My Shadows.

//Friday, February 23, 2007 10:43 PM

23.2.07

just finished History Homework.kind of like no mood to blog.but shall just blog cos i'm waiting for youtube to load finish.hahas.this week passes very fast and i hope that it just the starting of CNY..i am simply unprepared to study again.no mood.and i guess everybody is feeling the same.shall start blogging on Wednesday.
Wednesday-i can't rmb much except that we get back our Chemistry Paper and i fail just by a mere 1 mark.14/30.and i was like so happy and high?!?den melissa ask me why i so happy when i fail and i simply reply that e impact was so great that i became insane or siaox le.couldn't take the blow..but simply is becos i expect myself to fail and i'm trying harder the next time round.I will never ever give up.NEVER.cos i am xinying.and she will try her best not to give up.and ya,after school is PA,and i am like kind of stern and fierce?!?i guess so and i couldn't forget 1 sec 1 gal reaction when i ask them not to play and help to pack up.her lips was like 'dun play dun play lorx' and i was like so....no words could describe how i feel.i mean ppl who knows me know i'm quite serious at time and i simply dun like ppl to slack,just like wad the other did.and she give me this kind of attitude?i noe my life in PA is not going to be easy anymore.with me being e one acting fierce and having some air,i mean i couldn't help feeling being a senior is superior or having some control or power over them.it natural.and it just couldn't be help.I did talk to them after they were dismissed and that gal simply play with her fingers.and i couldn't forget about it.i couldn't.
Thursday- Memory failing.no idea wad i did.only noe my physic CT get 21/30 and i was like so happy.hahas.thankfully,dun have the draw wave direction or wadever.if not,i wouldn't get so high marks.and ya,next week CE go career exhibition.yippee!!can see all kinds of jobs.kind of deciding to set studying Chinese course in NP as my target.hopefully,i can really get into that course.hahas.and ya,play volleyball and it was so painful after hitting e ball.hands is all red.
Friday[which is today]- Chemistry Practical next week.need to read up TB pg 204-208. hopefully,i wish i can do the test without any major mistakes.able to derive which is what.haiix. and i can't rmb much already.and ya,i send in e student correspondent form ytd.but i do not noe whether it will be receive by today.Hopefully, a Yes,pls?i'm quite worried for it actually.and i'm planning to do some exercise tmr in e evening.starting with my slimming programme.hopefully,it won't be given up so soon.hahas.and ya,i'm writing up wad to be done by next PA meetings.hopefully,it runs smoothly.
gtg.watch youtube and Channel U Friday Movie.smilex always!=)

been thinking about him after that meet.
hopefully it is just a moment of infatuation.
and yes.an Infatuation only.

//Tuesday, February 20, 2007 4:06 PM

Updating!=)

Happy Chinese New Year!!=)
Sorry for my late greetings and update cos i am very lazy during e not very long break.was slacking throughout.hahas.actually wasn't slacking.i was like chionging my homework even on e eve of e new year and well,of course,even after countdown,i am still busy doing my maths,but eventually,i finish all my homework only today.@_@..[speechless]
hmms,didn't really enjoy new year for this year as was fretting over my science subjects.haiix.it been so frustrating lorx over my science things.and i dun really enjoy science.My SPA is gonna flunk for sure.cos i can't see a straight line through e wadever thing,my chemistry was like.......
haiix.it been troublesome enough.how i wish i am in my lala land forever.how i wish my holidays never end.how i wish i could enjoy my holiday right now.and it is not happening.=(.shall start with wad i do on e 1st day of new year.
-Basically,i do nth.i was like slacking throughout e new year,and new year is should be e period of time we should and could slack,do you agree?i agree with myself,and i was like having fun with only eating and eating.people coming to our house are lesser and lesser.and i saw him.e guy i thought which is quite shuai which is my ????.erm,i dunno how to address him la.but he is quite good-looking.i am drooling.=.=''..ok,i'm nuts liao.den was having a movie marathon too,watching a series of unfortunate events,Narnia and a bit of a movie starring Mel Gibson which is a story about red-indians.and ya,a bit of world trade center too.was playing scissor paper stone with e kids.and they are so cute and lovable.peeps.there are so many kids in my house and i feel like i'm so old.hahas.
-Second day of CNY.go with my sister as we were very slow.took sis bf sports car go.yippe!and sis later complain that i close his car door with too much strength.=.=''..den i was e 1st who take a peep at my grandmother house.saw someone which i dun recognise.take a closer and farther look.saw dad,bro and mum.and i finally dare to go in.and i only realise later they were my mum ??? son.i saw them when i was young but not recently.both of them are shuai de lorx.1 is of e same age of me,was born on 1st August and he is my 表舅..hahas.den later it was me who initiates to talk to me.he seems boring and quiet and so i started a conversation with him.see i so good,makes more people not to be boring.@_@..hahas.and he is so shuai lorx.i'm falling for him?!?!hahas,erm,no comments for it.den didn't manage to get his number n email.pity.maybe next time?hahas.perhaps.since i noe he is studying in Marsiling Sec.and i noe whr he lives.diaox.ok,Xinying 发花痴 again.haiix.old problem.peeps.
-hmms,today i finish my Chinese newspaper report and my self-intro le.self intro was done ytd.den waiting for sis to check and later print,and i am all ready to send it.hope i can be one of them.and ya,i will finish my physics qns later.and of course,Beijing Immersion trip form.and tmr need to go to school again.so sianx.my holiday mood is still not over yet.=(..anyway,i must start exercising le.gain weight as i only do mouth movement during e new year.hahas.and ya,my total hongbaos money is $200plus this year,better than any other year.maybe shall go round and collect more hongbaos.hahas.
gtg.gonna do other things and wait for YLBFB to start.enjoy e last few hours of new year holiday!!=)

//Friday, February 16, 2007 8:09 PM

Happy Lunar New Year!

Just an early wish to everybody,Happy New Year!!
hahas.i noe i'm being kanchong.haha.anyway, life in Sec 3 was kind of disastrous,complete different from Sec 2 and i'm regretting why i keep complaining in Sec 1 & 2 that life is hard and difficult.=(..and mr kat just talk to me in msn and i think i fail my chemistry test.=(..sad news before e New Year.hmms,gonna buck up on chemistry le.physics too.physics practical is simply a disastrous thing to me.couldn't see e straight line,reflected or refracted rays and cannot place e pins properly.i feel so depressed and sad and i'm speechless....sometimes,i wish to end my life.but rest assured,other thoughts overwhelmed not long after i have that kind of stupid thoughts.i have so many things left undone,for goodness sake,and things i haven done before..e.g erm,in love?!?!..haha,i must be mad but this is contain some facts inside.continuing with my rountine on telling briefing wad i done for e whole week:
Monday-i can only rmb got Add maths test.erm,i manage to finish every qns.hahas.yippee!cos this is e 1st time i finish before e time limits and i noe how to do all qns except e last one which i forgot to convert it back,causing me to lose 1 marks have e thoughts going to bang e wall.
Tuesday-rmb only got Physics test.haha..i noe how to answer almost all e qns but i can't gurantee i will score me,already 1m gone due to e implusion of changing my answer.@_@..hahas,and my maths test get 8/10.yippee!!
Wednesday-Just noe that erm i was very tired after e rehearsal den at nite was kana scolded my parents cos i misplace my history books in e house.den i cry like mad cos i was under great stress and they weren't encouraging me or wad.den i was like in a total breakdown.haix.enough of it and thus it cause my mood e next day to be very bad and blueish.
Thursday-erm,i dunno wad i done.i can't rmb anything of ytd except throwing temper at Jinyan early in e morning.Sorry.cos u were late far too much den i was in a bad mood and thus it happen that i scolded u.and ya,ytd Total Defence Day,our group was having so much fun after e conference conversation ytd.hahas.our group was mad lorx.
Friday-which is today.have e CNY concert,thankfully,it was successful as there was never a big cork up that occured.phew.though communication between e Mongolian troupe was a problem.but i never play a big part in e event as they usually and normally dun let me play a big part.=(
enough of it,i'm gtg soon.cos changing new blogskins and helping mr kat to set up a blog and i'm gonna write my self-intro compo le.i'm like dead with it lorx.dragging for 1 week le.hahas.
gtg.smilex always!=)

//Saturday, February 10, 2007 11:41 PM

Show Luo!!!!

yippee!!!saw Luo Zhi Xiang aka Show aka 羅志祥..hahaz..and get his signature too!!!so happy..though was a little bit remorseful of smudging a little bit of his signature..making it a little bit not that nice..it was really careless of me lorx..den i smudge amelia too..=((((((..so unhappy lorx.and ya,shall start with e day 1st.
wait for Jinyan for about 30mins before she arrives.and was damn irritated lorx.den later she tell me that it was e gb fault which like delay her and we get there at about 1 plus.den something happens to Jinyan..she was caught eating by a not working SMRT staff,causing to delay some time and she was like given a warning.and Jinyan was like super furious by that lady.i was also a little bit not that happy too,cos she is delaying our time..but no choice.den after that went to e venue and saw nobody there and we was like why no people?den we go outside and check for e notice.actually,it was not no people but e queue starts at e 1st floor and we went down lorx.i go queue up 1st as jinyan goes to toilet.den e queue was like so long till e construction site there.no choice and we queue up.Thankfully,we did queue up.hahas.cos like about an hour like that of waiting,[during that period,i go buy food and album and teach jinyan do some maths.] they all suddenly stand up and e line keep moving consistently.it was about 5 like that with lijing and kash around[they join us later], e security sae e door to open plaza was closed,den ask us to try our luck and at e 3rd storey.and guess wad?everybody chiong la and there was traffic jam there la.not moving and nevertheless to say,squeezing too.but i think i got e aunties character,cos i was like keep moving into e empty spaces like those auntie did.haha.den suddenly when we near e door there,the two main door opens and people is like chionging inside and of course i was one of them.when got in,i realised that Jinyan was NOT IN!!!den i was like really panicking le.den after not long,she saw me and join me in e queue.and we were like so heng that we are together.actually once in e open plaza,U R SAFE already.cos u will 100% guarantee plus warranty get his signature de.hahas.ok,den about 7 like that,get his signature le.den in e queue,keep taking pictures of him.is not clear la cos was using my hp.den ask jinyan to send me her photo.and den when up there,i say ''Xiaozhu,Jiayou!''..but i doubt he got hear me.cos he didn't seem to have any reaction.hahas..but shake hand with him.yippee!effort not wasted le.den later due to my carelessness,smudge his signature a little bit.was remorseful lorx.but never mind la.at least got his signature.shall continue from e part that saw his performance after he sign all e ppl album.and ya,we were like hoping kash to be noticed.hahas.cos our dear Lijing sacrificed e chance to go up on stage to let kash go..den she really was being noticed and took pictures by e staff,but too bad not with xiaozhu.den saw his performance,we were like quite in front..but can't really rmb his face and feature cos was busying filming and i noe one fact and that is he is very shuai..haha.
ok.end of it.got take pictures but all not very clear la.but i focus more on recording.haha.cos can watch his performance mahx.gonna upload e picture.e videos maybe put for ppl to download bahx.if i got time to upload.several things to be done by tmr:

English Compre-Escape from Cyclone
Reading Task-Jakarta Flood
Chinese Letter Format
Add Maths Revision
Physics Textbook Revision
Filling up e Beijing Immersion Trip form
Compo of Self-Introduction for Student Coresspondent

now suffer a lot of side-effect.hand aching,leg aching.eyes closing.almost all part of my body is worn out.hope i can finish doing wad i should do.
gtg.sleeping soon cos waking up early to do all e stuffs i should do.smilex always!=)

Pictures Section
P.S.This are all e best taken pictures le.hahas.

Performance Pix after signing all albums.
P.S.didn't take lots of pictures cos was busy recording.think can go Jinyan blog and see e pictures.she took a lot.

Random

e circle one is e smudging part.=(

To sum up everything,e autograph sessions was much much more better den e Fahrenheit one.but e not so good part was e part where e security guard say ask us to go 3rd storey and try our luck and get his auto.if not,it will much much more better.and i won't be going to any autograph session lately le.i think probably i will only go for xiaozhu one.he is a good artist!!

//Friday, February 09, 2007 11:03 PM

Weekends is back!!!

people,YOOOO!!!i'm back to update my blog le as it is Friday again..yippee!!!well,wad could i say about this week?hmms..it is a depressing yet happy week..that is e only words i know how to describe for this week.flunk almost all my test.add maths test only get 8/25,chemistry get 17/30 and SS..dunno lehx..shall just blog briefly about e past 5 days wad i did.
Monday-After school got add maths test,some qns totally dunno how to do and i am stupid not to try out resulting getting disgusting results.i'm damn angry with myself la.i am like so small lorx.thinking back i knew everything,but i actually little or nothing.
Tuesday-Get back add maths test paper,dunnid to say,flunk like mad.get 8/25..was like so depressed lorx.den got SS common test.Just chunk things that i rmb in my brains.hahas.
Wednesday-get back chemistry test,get 17/30..was like feeling super low and blueish that day lorx.lost to siew lee and was like rank 4th among e 5 of us.haiix.anyway,that day wasn't a great day.and ya,got add maths test,and i like flunk it again.
Thursday-Mr tay never come again for PE lesson again.got NIE teacher and teach us volleyball.yay!!no running on Thursday for 5 weeks.wish they teach at here forever.No running please!and get back Add maths test,get 5/10.siewlee get 7/10.was depressed again.
Friday-was announced that Monday got add maths test.i vow to get good results for it.at least an A,please!no border line passing or even failing.or perhaps win siew lee.and ya,got chem test on wednesday.about seperation techniques.wasn't sure wad it is cos i was busy doing dunno wad.den got 1 part of e testing chemical,pour too much ammonia and e smell was like so strong.nearly vomitted out.
shall continue using this font from here.den after assembly,go and get Beijing Immersion Trip form.hope to get in as i badly wish to go to Beijing.I want to go!!!!and ya,changing blogskins soon.before new year and hopefully,by this week.got a lot of meaningful pictures.in a dilemma to choose which one.want to be a little bit happy and not sad 1.since it is new year soon..but not changing from my cute cute style.peeps.and ya,wad was i going to blog ar?yes,rmb le.going to xiaozhu autograph sessions tmr with jinyan.yippee!!can see xiaozhu.hopefully,by 1 i reach there isn't too late.hopefully.bringing my work there and do.revise physics there.hahas.hope can revise quite a number of sums.hmms.seems to blog too little.nvm,tmr den blog more.it is late and mediacorp forum is super slow.qi si wo le.so never use mediacorp forum now.and syed,jiasheng,zhenguang get so good results.so envy.nvm,Jiayou for me!i'm going to work harder.and ya,i chiong finish maths homework le.physics still a little bit dunno.asking sis when she is back from e chalet.
gtg.working on my skins le.and probably got time,on e description of me for e student correspondent.

//Sunday, February 04, 2007 12:10 AM

Low and Low

gawd.my mood today is very blueish.more blue than my fonts.haiya,in any case,my mood today and spirit is very very low.saw Doreen change new skins,tempted me to change my skins too..been a month le lehx..gonna change it soon..when i'm free..and it will be before new year..
woke up at 10plus..den read newspaper,after that,do my Add maths homework..finish with Exercise 2.3 without asking my brother and sister.when i'm in mood to do maths,i believe i can do well..last time was worried about my add maths book,that why dun have e mood..ok,den later procced to chinese newspaper..finish e 2 newspaper report and it like 2 plus le..eat lunch den use com till 5,6 plus..was doing a report on school for e student correspondent stuffs..sis help me edit and i think got at 20-30% was her editing..haiya,have doubts on my abilities le la..nvm,shall learn from my old mistakes and improve on it..den now is near 1am le.my eyelids is closing le and i haven finish revising my physics class test.and gosh,haven do my SS notes..gtg..and here is e Fahrenheit photos i promised.
[u]Things to be finish by tomorrow:[/u]

Do finish my history homework.
Go to popular and buy e idioms book and correction tapes.
Start writing about myself for e student correspondent stuffs.
Start doing my SS notes.

Pictures Moment:

P.S.i think i really need to buck up on phototaking skills.so blurish.and it is not my camera lousy or wad.it just that our hands are shaking and e person is moving.or perhaps my camera isn't that good.

//Friday, February 02, 2007 11:36 PM

2.2.07

Weekends arrive again.and yes,finally.yippee!!!haha..though i may seem exhilarated during my 1st few lines,but i can conclude one thing from this week and this is:It is not a very great week.okay,maybe shall just briefly say about wad happens for e past week.
Saturday-Went to Fahrenheit autograph sessions with Jinyan.arrive at near to 4 and it was packed like siao.we were tood not to check e queue 1st before buying e album and e queue was like super long.didn't manage to get autograph as i give up halfway,thinking that we weren't be able to get their signatures,and somehow,i think i did e right thing..heard from Simin,that a lot of them went home disappointed cos they couldn't get e autograph.but took pics of them,at quite near the stage.[was standing outside e yellow barrier]..though got quite a number of shot was unclear.posting pictures tmr if i could.
Monday-Couldn't rmb much except i knew that we get back our Chem common Test and English test.get 16/23 for chem and 16/30 for eng.phew,at least it is a pass.aiming for better results next time.and my chem marks was like such a pity for not getting A2 by 10/23[fractions],cos if u calculate using calculators,it will appears 69r13r23.somewhat like that if i didn't rmb wrongly.
Tuesday-What did i do ar?couldn't rmb anything except i know i did badly for e chem common test.and yes,i noe i did badly but till den,i thot i will at least get a pass until.......
Wednesday-Monotone loses his temper today.gosh,never see him so angry before.he was like throwing things on the table that is not related to Chemistry anywhere and my Add Maths Classbook was not spared at all.and it was only kat kat explain that why he threw temper den we noe why.we did not do well for our common test and he was very displeased.den my hope of passing is gone when kat kat say that got a qn if u did not write e word ''brown'',ur 2 marks will be gone and i was like really never write.so my hope of passing is gone.
Thursday-Ran 2.4km..timing:16.30.improve by 20 secs like that..not bad le..gonna jiayou for my 2.4km though i hate running.and yes,i mention hate.a phobia of running.den at nite,was like shocked that my Add maths classbook was missing.totally lost in mood to do anything except e desire to have my Add maths classbook.
Friday-which is today.nth much eventful.just that went to chemistry lab to mix with chemicals.so fun..haha..den my hand was like shaking.i couldn't control it as u noe i got thyroids,and my hand shakes.so sometime,e liquid spill out of e container a little bit.and ya,found my add maths classbook.was taken by Elaine and she oso have no idea why it was in her bag.
ok,schedule for e week was finish.shall begin on other stuffs.
hmms,after getting e Friday-Weekly today,was thinking of joining e student correspondent.den Mdm Yong said in e morning assembly,can look for her if interested.and i did not look for her cos i am not sure whether joining anot.and now,i came down with a conclusion:and i'm giving it a shot.i'm participating for it.
shall just try my luck as i'm quite interested in it.and she reminded us that if we are interested in Beijing Immersion Trip,get e consent form from e teacher during assembly.and i'm going to get it too.shall fight to go to Beijing.hopefully,i do have a chance to go.hopefully.in any case,that is e school life part.now is a bit on my feelings.
i thot i like him and been convincing myself it is just a moment of infatuation and i think i came it is really a moment of infatuation.I think i dun like him,perhaps just treating him as a frenx and nth much.it is just a moment only.and den other stuff had been bothering me too..like wad others had hurt me unknowingly by their actions.
I thought nth will change between us even though we are in different classes,but unfortunately, it seems not to be in that case.i been trying so hard to open up a conversation between us but it seems like it doesn't pay off..everytime,when we meet,e atmosphere will be like so cold and i will be like listening to u guys toking about wad happen in e class,and i will be like playing only e part of listening and participating in e conversation.words couldn't describe how i feel now..feeling so helpless and lost by all ur attitude and behaviour.i dun wish things to be ended like wad happen in e primary school and it looks like history had been repeated.i couldn't do anything.and i'm feeling down becos of e english compo stuff.write simple stuff inside and i think i gonna score lowly without any doubts.
gtg.my mind is in a whirl.couldn't think and sort out feelings.bur still,rmb smilex always!=)

life for me isn't oso any easier for me.i'm feeling tired too.
i'm bothered by tons of questions now without any anwer.
i can't figure out e ans and i'm getting to Zzz now.