My Shadows.

//Friday, February 02, 2007 11:36 PM

2.2.07

Weekends arrive again.and yes,finally.yippee!!!haha..though i may seem exhilarated during my 1st few lines,but i can conclude one thing from this week and this is:It is not a very great week.okay,maybe shall just briefly say about wad happens for e past week.
Saturday-Went to Fahrenheit autograph sessions with Jinyan.arrive at near to 4 and it was packed like siao.we were tood not to check e queue 1st before buying e album and e queue was like super long.didn't manage to get autograph as i give up halfway,thinking that we weren't be able to get their signatures,and somehow,i think i did e right thing..heard from Simin,that a lot of them went home disappointed cos they couldn't get e autograph.but took pics of them,at quite near the stage.[was standing outside e yellow barrier]..though got quite a number of shot was unclear.posting pictures tmr if i could.
Monday-Couldn't rmb much except i knew that we get back our Chem common Test and English test.get 16/23 for chem and 16/30 for eng.phew,at least it is a pass.aiming for better results next time.and my chem marks was like such a pity for not getting A2 by 10/23[fractions],cos if u calculate using calculators,it will appears 69r13r23.somewhat like that if i didn't rmb wrongly.
Tuesday-What did i do ar?couldn't rmb anything except i know i did badly for e chem common test.and yes,i noe i did badly but till den,i thot i will at least get a pass until.......
Wednesday-Monotone loses his temper today.gosh,never see him so angry before.he was like throwing things on the table that is not related to Chemistry anywhere and my Add Maths Classbook was not spared at all.and it was only kat kat explain that why he threw temper den we noe why.we did not do well for our common test and he was very displeased.den my hope of passing is gone when kat kat say that got a qn if u did not write e word ''brown'',ur 2 marks will be gone and i was like really never write.so my hope of passing is gone.
Thursday-Ran 2.4km..timing:16.30.improve by 20 secs like that..not bad le..gonna jiayou for my 2.4km though i hate running.and yes,i mention hate.a phobia of running.den at nite,was like shocked that my Add maths classbook was missing.totally lost in mood to do anything except e desire to have my Add maths classbook.
Friday-which is today.nth much eventful.just that went to chemistry lab to mix with chemicals.so fun..haha..den my hand was like shaking.i couldn't control it as u noe i got thyroids,and my hand shakes.so sometime,e liquid spill out of e container a little bit.and ya,found my add maths classbook.was taken by Elaine and she oso have no idea why it was in her bag.
ok,schedule for e week was finish.shall begin on other stuffs.
hmms,after getting e Friday-Weekly today,was thinking of joining e student correspondent.den Mdm Yong said in e morning assembly,can look for her if interested.and i did not look for her cos i am not sure whether joining anot.and now,i came down with a conclusion:and i'm giving it a shot.i'm participating for it.
shall just try my luck as i'm quite interested in it.and she reminded us that if we are interested in Beijing Immersion Trip,get e consent form from e teacher during assembly.and i'm going to get it too.shall fight to go to Beijing.hopefully,i do have a chance to go.hopefully.in any case,that is e school life part.now is a bit on my feelings.
i thot i like him and been convincing myself it is just a moment of infatuation and i think i came it is really a moment of infatuation.I think i dun like him,perhaps just treating him as a frenx and nth much.it is just a moment only.and den other stuff had been bothering me too..like wad others had hurt me unknowingly by their actions.
I thought nth will change between us even though we are in different classes,but unfortunately, it seems not to be in that case.i been trying so hard to open up a conversation between us but it seems like it doesn't pay off..everytime,when we meet,e atmosphere will be like so cold and i will be like listening to u guys toking about wad happen in e class,and i will be like playing only e part of listening and participating in e conversation.words couldn't describe how i feel now..feeling so helpless and lost by all ur attitude and behaviour.i dun wish things to be ended like wad happen in e primary school and it looks like history had been repeated.i couldn't do anything.and i'm feeling down becos of e english compo stuff.write simple stuff inside and i think i gonna score lowly without any doubts.
gtg.my mind is in a whirl.couldn't think and sort out feelings.bur still,rmb smilex always!=)

life for me isn't oso any easier for me.i'm feeling tired too.
i'm bothered by tons of questions now without any anwer.
i can't figure out e ans and i'm getting to Zzz now.