Well,nothing much happened.Just practically sleeping and rotting for today.
and ya,Card treated us pizzas today.cos he is not teaching us anymore.
nearly cried out cos he make it like so sad,but as a strong girl,i didn't.
if i did,i think i will feel damn stupid.

Well,it's like such a pity.
he is a great Chemistry teacher that really puts in lot of efforts for us.
and everybody is just starting to adapt and improve for Chem,
there comes the stupid bomb that tells us he is leaving.
but guys,dun be sad,we shall just performed superbly to thanks mr kat for his great teaching!
Dun disappoint him and i'm sure we can make it!!=]

ok.i'm really expressionless when i blog in english due to my really "narrow" vocabulary.=.="

Ever since i finished watching the drama They Kiss Again,i really dunno what to do when i switched on the computer.
but hey,that does not stop me from switching on the computer,but seriously,i'm just drifting between sites to sites.
and reading ppl blog and looking at ppl picture.and i start to sigh.

WHY?
because i dun understand why teens of our age are acting so mature,especially with those heavy make-up.is that necessary?i doubt so.
yes,make-up beautify a person but as someone of our age,i think it's necessary.afterall,we are now youth,where our skin condition is at the best period of time.[i hope u get what i mean.]
i gave up.this part i'm blogging in chinese.

浓妆艳抹、花枝招展，
这些打扮有必要吗？
像我们这种年龄的人，
何必打扮得那么成熟呢？
何必往脸上擦那么多粉呢？
何必在不适当的年龄做不适当的打扮呢？

看在自己眼里、“志同道合”的朋友里，
这些打扮很时髦，很好看。
但看在某些人眼里，简直是大笑话。
该珍惜的不珍惜，等到后悔时才惋惜，
那有用吗？
青春不再时，请别后悔，因为已经太迟了。

青春岁月，花样年华，一去不回头。

“旁观者清，当局者迷”

以前以前，从前从前，
我从电视上领悟到了以上那句谚语的意思，
可是今天，当她告诉我那件事后，
我更深切的体会到了这句话。

两个男人，不，应该是男生，
为了一个戴上面具的女人[抱歉，是女生]争风吃醋，
搞的关系似乎不太好。

一个是我们小学同学，
一个是我曾经暗恋的对象，
这两个，我谁都不希望看到他们受伤害，
但被美色蒙蔽双眼的人，怎么也看不清事实。

我知我没资格说这番话，
我也不了解事情的来龙去脉，
但或许，有些事情是怎么伪装也掩盖不了的吧，
人的险恶，或许有时候真的就这么容易的被人看穿。

但或许是我错了，
也许是我看走眼了，
但或许我是对的。

不管怎样，我会以客观的角度来面对她，
对于他人对她的流言蜚语，
我想我会听，但尽量少“取”。
毕竟，片面的供词，我不能完全相信，
虽然有些事实已经摆在我眼前。

因为了解不深，我不敢乱下定论。
因为了解不深，我想我还是以平常心面对，虽然对于她的面具，我早已看透。

一切都“完了”。

一切都过了、完了，结束了。

我都得到了暂时的解脱。
我想大家都累了吧，
每天，我们都有mock paper 要做。
每天，我们都得在闷死人、热死人的hall做。
昏昏欲睡，热得头昏脑胀，一切的辛苦暂时都得到了解脱。

今天，踏进hall的时候，觉得极为不自在，
因为少了平常的嬉闹声，
礼堂安静的有点恐怖。

虽然我不觉得我做的很好，
但我想应该不要再对他耿耿于怀了，
毕竟都已经过了，
我要相信我已经尽力了。

大家，给自己一个很大很大的掌声，
因为我们都付出了很多的心血在这次的考试上。
未来的考试，我们再接再厉，
在这舞台上绽放光芒！

一切都完了。

Not going to use CHINESE to blog the main content in the next few months cos i want to improve my english!!=)
Of course,to stop receiving complaints from friends that i kept blogging in Chinese,thus they dunno how to read.hahas.i shall take this opportunity to improve my english!=)

gtg.got to finish my timetable although i dunno wad to write in it.currently dun have the mood to fill-in-the-booklet.

还剩8天就到华文会考了，我不禁有点担心。
或许我一直沉浸在我的世界里，不知“人外有人，山外有山”的道理，
我原来对华文的知识那么浅薄。

做综合填空时，才猛然发现自己不明白的字很多，
自己的词语配搭能力也不是那么好。
我不是在搞忧郁，我只是发现了我的不足。
你们放心，我还有时间，就算没有，我也会尽我全力去考，
只是现在还有时间，希望不会“亡羊补牢，未为晚也”。

原来对于我最熟悉、较为把握的东西，我也会感到如此的恐惧。

老师让我们检查成绩，后来就得知了自己的排名，
我不愿透露，因为事情还有转机。
我们都看到了他的努力，他有些走火入魔的一面，
当然他的期许也会很大，毕竟，一份耕耘，一份收获，
自己付出了诸多努力，难免会想要自己的回报越大。
但事与愿违，而我却像半路杀出个程咬金似的，
夺走他最渴望的东西，排名。

我为什么会提起他呢？
因为那天他跟某人谈起话，或许是我多疑了，
或许是我多心了，但他们不寻常的在一起，让我有些吃惊，
毕竟，那某人常常跟他那群朋友在一起，甚少与他打交道，
有点与“班”隔绝的感觉。

我只想再次强调我不会卷入你们争夺排名的漩涡中，
我不保证我不会对你们的努力感到恐惧，
因为你们比我努力许多。
我不保证面对你们时我不感到有压力，
因为事实胜于雄辩，你们的确比我优秀多了。

但我不会因此放弃，我不会因此退缩，
但我战不是因为你们，而是为了我自己，为了我的将来。
套用miss lee 教过的东西，take charge of your learning.
我还是会感到恐惧，害怕，彷徨，
但我一定会站稳脚步，勇敢去迎接每个挑战。
我不会因此而傲慢，因为我终究还是我，
那个有情有泪的女生，那个面对困难时有时会退缩的女生。

如果你想以敌人的眼光来看我，
如果你想因此而断绝你对于我的帮助，
那你失去的会比得到的多，
你终究会得到一个得不偿失的局面。

我会尽量挥别与别人比较的日子，
我会尽量摆脱跟随别人步伐的时候，
因为我想要忠于自己，不受任何摆布，
不受任何牵挂的走我的路。

与别人比较，弊处应该胜于利处吧，
我不齿那些一直想跟我比较的人。
是时候，我不该被无谓的东西给动摇了，
是时候，我该与世隔绝，
是时候，我该走我的路了。

如果你们以为我因那件事情而欣喜若狂，
那你们错了，我的心犹如湖水，
平静的让我有些不可思议。

yay!!this marked my 300th post=)on a mothers' day somemore!!hehes.anyway,i celebrated my mothers' day with my mum a week ago.merged as celebration for her birthday and this special day!=]yupx,so tmr we will be just lazing around as usual.maybe go to swensens?i gotta spent my vouchers by this month so it's either tmr or after my MTL 'O's.

well,today or should i said ytd?whatever,i spent my day,10/5/08 slacking!!=]hahas.i wish i'm studying but i think i should not,since MTL intensive is coming,results is coming back,i think i ought to take a break before i continue my journey of mugging.since,seriously,i'm feeling quite drained off after the exams.i dunno why,but exothermic reaction just keep going on and on.but i guess i will be fine after spending my weekend rotting at home.well,i spent my day finishing the drama,They Kiss Again,watch tv,use computer to watch Trick 3,den watch Hana Kimi again,den go take nap,den watch tv again,blah blah.i spent my day using electronic devices.hehes.=]looking at mel blog,i felt that i'm really slacking.but i guess i have to follow my own pace,i have to constantly remind myself the message "i'm not other".so let me slack.i believe 休息是为了走更长远的路。

friday after getting back the chinese script,i went back home to rest cos i was having a terrible headache.i felt better after sleeping though.and mum say it was normal,cos after having 2 stressful week of exams,it's most likely to happen something like this.not surprising.and someone smsed me whether i know my chem paper 1 marks.he know.and i know his marks too.but i didn't smsed mr kat immediately to know my marks.1stly,i'm afraid of getting to know my marks.i know i didn't perform well cos i dunno how to do quite a handful of qns,despite having four choices for me to choose.2ndly,i felt that if i know my marks and it's not impressive,den perhaps this weekend,my mood will be damn moody[although it is now,due to e exothermic reaction],so i choose not to know.it's better to be keep in e dark at times.if u know it's gonna be bad.

put aside the bad things,let me show u some pics of my "atrociously beautiful" laid tables during the exam period.
WARNING:U MAY GET A HEART ATTACK.[well,i'm exaggerating.=]]


ok.i dumped my things on the floor just like that.cos there is no space to put my things on the tables.why?just see the following 2 pics.=]

see!!that's my study table.see the right hand side of e table?that's where i normally stack my things.and it always go higher and higher.hahas.

my super "well-laid tables!!!"hehes.doing e-maths revision.

my black and white world.while i'm mugging for physics.

ok.now i will show u after i have clear up e mess.although it still kind of messy,but at least it looks better now.at least to me.
P.S.i clear up e mess just now.before blogging this post.hahas.=]


here is my table after clearing the big mess.=]

but..the chair is still occupied with stuffs.hahas.=0

and here is where all my books goes!hehes.consists of Add Maths Textbook,TYS etc.I just love stacking!=)

let me showcase u one of e books i bought in beijing!!it's very thick and it cost less than 20 Singapore dollars.i remember someone reaction when i bought this book.that person simply irks me.but her favourite teacher,Miss Foo thought it was a great buy,other people shares e same sentiments too.it simply just shut her mouth.and i won an effortless battle=]

ok.gotta write in chinese to vent my frustrations after ytd matter.i'm indeed feeling quite upset abt it.i know that person will know wad happened.i know it may cause tension in our friendship.but what i write stays here,dun talk to me about it.perhaps i will feign ignorance.or perhaps,if the tone is not correct,i may just flare up unknowingly.i dunno.cos i'm really feeling quite upset at this moment.take it as i'm very petty.
but what if u were me?

朋友之间不是应该互相帮忙吗？
怎么我得到的却是你的冷酷回应？
很多时候，我不了解，我问, 但你的回答让我心好像让我淋了一场大雨，
让我心感到好凉，让我感到好心寒。

我感谢那些乐于助我的人，谢谢你们解答了我心中的疑问，
谢谢你们让我知道往后，我应该要怎么解决。

我很简单，要的只不过是explanation,
要的只不过是那么一点点的帮助，
但有时候，你的回答真的让我很失望，尽管我们是朋友。

如果一个人，不明白某些事情，那人再看多久也都不会明白的。

gtg.it's late.i'm sleeping.smilex always!=)

Today is seriously a low-productive day for me.
I feel like sleeping when i'm doing the revision and i did sleep but THAT IS NOT ENOUGH.
i'm going to die for tomorrow MCQs questions.surely learnt from someone to throw dice.grr.

I REALLY WANT TO SLEEP.BADLY NEED IT.AND I WANT IT.BUT I CAN'T.I NEVER EVER WANTED TO LIVE THIS KIND OF LIFE ANYMORE.I'M FRUSTRATED.I'M TIRED.I'M DYING.

btw,here is something about my horoscope.having fun as i read Mr Card ex-wife blog.=)
it's quite true though.hahas.=)



last but not least,here is this nice song i wanna recommend:
Realize by Colbie Caillat.it's seriously nice.=) changing it to my blog song soon.


gtg.back to mugging.which i feel like to sleep soon AGAIN.

i'm back to take a rest..=)
back to blog in english after being complained some of my friends for posting in Chinese consecutively for the past few posts.haiya,ppl can express better in chinese ma.=)hahas.=)

still left Chemistry and Phyiscs Paper 1.i'm studying later,but NOT NOW.cause i'm feeling very drained out after 4 hours of add maths.i'm having exothermic reaction after the 4 hours of add maths!!
i nearly went berserk when i was doing add maths paper 1,i lost track of space.what do i mean by space?i was so concentrating my work that i didn't realized i'm doing an exam in the school hall!!i feel as if i'm at home or at somewhere else when i was doing the paper.
but overall,add maths was still ok,except for my graph and a few qns here and there.i know how to do,but that is a different question when u asked me whether i will score well or not.as u know,i dun really have much time to check,and so i have no idea whether did i make careless mistake or not.hopefully not.but the tendency i make careless mistakes recently is very very high.

i'm really having an exothermic reaction now.grr.and just now after add maths paper,went to lunch with Chin Seng,Elaine and Gabriel.Gabriel so funny.say dun want to eat,den later he was seen eating!spent quite some time in the popular,thanks to Joshua gf.=) and thanks to her,ppl keep calling me Mrs Card.Joshua gf,THANKS AR!

ok.fine.enough crazying.shall update abt what happened during a bus trip on saturday.
as u all know,i didn't really study on sat cos i went to celebrate my mum birthday and we went to a somewhat posh restaurant at Orchard.and so we saw 2 sports car[i supposed so expensive cos it looked super posh,like u know,those idol drama,that kind]parked outside Meritus Mandarin Hotel.and ya,ppl were taking photos abt that car.and it was wow to me!cos it looked so exp and that's e 1st time i saw that kind of car.hahas.but that's not e main point.

so when i go home with my sis and bro,we board 190 and we stand throughout e whole journey back home.ok,not whole journey but 9/10 of the journey.and there was this guy who board e bus at dunno wad bus stop.i keep looking at him as u know,he was quite good-looking.well,not quite but definitely good looking.hahas.so i keep stealing glances and him.i dunno but he also keep stealing glances at me.hahas.so practically we were just stealing glances at each other,but when we have eye contact,i looked down onto e floor.hahas.so funny of me.but indeed he was quite good-looking.=)hopefully i will be able to meet him again.hehes.=)hahas.ok.i'm very high.=)

ok.gtg.smilex always!=)

我期待与他再次重逢=)