My Shadows.

//Saturday, June 28, 2008 9:27 PM

忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。

忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。

从前，汤匙和叉是联为一体的。
汤匙天真的以为自己会和叉相处的很好，
因为想法，言论都极为相似。
后来，渐渐的，或许，印证了“跟对方走得太靠近，就会放大对方的缺点”的说法，
两人常常会因意见分歧而吵架，和好。

后来，叉的某言论严重伤害了汤匙。

汤匙在叉发表了那言论后，感到很震惊，愣住了。
在汤匙的生涯当中，他从来没有从同类当中听过那么伤人的言论。
汤匙以为同类会了解同类的想法，的感受。
尤其是当汤匙告诉叉墨鱼对汤匙的言论。
汤匙以为叉会了解。汤匙错了。
后面的事情，更惹得汤匙动怒。
汤匙不常生气，虽然常常被误以为生气。
汤匙心灰意冷，汤匙很伤心，汤匙难过极了。
后来，汤匙要求拆伙，各自为一体。

虽然拆伙，但汤匙还是与叉和睦相处，
在人类的生活中互相扶持，互相帮忙。

一切的错误始于以为。

//Sunday, June 22, 2008 12:39 PM

End of Holidays!=(

Well,this holidays has come to an end.grrr.i still want holidays!!!!
i've not been making full use of this holidays and yes,i'm feeling damn guilty and afraid.
guilty for not making full use of this golden chance to catch up my work and further improve myself,instead i've been relaxing and slacking.
i'm afraid of the O level oral that is coming soon.seriously.be it english or chinese,i seldom makes an attempt to practice it.gosh.i'm very worried about it.but there is nothing i can do now,since in less than 24 hours' time,i will be back in school,sitting in the classroom and studying.

after this June holidays,a lot of things have changed.u should know wad i mean.some teachers are not teaching us anymore and well,worse still,there's prelims and O level coming up.i'm really pessimistic about myself.

but i guess i shouldn't be feeling low right now.what's more important now is that i'm going to work hard for the next 5months.and after that,i will be free!!=)
no more physics[hooray!],so no matter how low i'm feeling,i'm going to push myself real hard this time round.i dun wanna repeat e mistake i make in primary six.
Go,Go,Xinying!=)

恐惧已充斥了我的心，
我很害怕，我很彷徨，我很无助，
虽然大家都在同一条船上，
但面对考试，终究是自己在主使的。
没人从旁协助，因为每个人都为自己而活。
我应该把住在心里的恐惧给驱走，
迎来信心。
但我还是很迷惘，我还是很害怕。

我不想在注意别人投射我的眼光，
我太在意别人对我的看法了，
我变得注重外表，而忽略了内心应有的美德。
要批评我，请别在我面前说，
因为二度的伤害，将会彻底的把我的自信心摧毁。

我要为我自己而活，而不是被别人的流言蜚语给主导着。
因为我是就是我。

//Wednesday, June 11, 2008 11:47 PM

Slacking in Process.

Thinking that i have finished all my homeworks?I am doing revisions?I am studying?

Haha,then u are definitely WRONG.

i have been doing nothing except watching television.i am currently watching the DVDs of The Legend[太王四神記].
well,it's definitely a great show and a must watch!!=]
ok.i gotta admit that it's quite gruesome at times due to the bloody scenes,but overall i will give it a 4.5 stars for its superb storyline and compact plot.hahas.well,i got to finish this drama by this holiday,in fact,i will be finishing it off by tmr,cos i seriously want to focus on my studies from then.u know,once u watch one great drama,u will simply get addicted to it and u will want to find out what happened next.and that is really happening to me right now.=[
btw,i think the ending will be quite lousy.ahh,so imperfect for such a nice show.=(

so ya,i've been watching this show,neglecting my work.and frankly speaking,i'm quite frustrated with myself,but i could not do anything but being glued to the television.the revisions that i've done since the holidays started is seriously not enough and what welcomed me is the alarming fact that O level are just a few months away,counting by days,i think is less than 130 days.

i'm seriously going to be dead meat.dead for sure.no choice.i gotta mug for after i finished this drama.seriously.i'm making sure of it.

but the sight of physics make me go sleepy,and the revision paper miss lee gave,i finished one only.with some blanks here and there.

friday going to band concert,i'm wearing something new.=）
Cheers for me!Applause for me!not going to be the t-shirt and jeans Xinying le.=)hahas.
i'm seriously going to "revamp" myself after O level,but let's not get distracted by this joyful changes 1st.let me concentrate on my studies 1st.=)
but seriously,my mind can't stop floating to that idea.=)
hahas.

gtg.sleeping le.smilex always!=)

P.S.DVDs does not belong to me.
changing blog song to the ending theme of The Legend.
it's sung by Yoga Lim and Liu Li Yang,ending theme song when telecast in Taiwan.it's really nice and fits the drama well.=)

P.P.S.did i mention that i'm now in love with online shopping?=)
going to grab some clothes soon as it really win my heart over.plus,it's not those tiny weeny size that i can't fit in.but size that is extra large which makes me look slim in it.cheers,xinying!the world is just not ending soon.=)

P.P.P.S.i got read the tag at my tagboard.so dun think i never reply=i never read.it's just that i welcomed all tag by my friend,but i think it's quite useless if i reply all e same thing,right?just dumped ur tag there,regardless whether link or relink,or u wanna thrash me with words,or compliment me,i will be reading it.
last of all,thanks MR KKS for tagging me!=) well-appreciated.will continued to bug u even though u are not my chem teacher anymore.=)

//Friday, June 06, 2008 9:38 PM

060608

well,back to post again!=)
i know u guys missed reading my post,right?hehes.
kind of lame,i know.and i'm not studying now even though i intend to study today,but i just felt super tired after today Physics SPA and staying for history for about 5hrs!!=.="

I was LITERALLY DRAG by MISS MEL and MISS SIEW LEE for history lesson.and we stayed there till 5 plus.from 1++ to 2++,i was doing my SEQ and slacking.and someone suddenly realised that we do not need to stay cos ms nat wasn't feeling well.after that,i went into e staff room and asked whether we go home or wad,and i think because she is busy cum sick,she kind of felt angry and she was a little bit on her top of her voice when talking to me la.so was a little bit taken aback,but no worries,i understand.=) and i will definitely try to be more "broaden-minded".she is a nice teacher,u know,teaching us even though she's sick,feeling unwell,busy with band stuffs,but still can't helped feeling a little shocked.but no worries,i'm not a petty girl and i will definitely try to do well for my Combined Humanities!=)

and ya,i forgot to mention while i was slacking,i wasn't really NOT DOING ANYTHING.we were chatting with mr kat and he was busy fumbling with the cubes after mel come.u know,mr kat,if u read it,ur 90%!=) even though it was done with some tutorial,but i guess it's commendable for him to attain an 92% complete and later emerge as 94%.hahas.i think only e 5 of us know wad i am talking about!=)

well,doing some maths qn later bahx.seriously feeling very tired today.and Physics SPA was a horrendous experience.imagine 2 girls with a bunch of boys from e other class?i will not welcome this kind of experience anymore.and physics spa was tough.i really have no ideas wad it was talking at 1st.and me and esther was wearing a huh? and puzzled expression on our face.but not to worry,after flustering for a few minutes,i finally understand e essence of the qn.and i began to do the experiment.but still,make avoidable mistake.down by 1 grade.i won't say i'm upset cause i feel contented that i know how to do e SPA le.let's be contented,ok?

i gotta admit before Chem SPA,i was feeling super flared up.because someone make a comment which boils me off totally.
yes,i admit that it was my fault to give the wrong definition of e formula.but do the both of u have to jump to conclusions saying that i want to be e 1st in class and so i framed other ppl?
i never ever think of that way. u may jolly well think that you were just joking and i know you guys are joking,but did you guys think before you say?
did you put yourself in my shoes before u make such an accusation?
i wouldn't say it's a comment,because that's was an accusation.a falsely and deadly wrong accusation.
it was not nothing and never ever will.
i wouldn't tolerate any of these accusation anymore if that occurred again.
i will be nice if u guys was nice to me.i will joke with u guys but on this matter,i will never joke on it.i'm not angry anymore nor i bear a grudge with u guys.in fact,i wasn't angry with u guys as soon as the Chem SPA ended.but i want to let u know,this kind of accusation is not a joke.

Worse still,someone make an irresponsible comment again.and i was damn fed up.she pushed the blame of e late start of our physics SPA to 2 sick schoolmates.hey,if u didn't realise,health is more important than anything else in this world.i am sick,i know how they feel.dun make such no-brain comment,u will really looked like a clown like this.a foolish clown.

gtg.smilex always!=)
P.S.the above blue comments was not meant to sour our friendship.but i just hope that,please be careful with ur words.certain things are not meant to be a joke.