My Shadows.

//Friday, March 02, 2007 9:59 PM

2.3.07

updating again.after nearly a week's time.hahas.anyway,it been a tough week for this week.find it so hard and unbearable to go through this week before reaching e weekend.and i hate to admit that i'm actually feeling down in the mouth[meaning depressed]..dun ask me why.it very obvious.it about my studies.haiya.flunking all my science.and i mean it.really flunk like crazy like that.haiix.it is so vexed lorx.make me so depressed n sad n inferior n i'm speechless....
actually i couldn't rmb wad had happened for e whole week.i have not been paying a lot of attention on wad happened today.just knew that we have chemistry practical today.aiya.was a mess lorx for goodness sake.and we handled some dangerous liquid like e acids which can disfigured u.i was like so nervous and scared lors.and that monotone did not help to calm my feelings.he was like telling us 'u noe e liquid that e indians used to pour ppl on their face and their face goes...' and we like so terrified.den someone mention about wad kat kat say earlier in the lesson.wad e whole thumb gone missing.and u noe wad i did when i pour finish e acid to my liquid?i go and press e mouth of e tube.den got 1 print of e mouth.i was like so scared lorx.but luckily,nth happened.
and next week got 4 test straight in a row.
Monday-A&E-Maths Mock Common Test
Tuesday-Maths Common Test
Wednesday-Chinese Diagnostic Test
Thursday-Physics Class Test.
i'm going mad.i'm like walking to a path of madness,berserk and crazyness.everything happening in school is driving me crazy.and yes,i told ppl that i regret complaining about my lower secondary life.i mean i never notice how wonderful it is.i'm really like feeling so stress up.about science,humanities and all sort of things.and thoughts of die-ing keep appearing in my mind.but i won't do it.i'm trying to juggle everything.
CCA-relationship with e secs 1 is much better.at least i'm not that really stern and fierce.and that gal who says 'dun play dun play lor' doesn't seems to be really disliking me.i hope so.definetely..sec 1 are quite nice.hahas.and i must admit i'm not a good mentor to teach e girls about those equipment.i'm not even sure of it.but i just roughly noe about it.and got camping during march holidays.start straight after holidays start which is friday.gosh.but i already signed up liao.since gb is going too cos got my beloved Jinyan.hahas.
and ya,maths supplementary on monday and tuesday.seems like more supplementary starting.i'm starting to prepare my notes for e exams.hope it isn't too late and be at least done by April and April start memorizing it.hope i can do it.got to knew something today.didn't want to tell her wad i knew.cos it would break her heart.and i dun want to see her so sad.so i decide to keep mum about it.until e time is ripen.and i suddenly rmb,ytd went for career fair.was fun and they press Liying who she likes.hahas.very funny la.and bought teens with lots of freebies.i'm considering which course i'm taking after o level.considering it only la.

gtg.watching hana kimi.smilex always!=)hope my mood can improved.

gosh.i mean i couldn't forget him.
thinking and missing him now and then.
even though i forget how he looks on e 2nd day.
i want to see him.=(