My Shadows.

//Friday, April 06, 2007 11:17 PM

060407

Finally,I'm back to update my blog.
and yes,i realize that i have a LONG time not updating my blog,abandoning my blog,leaving my blog in a lurch,but can this be helped?some may say can,but to me,i can't and i dun have the spare time to use computer.can u just simply believe it?i have not used computer for how many days or perhaps even weeks.i wouldn't be able to survive last time if i did not use com for weeks and days but now,due to the circumstances,i have no choice and i'm not grumbling or complaining.i actually don't mind it.ok,do i sound serious?perhaps so.
In any cases,during this period of time of not updating the blog,i got actually so much to say and blog about deep in my heart,wanting u all to know how i actually felt and whatsoever.loads of things happened and i'm learning while trying to manage it.it's been so busy and bustled with activities that i actually had no time to rest nor play.Thus,i fell sick and it in quite a bad state.too stressed up according to people around me.perhaps so but i didn't realise it until they told me and point out this point to me.and after i fell sick,i'm actually feeling so lost and disoriented.
stressed up that i would not be able to catch up with all the work and i have not been able to prove myself wrong.i'm still a bit lost now and feeling afraid to face up the world.but i'm learning to overcome these obstacles.give me time even i noe there is a huge time constraint.i must believe in myself even though i couldn't.exams is coming soon and i have not been really memorising hard.but mum just told me to relax and take it easy.she knew i have been putting a lot of effort.she love me and i love her too.it was her words who brought me out of e agony and fear.i really love her a lot.and i won't deny the fact that i'm a mummy girl.i wouldn't mind coping at home for years or even rot at home.i'm actually having some phobia of facing the world and school.but i'm ok now.even though i'm still working on it.i noe i can even though i'm afraid and i still couldn't convince myself about it.
Won't be able to update my blog very often now as MYE is coming.and the school haven give me the exam timetable.but i noe i got a lot of things to memorize.and i just couldn't wait for O level to come.so i can throw my books high to the sky,let it fall onto to the ground,and i can walk away with pride.i just couldn't wait to throw my science book away.but before all that happens,i'm throwing away this kind of mindset.i'm looking forward to the end of e exams.i'm going to watch loads of english movie to improve my english.not forgetting to mention that i'm actually green with envy with people who completed their O level.i have yet so many to learn.Jiayou.u noe u can do it and i noe i would be able to make it.Sometimes, a small thing would make me realise loads of thing.i just couldn't stop regretting stuffs that i done earlier.
Studying in express isn't easy.smart people are just everywhere.it is hard to top the class so i would be just glad if i'm not the bottom.and i will make sure i would not land to that state.Jiayou.and i'm changing my blogskins which is obviously not done by me.i'm not that talented.hahas.i'm going to improve my english writing.and i noe i can do it de.Jiayou.=)
gtg.smilex always!=)
*U noe u can do it and i noe i would be able to make it.*