My Shadows.

//Tuesday, December 12, 2006 11:45 PM

To the hospital

ok..i dun have much time for this blog post but i will make it as detailed as possible becos i'm left with 15mins to the show..ok here is wad happen today:
I went to see e family doctor in e afternoon..and spent about probably 30 mins waiting for it..den my turn and i went it..i practised a lot of opera lesson today cos the doctor wanna check whether e bone is stuck at my throat or wad,so they use 1 wooden thing to stop my mouth moving n i have to keep saying 'ahhhhhhhhh'..family doctor couldn't see anything and i was referred to hospital. Yes,a hospital.n u can guess how shocked and afraid i am..so make my trip to hospital.NUH.and jinyan sms me to ask about sentosa stuffs,n i can say i was totally not in e mood to do anything,reply anything,say anything.my mind was blank.i was afraid for goodness sake.damn scared.so i just briefly reply her,sorry Jinyan,u must understand how i feel at that time,lost,sick,n was super afraid as i told u.
Hospital
i arrived at hospital den take temperature,den went into a room not long after,take my weight.56.4kg..not in e mood to concern about my weight that time,and den saw a doctor and there i was doing my opera lesson again.he couldn't say any bones and my tongues was like keep moving n he spray something bitter liquid into my mouth,making my tongue go almost numb almost instantly..and check again,couldn't see anything,so how?take x-ray..waited awhile n e staffs ask me to take off my tops in a room,specs wadever,and change into a hospital kimono.i nv ever want to wear that again,believe me.and i take e screening in about a few secs..
after awhile,see a doctor from ENT,i think so..and he brought me to observatory bay and into a room,where my real nightmare starts to come.he at 1st go n take some super long scissors,dunno how to explain..and we starts to have opera lessons again.unfortunately,he could only see swelling n nth else,so how?he go out n returns awhile later with something more horrifying.but it dun works.he take his keys,open a cabinet and take out e most scarriest thing.he go n spray some liquids into e nose,den use e horrifying thing to poke my nose,n keep on poking my nose.and he still couldn't see anything.believe me,it was super painful that i cry and i never wanted to see that thing again.so how?couldn't see anything and got 2 conclusion.
1.the fish bone might be swallow already though hurt my throat causing it to feel some pain sometimes.
2.the fish bones is very deep in e throat and put under observation.
in the end,wad can i do?gonna return to hospital next week n probably see if it got stuck really n maybe have operation or wadever to take out e bones.omg.i dun wanna operation,so ppl,pls pray for me that my condition wouldn't be that severe for operation.I'm damn afraid n scared right now.i will try n finish my maths this week,in case i really need to.......admit to hospital.
wish me good luck,pls!gtg..signing off,not in a good mood now.