My Shadows.

//Sunday, March 18, 2007 5:47 PM

Orientation Over

basically,i will just have a very brief post.and i think from today onwards,my post will be not as long as last time le.why?cos i have no time and in april i will need to rush on exams cum TXY newsletter.in case u dunno,TXY stands for Tong Xun Yuan aka student correspondent.so in my future post,i will be mentioning them lots of time.hahas.cos it was fun and u will never noe that e xinying in front of u is so different in the club.in that club,u see almost her true self.dare to play,talk,rowdy,dance like mad etc.u will really see a different xinying.cos in school,everybody is so shy and so she will also be shy even though deep inside her heart,she wish to be really daring.sadly to say,our group didn't win any prizes but it doesn't matter since we have a lot of fun.we even play 'Shi Zi Lu Kou'..eating on e way while we were ask to finish e task.it was like so fun lorx.and we even came out with a skit about brokeback mountain.hahas.if anyone would like to join e club,i will definitely give u the full support.hahas.ok enough of it.blog about other stuff.school reopening tmr which i simply dun felt that i have a school holidays.i mean i am like so busy that i only wake up late twice only.TWICE U NOE?last time it is like almost everyday de lorx.haiya,and now i am like kind of a walking zombie with my eyes going to close every moment.=(.and i have been so stupid studying LoNs where CT only need to test TOV.gosh.gawd.i'm fainting.
going bathe and study later.gtg.smilex always!=)

//Thursday, March 15, 2007 9:05 PM

ok.i'm here to blog a short post cos i still need to squeeze out questions out of my brains for tmr outdoor interviewing.maybe u wonder wad is outdoor interviewing,it part of e programmes of the orientation and we are going to Jurong Frog Farm,so i was wondering wad type of questions we want to ask and which are the questions we should ask.anyway,today orientation was fun and funny,everybody is quite enthu,not like in school,there is always someone slacking or not participating at all.so everything was well except that i'm still always being left behind in the back.hahas.and Zhiyuan,e sec 2 guy in Kranji,also joined in and is also my group.What more shocking was he is actually near to 18 yrs old!!!!omg,i was like so shocked when i noe his age lorx. cos i just thought he look kind of tall and mature only,never thought that he was near to 18 le.
enough of it,shall just talk briefly about Lijing Birthday.went to eat Pizza Hut in Jurong Point which was very very cheesy.after eating finish,nearly vomit out.I can accept Hawaiian Lover,but not BBQ Chicken Supreme.e sauce i dun like it.and so when we were about to go home,we were being stucked just like in Show Luo autograph sessions.cos everyone do not want to get wet,so they just squeezed.and e direction we are moving in are like so kanchiong.ppl keep creating lines after lines,causing ppl going to JP direction was like so pitiful.only 1 line.
gtg.smilex always!=)
sorry for blogging so little.cos still need to generate qns and i haven finish my History Revision for CT.argh.so busy.Jiayou.showing u guys some zilian pics of mine in PH.
Pictures Time.=)

//Monday, March 12, 2007 6:52 PM

I'm In!!

Just a short post telling u guys that I'm IN for the Student Correspondent Club and partly becos Hana Kimi is starting in a few minutes time.
and i was like so shocked and dumbfounded as Bingrong called me about 10 and at that time,i was near to give up entirely all my hope.and i emphasize on all my hopes.and of course,i was shocked la.and my feelings were like rojak like that.dunno whether to feel happy or etc.as being in the club means a lot of things.For example:

Lesser time for sleeping and slacking.
Lesser time for myself,my family and my friends.
More things to do.
Need to manage my time well for both my studies and this club.
Have to be extra extra attentive in class so as to understand fully wad the teacher is saying.
Couldn't be slacking as heavily as last time.

and of course more which i couldn't think due to time constraint.so i'm feeling kind of vexed now about this thing.but since i'm in for it,i will definitely work hard for it and also balance my school work well.Jiayou le.and that is e only thing i could do.hoping to finish my Add Maths Assignment and English Compo later on.as melissa and Chien Yi seems to finish all their homework.Jiayou le, Xinying.I noe u can do it de.and ya,Student Correspondent Orientation is on Thursday to Saturday,8.30am-6.30am and 10pm on Saturday.so no choice,but try to finish all the homework by Thursday.
gtg.smilex always!=)

//Sunday, March 11, 2007 4:23 PM

School Holidays

hellos.back to update again after a weeks' time as it was really a hectic week in school.and ya,firstly need to thanks those who tag my board even if i never update my blog.Thanks!will tag back u guys once i finish blogging this post.and ya,it been really a busy week with many homework to finish as school holiday is coming and with lijing and jinyan birthday,thus was near to breakdown this week and u can't see e happy,cheerful xinying this week becos she was really really worn out even till now.hmms,a lot of have happened this week and i shall start with e student correspondent 1st.
-So it called last weekend asking me to go interview this saturday which was ytd and i went.shalln't describe wad actually happened becos it was kind of tedious and partly becos i'm lazy.nevertheless, they say if i am IN,they will call either ytd,today or lastly tmr.but having to think about my performance ytd,i know gladly well that i won't stand a high chance or huge chance to get inside becos i did badly for e interview and i noe e interviewers weren't entirely impressed with me and of cos,i wasn't entirely impressed with myself either.i mean u will know eventually.and they haven call till now so with every minute passing,ur chance of getting in drop bits by bits.hahas.but let take nature in its course since i couldn't do anything to change e fact or turn back e clock.well,nevertheless,it a good experience and chance to get to ask for interview since there was like 250 applications and only 90 were ask for interview.so,i think it shows some kind of recognition,i bet.afterall,not getting in and getting in got its advantage and disadvantage. and getting in means lesser time for my studies and wadever wadever,so it may be a bless in disguise.=),last of all,i'm regretful to say that i can't convince myself to stop thinking about it.
n so now let proceed to school stuff.was juggling with jinyan and lijing birthday will my heavy load of work.and it was a nightmare.though it wasn't a very scary nightmare or wad.i'm just feeling tired,thats all.and holiday isn't holiday.and i'm regretful that i never treasure my holidays in e past as for this holiday,i got so much to do with so little time.homework is piling up like crazy.and i'm not feeling well either.hahas.and tmr got supplementary lesson maths and chemistry,tuesday too and oso not forgetting having MTL oral on tuesday.oh gawd.having mentioning to it reminds me i haven practice for it.argh.i'm going to later.ok,so i have forgotten wad i wanna say and type.my PPR result for term 1 was ok but i never did well. English and both science manage to scrape a B3 each,Chinese and E-Maths A1,Add Maths A2, Humanities C6.shall just gonna work hard to get better result and i will need to further strengthen on my Linear Inequalities and oso my science.shall just be slow and steady.well,shall just going to do my english summary later on.must clear my homework pile all by wednesday,hopefully.and oso study for my History which i'm quite worry for.
gtg.smilex always!!=)

i have so much thoughts in my mind and heart.
yet i can't express all here.

//Friday, March 02, 2007 9:59 PM

2.3.07

updating again.after nearly a week's time.hahas.anyway,it been a tough week for this week.find it so hard and unbearable to go through this week before reaching e weekend.and i hate to admit that i'm actually feeling down in the mouth[meaning depressed]..dun ask me why.it very obvious.it about my studies.haiya.flunking all my science.and i mean it.really flunk like crazy like that.haiix.it is so vexed lorx.make me so depressed n sad n inferior n i'm speechless....
actually i couldn't rmb wad had happened for e whole week.i have not been paying a lot of attention on wad happened today.just knew that we have chemistry practical today.aiya.was a mess lorx for goodness sake.and we handled some dangerous liquid like e acids which can disfigured u.i was like so nervous and scared lors.and that monotone did not help to calm my feelings.he was like telling us 'u noe e liquid that e indians used to pour ppl on their face and their face goes...' and we like so terrified.den someone mention about wad kat kat say earlier in the lesson.wad e whole thumb gone missing.and u noe wad i did when i pour finish e acid to my liquid?i go and press e mouth of e tube.den got 1 print of e mouth.i was like so scared lorx.but luckily,nth happened.
and next week got 4 test straight in a row.
Monday-A&E-Maths Mock Common Test
Tuesday-Maths Common Test
Wednesday-Chinese Diagnostic Test
Thursday-Physics Class Test.
i'm going mad.i'm like walking to a path of madness,berserk and crazyness.everything happening in school is driving me crazy.and yes,i told ppl that i regret complaining about my lower secondary life.i mean i never notice how wonderful it is.i'm really like feeling so stress up.about science,humanities and all sort of things.and thoughts of die-ing keep appearing in my mind.but i won't do it.i'm trying to juggle everything.
CCA-relationship with e secs 1 is much better.at least i'm not that really stern and fierce.and that gal who says 'dun play dun play lor' doesn't seems to be really disliking me.i hope so.definetely..sec 1 are quite nice.hahas.and i must admit i'm not a good mentor to teach e girls about those equipment.i'm not even sure of it.but i just roughly noe about it.and got camping during march holidays.start straight after holidays start which is friday.gosh.but i already signed up liao.since gb is going too cos got my beloved Jinyan.hahas.
and ya,maths supplementary on monday and tuesday.seems like more supplementary starting.i'm starting to prepare my notes for e exams.hope it isn't too late and be at least done by April and April start memorizing it.hope i can do it.got to knew something today.didn't want to tell her wad i knew.cos it would break her heart.and i dun want to see her so sad.so i decide to keep mum about it.until e time is ripen.and i suddenly rmb,ytd went for career fair.was fun and they press Liying who she likes.hahas.very funny la.and bought teens with lots of freebies.i'm considering which course i'm taking after o level.considering it only la.

gtg.watching hana kimi.smilex always!=)hope my mood can improved.

gosh.i mean i couldn't forget him.
thinking and missing him now and then.
even though i forget how he looks on e 2nd day.
i want to see him.=(