My Shadows.

//Thursday, October 18, 2007 9:35 PM

原来我不是麻木的

原来我不是麻木的。

this is one fact i realize.i wasn't that numb as i thought i would be.i wasn't that depressed when i get back my results,in fact,i felt nothing at all.but then,after i came back home,and mum say something,i feel so upset about my results.

well.no points revealing my results here since it was a disastrous attempt.never did i fail my overall composition marks before.never did i fail my english paper 2.but still,i manage to scrape a mere pass for the overall marks.due to the help of oral.but still,it's really the boderline pass.i read many books yet i fail in my tenses.
i dun get what it means by nouns,adjectives adverbs,verbs.
i dun get what it means by past perfect tense,or whatever it is.
i dun get e ideas why my english is so lousy.my tenses etc.i did my best,put in all my energy in writing yet i get a "fail".

i live in a chinese-educated,chinese-speaking family.i did read my storybooks as i like to read storybooks more than newspaper.i did read.i did make attempts to improve my vocabulary but my tenses just sucks.any kind souls would like to help me in that?i'm near to tears now.it's just a matter of time when i will burst into tears.

i think i have been awake from those sweet dreams of going to BeiJing.i have been shaken awake to face the cruel reality.i have to improve my english.i cannot attend holiday lessons as i'm going to BeiJing.any arrangements for that?the teacher say it is a die-die must go lesson yet they put at such dates.how am i suppose to attend?i'm so afraid that i can't catch up with u guys. i have to put in extra efforts for that.i'm not going to let myself to slack too much in this holidays.help me,ok?

gtg.smilex always!=)