really tried to get rid of those singlish saying.SPEAK GOOD CHINESE!hahas.

alright,i'm rather tired after doing homework.shall blog the other time.

smilex always!=)

JIAYOU,XINYING!=)

//Sunday, May 03, 2009 10:57 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,MUMMY!=)

Today is my dear mummy birthday but we didn't went out to celebrate lavishly cos of some reasons but nvm,my dad and i treat my mum eat chilli crab and i did have a great time eating them!
Eating Chilli Crab=my happy days!
hahas.i'm nuts,i know.

YAY.i'm also super elated that i've finished almost all of my homework.the social psychology textbook is killing me with all the reading.Though it's much better than the alien language physics textbook,but it's still driving me nuts with WORDS,WORDS AND MORE WORDS.not a single page with pictures.JUST PURELY WORDS.wah.IT'S A CRAZY WORLD.and a NOT-SO-GOOD TEXTBK.

anyway,i'm also elated because i managed to capture some nice picture for my weekly assignment,thanks to my dad.hahas.he give me some ideas and indeed,the pictures turn out to be quite nice.Not disclosing it here 1st cos i'm worried that some people might grab my pictures and claim that they took it themselves,so i'm showing u guys after this week,ok?=)Do anticipate=)

IN ANY CASE,i'm so tired.seriously dead beat.and i'm really having loads of doubt for tmr bowling trial session.I know nobody there and i'm sure i'm turning into a pocupine again.seriously.I want JINYAN & LIJING TO BE WITH ME!=(
If not for my strong and stubborn personality,i would really give it a miss.but i dun want regrets.That's what stopping me from skipping this trial session.Hopefully,things will turn out well.and i will not LAO KUI there.AARRGGHH!DILEMMA.

well,i'm going to catch some sleep now.
smilex always!=)

//Saturday, May 02, 2009 11:08 PM

TIRESOME WEEK

IT'S AN EXTREMELY TIRESOME WEEK,regardless work or school.

Been racking my brains for all sort of things,especially homework,which some of my homework is like so abstract.

As my course got one module called visual communication(we are having photography lesson now),we learned things like aperture and shutter speed and i got to hand in 2 photos of slow and fast shutter speed respectively.AND I'VE NO SINGLE IDEA HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CAPTURE THOSE ARTISTIC SHOT.haiya,it's a frustrating week.

Worse,the Publication & Design module is killing me too,hopefully i will overcome my retardness about the software soon=)

There's a lot of homeworks to do and a lot of projects are due on 8th week!it's like i really need to manage my time well..

Work is somewhat overloading too,especially with the H1N1 virus.thursday and friday was horrifying due to the crowd.fortunately,i'm able to rest tomorrow or else i will die of exhaustion.I'm seriously going to get all my homework done.NO MORE PROCASTINATION OR I WILL REALLY BE DEAD.

anyway,showing you guys one of my homework which i took an hour plus to write.OMG.

hopefully as time goes by,i can write faster=)afterall,it's been long since i write a proper chinese essay.hahas.

"众所周知，现在墨西哥流感肆虐，人人都为自己与家人的健康而深感担忧，大家便一窝蜂的跑去药房抢着购买口罩，温度计，洗手液，手套等等卫生用品，使得药房现在出现了“人山人海”的难得景色，一点经济大萧条的影子也没有。

以上是我这两天工作以来所观察到的情景，店里涌现的人潮是我工作以来看过最多的一次，这也让我忙得晕头转向，每天讲得话也就是“口罩没有货了”，“温度计卖完了”，“我们也不清楚几时会有货”等等的话语。而我今天很不幸地被几位阿嫂给讲了一顿，说什么为什么我们不存多一些货，为什么我们不多来一些货，怎么没有候补货等等的责备字眼。听到这些话，我也只能说声抱歉与解释货实在供不应求。老实说，说抱歉只是出于我对客人的尊重，而不是因为我真的觉得抱歉，毕竟，这是自己的疏忽，怎能怪罪于我们这些销售员呢？

怎么会是自己的疏忽呢？原因很简单，因为说到底，都是自己的掉以轻心惹的祸。如果我们吸取了沙斯疫情的教训，现在应该都在注意着自己的卫生，都始终有着为雨愁缪的心态，何必到现在才因为又有新一波的流感而开始抢购着口罩等卫生用品呢？

我们新加坡人就是这样，没有未雨绸缪的好习惯。自从沙斯受到控制以后，大家都渐渐的把良好卫生习惯等基本事情忘得一干二净，直到一有新的传染性病毒出现，才开始又注意起卫生习惯。当然，我没有怪罪于谁，只是觉得我们很肤浅，不管卫生部如何强调要一直有着强烈的卫生意识，但总没有多少人能牢牢的记住这些劝导。其实说穿了，我们常常抱着“有危机才注意卫生，没危机关它的”的不良心态，所以我们才因为一有新的病毒而感到那么惶恐。

不管怎样，我希望这是最后一次了吧，希望这次流感受到控制以后，我们新加坡人能更注意自己的卫生习惯，不需要再多一次的疫情来敲醒我们的警钟，更不要把自己的掉以轻心怪罪于他人。"

oh ya,i write my 1st lovey-dovey short essay in my entire 16plus years.and i think i've a big room for improvement.

as for my CCA,i decided to go for bowling despite having know no one.i sincerely hope that i will make friend asap.and hopefully,i wouldn't make a fool out of myself.I REALLY SINCERELY WISH.